Recharge-Magma

As my consciousness slowly rises I feel pain. My body aches and I groan at the feel. As I blink my eyes I feel groggy but really warm. I sniff the air knowing that feeling this warm means that Igneous is close to me. I feel his scent calm me as some of the pain fades. As my eyes start to drift shut in this moment of peace my eyes suddenly flare open as I remembered what happened. I sit up fast to survey the damage to see if I shifted.

At my sudden jerk Igneous rouses beside in my panic as his hold tightens on me. I rush to grab him as tears leak from my eyes to know that he is okay. My beast bows her head in contrition feeling guilty for the trouble she has caused. As I squeeze him to me an exhale of relief leaves me. We are okay. We are both okay.

I can feel a slight warmth to my throat, and I know that I have recently swallowed fire. As I take a look at myself pulling back from Igneous I freeze when I realize that I am naked. I am really naked.

Suddenly feeling shy I rise from the floor in front of the fireplace where we laid and grab the throw blanket off the couch as I cover myself. I turn away from him to stare at the wall of the kitchen as I blush to what he may have seen.

If he has already seen us then there is no need to be shy.

“Are you okay, Magma. You gave me quite the scare” he says as I hear him rise.

“I’m fine” I say as tears spring to my eyes once more. This whole thing has been a disaster. I clench my teeth at the strain of wanting to sob my heart out. Now that he has seen how monstruous I can be I know that he will want to leave. I just know that I’m going to lose him.

Afterall, my beast has made me lose everyone else why wouldn’t she take my mate away from me too.

I am not to blame for those things. We have discussed this before. We are not monsters.

I walk toward my bedroom wanting to be along. As I walk I construct a maze in my mind and throw my beast into it. She fights against the trap knowing that I am going to ignore her.

“Magma…I” he begins

“I just want to be alone right now, Igneous. There is nothing that needs to be said” I grit out as I shut the door. It shuts with a finality that I can feel echoing through my soul as my back slides against it and tears roll down my cheeks. My chest aches at pain of the loss I am beginning to feel for the inevitability of him leaving. I know that he will have no choice because it’s not safe for him.

The monster I have battled with since it first appeared cannot be controlled. I have no idea why I ever thought it could. As the first sob leaves my chest I give in to the feeling. After being strong for so long I let myself feel all the pain I hide inside. I might as well get used to the feeling because after losing my mate, there is nothing left in this world but pain.

-Igneous

I jump as the door to her bedroom slams shut. I immediately take a step toward it knowing that if I could just apologize then things will be alright.

Something has me stopping as I lift my hands to knock knowing that a simple apology isn’t going to fix this. The way I put both of us in danger was bad enough. I lean my head against the door when I hear her sob.

As the sobbing continues I truly know that I have messed up. I had imagined this day going so much different. We were supposed to talk about what this all means and where we would go next.

Instead something that was meant as a joke has hurt her. I almost caused her to destroy her home and me in the process. I made her lose control and that would have created so many problems.

My chest aches at how hard she is crying. I long to open this open and pull her into my arms. What would that solve? Knowing what I know now I know that I would probably only make the situation worse.

My resolve hardens and I know that I need to give her space. I look at the door longingly once last time and then I slowly make my way to exit her cottage. As I close her front door behind I look around contemplating where to go. I want to give her space, but I haven’t seen much in the village besides the cafeteria, the clinic, and her place. I don’t feel like going to any of those places now.

The clearing pops into my mind and I decide to head there to think. I’m glad that this village is so small because I easily remember which direction it’s in. When I make it to the clearing I pause when I notice that someone else is there. They sit down in one of the patches of wildflowers. I know they had to hear me approach but since they don’t acknowledge me I make my way to the boulder.

I lay down and stare at the top of the trees wondering what I am supposed to do. I don’t even know if anything can be done.

“You are the new human here, no” a voice says in a funny accent.

I turn my head to the side slowly feeling irritated at the sudden interruption. I stare at the man as he cocks his head waiting for my answer.

“Yeah, I guess I am” answering him in the hopes that he is going to leave me alone.

“Okay good, good. I was waiting for you to show up.” He says hurriedly sitting beside me on the boulder. I look at him feeling uneasy at how he just ignored all my boundaries and forced his company on me. “I have something that you need to hear.”

