66. The kids' Nanny.

Deangelo.

Seeing dad walk in at the exact same time that I was almost contemplating walking up to Elena and kissing the life out of all was sort of relieving yet annoying. I had been watching her take water from the fridge and the way the shirt she was on covered next to nothing on her made me as hard as a rock in less than minutes. I have to also remind her to be a bit covered up when she comes out of her room at nights because, sometimes, it may not be just me that sees her like that, the same exact way that dad had just seen her too.

I was loosing my head over Elena but then making any move just kept me feeling like I would be making another grave mistake of my life, it also felty like I would simply be betraying my late wife and my kids if I do try to make this more mutual between us both. I know that doing this would not be hard because even though Elena acts like she is so scared out of her skin of me, I was very sure that she felt something for me too and this feeling is so strong that I keep thinking that maybe my wolf is right and she is my second chance mate.

It is known that werewolves only get one mate for their entire life and even if anything goes wrong and they do not end up together for long, none of them gets another mate, they just would never get that connection, not again, not ever. But that is so not my case with Elena, it is so unreal and confusing even for me. The feelings keep growing day by day and no matter how hard I try to act like it is nothing big or strong, I still know deep down that i am just trying so hard to dismiss what I feel.

Dad took a seat beside me at the lounge, I had just gotten back from a run in my wolf form and I was even contemplating going for more before the encounter with Elena and dad happened. He had nit visited for years, not even during my wife’s first anniversary and he had also said that he saw no reason for us to keep having mom’s remembrance even after so many years. Even though a lot of people think he is very cruel and stone-hearted, I feel like he just keeps trying to shut himself away from the world, Knowing him, he was literally very obsessed and in love with mom and it was something that I knew as a kid.

It was of popular view back then that he was very stubborn and would only always do whatever he wanted and the only person who could ever change his mind each time was his wife. All mom needed to do was bat her eyelashes or even smile at him, and he would be by her side like a puppy, he loved her so much so when what happened happened, he blamed himself. He blamed himself for the trip hr took at that crucial moment, he blamed himself for putting her in danger due to the pack he runs, and honestly, I think that he still blames himself till now.

“So what have you been doing concerning the avenging you are supposed to base your entire existence on, Deangelo?” He asked me and I could already see where the conversation was heading, one that I was very sure that I definitely would not like.

“Uh... it is going on perfectly well, dad. I think?” I replied even though I also know that I was not exactly gaining any upper hand against that pack, they always seem to have their plans well thought out so it had never been easy for me to actually get through to the leaders of that pack, the ones whose heads I actually want on a spike.

“You are so not doing anything, Deangelo, not even a little effort. At least not anymore, the Amato pack keeps getting stronger as they multiply in numbers even when I had trained you and raised you to alienate them all, without leaving a single one out, baby nor child. The fact that this has even gone for so many years is stupid, these people stroke again and took your wife’s life just as they had taken your mom’s when you were younger and even when I thought that it should be a greater drive for you to get ahead of them as fast and soon as you can, two years later, you still have not gotten a upper hand or even wiped them all out, they still live happily like they should not be living!” Dad said to me, his voice getting sterner by the second, I could tell that he was disappointed and angry.

“Dad, we have killed so many of their men too, we still did last month-”

“Oh! Shut up, will you? That is why they are smarter than you are, they do not kill your own men because they see no reason to, they know that these people are not as important so what do they do, they go for the people nearest to your heart and they take their time. While you keep taking out their men, do they seem to reduce? Are they even so bothered? When they strike, they strike harder, not your men but your heart because they know how harder that hits, how weak you become when they do that, you have to start using more of your sense than your heart! You are literally the cause of Jule’s death, she died because of your disobedience!” Dad continued to scold and the last statement hit a nerve because I know that he was right.

“If only you had listened to me about not getting married to some woman or even getting so involved with her, this would never have happened to that poor lady! You thought I was been over the edge with you and then you found your mate, but then did you or did you not realize that all I had been doing was just for your own good, so that you would not get as worst as I am? Now, look at what you have done!”

“Dad, please, give me a break. This was two years ago already.” I said meekly as I tried so hard not to think back to that incident with Jules. Each time I do, I end up in tears and that was so not a look I wanted my dad to see right now, I would not want him to get into another lecture of the alpha of his pack being so weak.

“I am not going to give you a break, Deangelo. You keep loosing focus and I find it very stupid of you! You are an alpha!” He snapped this time, his voice loud.

“There is literally nothing else I am actually focusing on right now other than that, dad. I just want to go bigger too.” I responded even though something immediately nudged at me that I was lying.

“Do you think I am blind or stupid, Deangelo? I have only been here for a day and I can already sense the connection between you and that girl you introduced to me as the kids’ nanny! You both can barely take your eyes off one another. I literally see you going down the same path that you did with Jules, this is exactly how you started with her almost fifteen years ago.” Dad said and I am so not surprised that he noticed such tiny little detail, he was Alessandro Ferrari after all. I was also not really doing a good job hiding my feelings, I could not help but wonder if a lot of people in the pack notices this as well.

“There is nothing between Elena and I, dad. She is just the kids’ nanny and they are the first one they are so very fond of, that’s all, nothing more. There is absolutely no way that Elena would be a source of distraction for me, just not happening.” I assured dad who looked like he was definitely not believing the bullshit that I was spewing out of my mouth, but then do I even believe it either?

“I do not believe anything that comes out of your mouth, Deangelo, not a single thing. At least not until you show me what I want to see, not until you paint the town with the Amato’s blood and make sure you hang the heads of their alpha and beta on a rod, not until all of that happens will I believe you.” He said bitterly and then continued, “and I will give you an advice on how to get that to happen as fast as possible, cut off every distractions, if what would get them to be cut of is even killing them, do it-”

“What? Kill Elena? Come on, dad! I do not need to that to get myself back on track.” I quickly cut him off and he sent me a glare, “I did not even mention a name and you just exposed yourself by yourself.” He said and I bite my tongue hard knowing that I just slipped up.

“Uh... I will be find, dad. Trust me.”

The talk with dad was enough to send me back on the track that I was supposed to be on in the first place, so I decided to go on a trip. I had heard from my informants and spies that some of the Amato pack were going to be convening in another country and so I decided to go with Luca and just two other gammas to cause as much chaos as possible. After kissing my kids goodbye, i did not bother to meet Elena’s eyes because deep down I know that dad was right and this was my own way of taking his advice.

I was cutting all distractions off.