Chapter 20

She was worried about it. Worried about the words that will go out. She wasn't ready for the attention she'd get and the questions she'd be asked concerning it.

She wondered how the world would like her, a girl who has been molested by her father and given to other men by her father to please them.

She felt disgusted with herself. She remember how she almost committed suicide and how she had so many suicidal thoughts for a year before finally finding a way to forget her pains.

Lily and Dorothy felt bad for their friend. They felt really bad because they hadn't known all the while they've been friends and the fact she has been molested from the age of sixteen. They knew they hadn't done a good job being her friend as they didn't notice her pain which she hid with a bright smile and smart mouth.

"No!" Lily exclaimed.

"You will not suffer anymore from his hands. He must punish Stacy. He molested you, abused you, sold you out for his own gains and you almost died! You cannot keep me during such torture, this us a big crime against you especially since it started when you were a minor." Lily said. She wouldn't let her friend go through any more of that abuse and she wouldn't mind ruining Stacy's father in the process.

"Lily..you don't get it," she cried out.

"It's not that I do not want to ruin him. If anything..." She sniffled a little.

"If anything I hate him more than anyone in this world. He ruined me, took away my virtue forcefully. Beat and kicked me. Gave me to his investors and business partners for his gains but then, imagine what would happen when it is revealed. Not just my father but I'd also be ruined. I'd be the girl who her father molested all over the news and the thought of me walking on the streets with people looking at me with sympathy and side-talks...I do not think I am ready for any of it." She cried out.

Lily's heart clenched. She understood Stacy's point but there were other ways they could go about it without Stacy face in the picture. If they let it go, there is no chance that Stacy's father won't cause any more damage in the future.

"You are just being foolish!" Dorothy spat out. The tears that streamed down Dorothy's face could confuse anyone who didn't know who was actually in pain. Dorothy felt as if she was the one being molested and as she imagined the thought, she couldn't help but cringe.

Images of Stacy's father smiling at her made her disgusted. She never understood his creepy smile in the past but now she does. He is a pedophile and a monster. She couldn't believe Stacy had to go through so much for a long time and it hurts her so much.

"You think staying quiet and avoiding the issue will do you good?" She scoffed.

"You are clearly mistaken! That man is a monster and I would appreciate it if you do not refer to him as your father as he isn't! Only God knows what your mother had faced in the past and also I feel so bad for you because I cannot imagine him in your state. We will expose him without bringing you into the picture," Dorothy said firmly.

"But..." Lily cigs her off.

"No but Stace. You cannot suffer anymore. I am glad you survived it all. You are indeed a strong woman, Stace. No one would go through such suffering for over five years and survive and still be mentally stable but here you are. Gosh! I feel so bad for you." Lily lamented

"I feel so bad because we didn't see you. We didn't know what you were going through. We didn't know how much you were suffering and most importantly we didn't care to know and..." Lily trailed off.

"We were really messed up. We had no motive, no plans, no vision other than living lavishing and now this is the result. I feel so bad that you have someone like that as a monster and now I see why you always make side comments whenever I talk about my dad."

Lily's face palmed herself as tears started rolling down her cheek. She understood well now why Stacy always called her a daddy's princess. Stacy was going through so much and having a man like that made her envious of those who had a good relationship with their dad. She had hurt her friend not knowing well and she wished she had taken her time to know or read her friend better.

"It's not your fault Lily. I was just so jealous of you. I wished so many times we would switch positions but then again there is nothing like magic. I do not know what to do or what to say and most times when your dad calls you I get drunk with jealousy." She wiped the tears in her eyes with her palm.

"My...my dad only called when he had a job for me and that was giving out myself to the men he wanted to sign deals with. One day I almost...I almost passed out from having sex," she whispered the last part but it was loud enough for Lily and Dorothy to hear.

"What?" Lily and Dorothy gasped.

"How? When? Who was that monster?" They both said in unison.

Tears began to stream down Stacy's eyes as she recalled. It was one terrible memory. She literally begged the man to give her rest but he hit her and pounded into her aggressively. She would have passed out if he had not stopped.

After he finished with her, he kicked her out and told her to tell her father he would sign with him. Before that, he told her she hadn't satisfied him very well and wouldn't want to sign but then he got pleasure from hitting her.

When his father saw the bruises on her face, he said nothing to her. He made no attempt to check on her and told her to get out of his office. She had to go to the hospital to get herself tested and treated so as not to get attention from anyone.

"That's horrible!" Lily spat out.

"This is more reason we will have to end your dad's treacherous ways! We will have to or many other girls will end up being victims to him! And to those bastards he gave you out to sleep with, I will be sure to ruin them?" Lily spat out.