I stare at him dumbfounded before I blink and rise to attention. “Let me guess, you have some profound reasoning through your gift, and you want to impart your wisdom right?” I say with heavy sarcasm.

With a weird bubbly energy the guy claps his hands in glees and bounces in joy. “Oh yeah, you are a smart one huh?: he says with a chuckle. I laugh seeing that he didn’t understand my sarcasm. I go to tell him when suddenly his brown human eyes turn from chocolate brown to the bright yellow of his Dragon. He snatches my hands and I try to pull them away not wanting to touch someone that I don’t know.

I tug against the hold he has on me when I suddenly start to hear a buzz in my ears. The hair black and yellow hair on top of his head starts to rise as if it is connected to a source of static. I tug harder in his unrelenting grip when suddenly it feels like I am zapped. Images flash through my mind in a hurry and disappear just as fast as they came. When my eyes blink open the short statured man now stands to the side of the boulder looking completely normal. His smile is big, and I find myself returning his smile with a suddenly feeling of intense happiness filling my chest.

“What did you do?” I ask laughing in glee.

“It’s called illumination enjoy what it brings” he says turning to leave with a skip to his steps.

“Wait, I have no idea what that means?” I say feeling some of the happiness he gave go away.

“Not my problem” he says with a chuckle.

“Whatever you saw or what you heard will bring you to the answer. I saw and heard none of it, so I can’t be of help.” Yelling it as he goes he disappears into the trees. I lift my hand to my chest in his absence wondering about that feeling he gave me.

I know that it only lasted a few moments, but it was so intensely happy that I crave to feel it again.

As I think of the feeling images return to my mind. The feeling returns to the intensity as I enjoy the way each images makes me feel. I see me and Magma sitting on a couch laughing. I see us on a bed tangled in sheets as we stare at each other. I see us standing as we hold hands surrounded by fire. Then it pauses as I hold her in my harms enjoying the changes of a season in this clearing. When the view suddenly shift I see my hands on her rounding stomach i gasp.

As I come back to the clearing I blink. The feeling from the images still washes through me. I don’t know if that was the future he showed me, but I know that I want those things. I want that feeling of happiness more than anything. I look at the sun and realize that its over midday in the sky. I had to have been sitting here for quite a while as I start to sweat. For a moment I’m glad I don’t currently have a shirt because I know it could be much worse.

Excited I rise to get back to Magma. I can’t wait to tell her about the things I saw. I know it won’t make up for the scariness of this morning but hopefully it will let her know that I am willing to learn. I can learn from my mistakes if she’ll give me the chance. I want that chance more than anything knowing that if I have it, then I get what I saw. I get her to build a life with.

I jog back to her home. The heat of the day feels sweltering and I know that being gone from her for a while is never a good thing. She has to be feeling cold by now. the thought has me jogging faster. I rush through the front door. I don’t see her in the living room and her bedroom door is still closed. I knock on it eagerly.

“Magma, We need to talk” I say to the door. For a moment there is nothing but silence. I get ready to knock again when I hear her voice.

“Go away Igneous.” She whispers.

“Come on love. I don’t want things to be this way. I really am sorry for what I did. I wasn’t trying to hurt you. I just wanted to get under your skin. You’re already under mine so I thought that I would return the favor” I say sincerely.

“You didn’t do anything wrong. What happened today is on me. Just… just go Igneous.” She says. I stare at the door hearing the sadness in her voice.

“Go where Magma. We need each other” I plead.

“We don’t. Us being together will bring nothing but pain. Neither of us needs pain so we can let this go. We can be fine apart” she cries.

“Magma” I say shocked. She doesn’t reply when I call her name. “Magma, come on. Just listen to what I have to say.” At my words there is still no reply. I stand there for a moment trying to see how I will get through to her. The idea that comes to mind won’t be pretty but a part of me hopes that it will work.

I twist the knob and barge right into the room. Magma hurriedly shifts to sit up in the bed. I pause when I take in her appearance. Her hair nearly completely frames her face and through the parts I can see are red. She lifts a hand to slightly move the hair over her right eye and as she gapes at me I take in her tear-stained cheeks. My heart breaks a little at having caused this, but I firm my resolve and continue with the plan. I just hope she doesn’t hate me yafter.