Chapter 27: He Loves Me

Julian pays for the pizza and the pizza guy gets a picture with him. They high five and then he leaves. “Pizza everyone!” He puts them on the kitchen table and looks at her. After they eat, she starts picking up the trash.

He sneaks in next to her and grabs a kiss. The girls watch them and say “Awe.” She blushes and then picks up the rest of the scraps and boxes.

He breaks the silence with, “Hey I just remembered I did bring my guitar, it’s in your car.” He looks at her and grabs her hand pulling her towards the door. They walk out to the car and after he grabs the guitar, he kisses her passionately. When they walk back in, they find out that everyone was watching them kiss.

“Mom, is Julian staying the night?” Lilly asks quietly as her and Kelly stand in the corner.

“No, Lilly why would he?” She responds.

“Because he likes you. That wasn’t a friendly kiss.” She looks like she wants to say more, but she doesn’t.

“First of all, Lilly people don’t stay the night just because they like each other. You should love each other.” She answers.

“But Grayson stayed the night here and you have stayed over there. Does that mean that you love each other?” Lilly asks.

She pauses for a minute. “No, that is different. He loves me and I do care for him. I just am not quite to the love part yet.” While she thinks of a way to get out of this conversation, Julian walks over next to her.

“Do you love my mom?” Lilly looks at Julian expectantly. He kneels to Lilly and responds to her question with, “I am very much in love with her.”

Lilly gives him a great big bear hug and then asks, “What is the difference between in love and love?”

“Well, you can love your sister and mom. You cannot be in love with them. Love is something you feel for someone. Being in love is feeling like the world would end if that person didn’t exist in it. It is a feeling only two people, for instance a man and woman can feel for each other. Do you kind of understand?” He gives Lilly a quick wink.

“I think so.” Lilly smiles. "Does that mean if mom married Grayson instead of you that your world would end?"

He smiles, "Yes, I do believe so. Hey, I know. I wrote your mom a song and maybe it can explain it more to you. Do you want to hear it?” He waits patiently for her answer.

“Yes, oh yes.” Lilly jumps up and down.

He takes Kelly’s hand and sits her on the couch, then he kneels in front of her and starts to play his guitar. When he gets done with the song, everyone is cheering. Kimmy is screaming, “Oh my god! He made that song for your mom. That is just so cool. Is it going to be on your next CD?”

“I think so. Did you guys like it?” He asks them all. The girls and Samantha all say yes. Meanwhile, Kelly sits quietly blushing.

Julian notices that she is so quiet and asks her, “What’s wrong, didn’t you like it?”

“Oh, nothing’s wrong it was beautiful. I’m just getting tired. I have had a long day. Are you really going to put it on your next CD?” She asks as she tries not to let her emotions get in the way.

“Yes, I think I will.”

The girls beg him to sing some more songs, so he plays for a while. It starts to get towards the kids’ bedtime, so Samantha suggests that she takes Jaime and Kimmy back to her parent's house. Kelly agrees that it would be a good idea. They do not want to leave, of course. But Samantha insists, so they go.

Kelly has Lilly get ready for bed and then she says goodnight. He comes in and sings her a bedtime song. Afterwards, everything is quiet as they start to sit down on the couch.

Samantha returns and strikes up a conversation with Julian. “So, what do you honestly think you’re doing with my sister?”

“Samantha, what the hell?” Kelly looks at her like she wants to kill her.

“Um, I’m trying to get to know you all better so I can become a part of your family. Hopefully, you will like me as much as I like you guys.” He looks at Samantha and Kelly. “I’m trying to prove to Kelly that we could all get along. That we would make a good family and I am more than just a rock star.”

“Why, are you trying to prove this to her?” Samantha looks at Julian inquisitively.

“I figured that if she is willing to, you all could move in with me. It’s just trying to convince her that is the problem. After all, my house is more than big enough for all of us, and it’s paid for. I could take care of you all, very well. The girls would not ever want for anything. You could enroll them in a private school if you even wanted to.” He holds Kelly’s hand.