"Do you know the man who hit you? Do you have an idea where he could be? We will need evidence to back this up and rest assured, you won't be in it. Your face is safe and your identity too." Lily assured her.

Dorothy pulled them both in a hug and they stayed like that consoling one another. After some minutes, they were back to chatting and laughing with one another on Lily's bed.

It felt nice. For the first time in forever, they spoke about things related to themselves and their goals and not about men, clubs and drinks.

"Wow, so the guy you were with the other day, he is quite fine. But how sure are you that he doesn't want to date you? I mean you cannot speak for most people," Stacy said.

Lily sighed. Chris had told her that too but she didn't feel anything for Chris. She enjoys his company and he makes her laugh, gives her enough reason to want to talk about herself and helps her speak more about her future plans.

"I know I cannot speak for such people but my motives are clear. And besides I like someone else," Lily confessed.

Dorothy and Stacy's eyes bothered widened. It has been a long time since Lily got out of a relationship. She hasn't been involved with anyone before and no man seems to get her attention. They wondered who this mysterious man was.

"OMG! Give me every detail and make sure to not leave a bit out or else I will cut your hair," Dorothy threatened, making them all burst into a fit of laughter.

"You wouldn't dare cut my hair, my dad would have your head," Lily chuckled.

"Who is he? I am so curious to know. I cannot wait to see him. Is he hot? Is he tall? Dark skinned or light skinned? How big is his dick and has he fucked you?" Stacy asked not giving herself a breathing space.

Lily shook her head, "You are impossible to breathe!" She gasped.

"You are just asking questions too fast and why are you so quick to ask if we've fucked?" Lily asked with raised brows.

Dorothy interjected, "You know, we know what you can do. You love those things," Dorothy said.

Lily shrugged. They didn't know some things about her. Most times she'd go to hotel rooms with most guys she's met, she never ended up having sex with them. They would only finger her or eat her out but she never let things go too far.

Only Ariana knew of it but she kept it a secret from the group for her. Her last sex was with her last ex and they only did it twice. She didn't have much sexual experience and she always lied to them about it but Ariana knew she was lying and kept it a secret for her.

She sighed, "Guys, I have a confession," She said to them."

"A what? What happened? Are you pregnant?" Stacy asked.

Lily chuckled, "Gosh Stacy! You ask hilarious questions for real."

Stacy giggled, "Isn't that what makes me cute."

"Go on, spill, we are all hears," Dorothy said to Lily.

Lily inhaled and exhaled. She swallowed a lump in her throat before she spoke, "I lied."

Both Dorothy and Stacy gave each other a questioning look. They wondered what she meant when she said she lied.

"You lied about what?" Stacy asked.

"About everything concerning my sex life." She admitted.

They both face her with a questioning look, urging her to go on with her speech. "Go on." Stacy said.

"I have never had sex with anyone apart from Caleb. We only had sex twice." She bit her lips as she waited for her friends to speak.

It wasn't as if she was afraid of her sex life but she never had it in her to sleep with strangers. It didn't sit well with her. It was Chris that brought the wild side of her.

The first time she'd ever go on her knees to give a man a blowjob was with Chris. She wondered where she got the confidence from.

She had a wet dream about him fucking her and she had to moan till she woke up. She felt wet in her core, she clamped her legs together to stop the burning sensation she felt between her legs.

She was so horn that day that she had to go find him in his bathroom to get rid of the ache she felt.

"Wow! I'm speechless," Dorothy said.

"Me too," Stacy seconded.

"How? What of all those men? What of the stories you told us? Were they all lies? " Dorothy asked.

"Yes." She sighed.

"I lied. Ariana knew I lied. She once caught me leaving a hotel room just immediately I signed in. She did some investigation and found out I didn't sleep with the man and I tricked you guys."

"She approached me the next day and I confessed and told her to keep it a secret. I just don't have it in me to sleep around with men. I can't and all those stories were all lies. I did watch a lot of porn and read a lot of smut books to give you guys false feedback."

"Ouch! I'm hurt but it's fine. You didn't have to lie, you know," Dorothy said.

"If I hadn't then, wouldn't you have made fun of me like Ariana did and forced me to?" She asked.

"Maybe so or not but lying wasn't needed but it's fine. We are working on ourselves daily so it's gonna be fine," Stacy assured her.

"So tell me, who is this mysterious guy?" Dorothy asked.

"Can that be our little secret for the meantime?" Lily asked.

Dorothy and Stacy both looked at one another and then back at Lily. "Definitely. It's our little secret until you are ready to." Dorothy assured her.