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##Chapter 12
livia
I went downstairs, entered my room and closed the balcony door, pulled the curtain and leaned against the wall, trying to calm the frantic beating of my heart.
I was grateful that I had enough strength to get up without my knees giving out when Demetrius' lips almost touched mine and the sensations his proximity made me feel, like my sweaty hands and my warm body.
I was pretty sure he was going to kiss me and I was about to do it too. However, I managed to pull myself together and walk away before we could do something we would later regret, not me but he did and I wasn't going to put up with his rudeness anymore.
Even when so close I was even more aware of the beauty of that man, every detail of the male face, the stubble, the full lips and the brown eyes, made me sigh.
He had been an asshole and he deserved to be left up there, he might not be experienced with men, but I swore I saw desire in his gaze.
I took a shower and lay down on the bed to read a book when my father called me to lunch, I went downstairs and tried to hide that my thoughts were not on the damn foreman.
Later that day, I was watching a movie with my dad and when the letters started to rise, indicating the end, I got up from the couch and stretched, listening to my ribs creak.
"Dad, can I take a walk out front?"
- What time is it?
“Eleven and a little.
"Isn't it too late?"
— It's just that I love watching the moon outside.
“Okay, but don't come in too late.
“I won't. I smiled at him and walked outside.
From the top of the stairs, I noticed that the barn had the light on, so I decided to go over there to have a look at the horses. The door was open when I approached, I went in and started walking in front of the horses, petting them and talking silly things. I always believed that animals could understand humans perfectly.
— You are very beautiful and good. I whispered , caressing each of the three there.
- Speaking alone? I jumped when I heard Demetrius's whispery voice and my heart jumped with it.
- What a fright! I exclaimed, turning to face him.
“So you talk to yourself. he repeated .
— Not alone, with the horses.
"Can you communicate with them?" I didn't miss the ironic tone in his voice.
— For me animals are better than some people to talk to.
"Sharpened the sword well, eh?" he murmured and I frowned.
- Like this?
“To give me that cut. He suppressed a damn smile as he packed up some things in the shed.
- Oh I understood. So that means you've had an arsenal of very sharp weapons since I arrived, huh? I teased him.
He stared at me for a few seconds and then went back to doing what he was doing, showing no expression on his face. I tried to ignore him as much as possible and went back to petting the horses, even though at times I could feel his gaze burning into me.
“I have to lock up the barn. His voice spoke from behind me, very close. I gasped, startled again.
“You scared me again. - I complained .
I turned to face him and to my surprise, he was closer than I imagined, few centimeters separated our bodies, I lifted my head, looked at his fleshy lips and my body got hot again.
Damn brute man and... so handsome.
"Thanks for pulling away and coming down, Livia." - He ran his tongue over his lips to wet them and I almost closed my eyes against the desire that flooded me to feel them.
- I do not know what you're talking about. — I pretended to be silly.
- You know. Of course you know. he whispered .
- Ok, I know. Why are you thanking me for this? — I asked, wanting somehow to hear come out of his lips that he would kiss me too, even though I knew that all his expressions said that.
He was silent, looking deeply into my eyes, as if searching for something.
"Why, Demetrius?" I asked again, nervously, and he came closer.
“He helped me not to do something you might not want to do. He paused and surprised me when he sniffed my hair. Or would you like to? He moved even closer, leaning down to reach my face, bringing them millimeters apart.
"N-No…" I whispered, automatically closing my eyes as he brushed his fingertips across my face, my entire body shuddering at the touch.
- No? He began to brush his lips lightly across my cheek, I almost let out a moan, but I struggled to hold it in my throat.
When suddenly, he pulled away. I immediately opened my eyes, hating myself for being frustrated that he stopped touching me.
- He is sure? It didn't look like it, you were so ready for me to kiss you, I was almost begging.
— Argh! You are so stupid! — I said irritated and disappointed, leaving the barn in long strides, I stopped at the door and turned to him — You wanted it as much as I did, don't try to make yourself feel better by putting me as the only one you wanted. You know it, but it won't happen again. I turned around and walked home.