The room gets eerily quiet for a few minutes as Kelly and Samantha think about what to say. “You know if it was me, I would jump on that in a heartbeat. Of course, I don’t have kids. They tend to change everything.” Samantha looks at Kelly thoughtfully.

Kelly gives her a dirty look, “Julian, if this was before I had kids, I would pack up my stuff right now and never look back. You are just so incredibly wonderful, but a romance when you have kids must be taken slow. I barely know you. I do not want them hurt by anyone. Even if they don’t mean too. I do owe that to my kids.”

She sighs and goes on.

“When my husband died, it tore a hole in all our hearts. He did take care of us though. That is why I am not worried about money. When he died, he had a large insurance policy. I never have to think about it. He was an incredibly good man, a wonderful father, and a loving husband. I can’t just replace that so quickly. I’m afraid they will forget about him.” She tears up.

Samantha excuses herself for the night so they can talk alone. He cups her chin in his hand and kisses her lips softly, then he kisses the tears away. She just starts to cry more and more, so she buries her head in his shoulder and cries. His fingers caress her hair, and she stops crying.

He whispers in her ear, “It’s o.k. baby. I'm so in love with you. We can go as slow as you need to.” She lifts her head and stares into his deep blue eyes as they feel like they pierce through her very soul.

“I’m sorry. I just remembered how much it hurt when he died. I don’t think I ever cried afterwards. I kept it all inside locked away, till now. I can’t believe I just unloaded this all on you.”

“Baby, that’s nothing. I am just glad you are opening to me. I am glad you can trust me enough to share this moment. I really am sorry that this ever happened to you. If I could, I would give anything so that you wouldn’t ever have to have that pain.” He holds her hands.

She stands up and grabs his hand, leading him to the bedroom. “I want you to stay the night with me.”

“Oh, are you sure? How will Lilly take this in the morning? You have just had a conversation with her tonight about not sleeping with someone unless you love them.”

“I know.” She starts to take her clothes off as he watches her, following her he does the same. She notices that as soon as she takes the rest of her clothes off, he grows hard. Walking up to him she takes him into her hand and caresses him kneeling. Her tongue licks the end and her mouth envelopes the rest. He moans as her head bobs back and forth. She grabs his ass and digs in while she sucks harder, then he explodes. He keeps shaking so she gently licks him.

He grabs her hands and pulls her up. His hand touches her cheek, and he kisses her passionately. As he looks into her eyes, he lays her down on the bed. His lips kiss her as soft as a feather and slowly moves down to her neck, then kisses each of her breasts. He moves down to her nipples while he flicks his tongue out and runs it down to her navel, soon he descends between her legs. He licks her sweetness, warm and soft. She moans louder, then he caresses her with his fingers till they drip with her honey.

He moves back up and kisses her lips deeply as he grows hard again. He spreads her legs and plunges deep within her. She gasps for air and moans rather loudly, then he slides out. He asks her, “How much do you want me?”

“I want you this much.” She grabs his hips and takes all of him inside her in one giant thrust. He moans and smiles.

“Oh, that much. Hmm.” He stops and stares at her.

“Please, give it to me.” She begs and kisses him.

“O.k. only because I love you so much.” Kissing her softly, he slides in between her legs.

He can feel the warmth envelope him, as he enters her. She moans again and she stares at him with pleading eyes. Her lips pierce as he kisses her fully, then he rocks back and forth into her, wrapping her legs around him.

He raises up off the bed and sits up while sitting her on top of him. He pushes her hips up and down as her legs pump off the bed. Their tongues slip over each other while they kiss. She hovers over him and then takes him into her, all wet and hot, then he stops her. His face covered in pleasure as he moans. He kisses her passionately and then falls back on the bed.

She lays beside him on the bed and lays gentle kisses on him. “I don’t know how I am going to explain this one in the morning, but I want you to stay with me. I want to be able to feel you next to me, it helps me sleep.” She pulls the covers up on the bed and kisses him goodnight.

He turns to her, “I would give anything for this right now.”

“Well, you’ve got it and you don’t have to give anything. Just yourself.” She smiles and snuggles up to him as she falls asleep. He watches her for a while until he finally gives up sleeping himself.