At Fault

Shawn's POV

When she left with Elder Oldega everyone inside the room did not speak up again. Alpha Colby stands there with his eyes close. However, for the rest, their eyes were on me as if they are expecting me to say something or even better to explain myself.

Clearing my throat, I stand up from my seat and face them without fear. I wanted to point something out to them that Jenna was never at fault. I heave a sigh before closing my eyes for a minute and opening them up again to see their attention. They were waiting for my explanation.

"I do believe that this is entirely my fault. I know you are blaming her right now. But there's one thing I want everyone to be clear of. The reason why you think she doesn't remember us or have chosen the life she lives was entirely my fault," I said while bowing my head in shame.

"You can do this Shawn," I hear Colby through our link.

I look over my shoulder and he gave me a reassuring nod. I turn back to our pack with confidence after encouragement from our Alpha and clear my throat and casually said. "Still, I do not want you all to blame others as you also have to think before pointing your fingers at me or her family. Keep in mind Sr. Claire is not Jenna. She may be in her physical form but in heart and mind she's no longer that person we once knew."

I stop and try to not break down because I know my next words hurt but still it needs to be said. "She's not my mate anymore...I don't expect anyone in here to harm her or bully her innocent soul."

Emotions overwhelmed me and I did feel like breaking down right there in front of them, but I am a man. A Beta of this pack and I have pride too that I refused to be tarnished. I know it's already tarnished when my mate left me, but I keep my head high like nothing ever happened.

So instead of letting it all out I withhold it all and conceal it. It is only now I am starting to wither and the strong Beta they used to know is now constantly back to his darkest days.

Elder Ray stood up from the middle of the crowd which snap me out of my daze thoughts. He looks me dead in the eyes and I knew that he was disappointed with me. "You broke the law by neglecting your mate and turning her away. Yet, you have the nerve to tell us what's not to do and what to do," he said to me angrily.

"I am very disappointed Alpha. How can you let your chosen Beta become unstable?" he questions Colby who frowns back at Elder Ray. I fear that by the way, Colby looks at Ray he is not taking the Elder's works well because by the end of this everything will point back to his mate and Luna.

And I hate to hear Ray spatting the words chosen Beta. In some way he is right, but I think he is now crossing the line. I may be chosen but I know I earn that privilege. Their former Beta and other warriors couldn't take the responsibilities.

"Elder Ray, my Beta is not unstable, and things happened in this life," Colby said.

"Alpha- "

"Not now Ray," Colby raises his voice, warning elder Ray not to cross the line with him. Colby's expression clearly shows his disapproval of how Hobert tries to blame it on him the Alpha for such behavior caused by his Beta.

"We will discuss this when elder Odega comes back tomorrow. I want you and our older members of this pack to discuss this before the council."

Ray heeds Colby's warning and sits down on his chair. He still looks angry, and I remember the man never likes me ever since I step foot in this pack.

When I first move with Hailey here, thinking we were going to be forever, and she had long forgotten about Colby. Elder Ray was the first one to disagree with reinstating their Luna. He called her names which made Colby go Alpha wolf on him, but the Council was there to restrain him. He even spews venoms at me and tries to kick me out. And when I was chosen as a Beta for the pack, he never approves.

The very reason why he is still in this Pack was that he's an elder who was in this pack way before Colby, and I were born. So, he cannot be easily removed.

'We should have killed the bastard,' my wolf growls through our link. 'The old fart is sick in the head,' my wolf spat.

Colby pats me on the shoulder, drawing me out of my thoughts and I shut off my link with my wolf. He then dismisses everyone. Everyone left the room leaving only the two of us inside.

"It's not worse than we expected," he said while still patting me on the shoulder. I know he is trying to make me feel better, but I do not want to add more pressure on him.

"You think?" I ask and he just replied with a nod.

"So where is she going to stay?" I ask in curiosity and change the topic.

"At Mr. Odega's home, starting tomorrow. I want you to send her stuff there," he said.

"Are you kidding me Alpha?"

"Nope, Shawn. You are going to be a good mate and sent her stuff there. It's not miles away...it's three blocks dude, three" he said showing me his three fingers and almost shoving them in my face.

"So, hurry up," he added, and I groan at that.

"You can't possibly send me there knowing I have feelings for her," I said. "So, it's not my fault, that you guys are not together," he replies and shrugs his shoulders before moving to the door. He opens it and walks out leaving me there speechless.

"I hope she gives you hell," I shouted after him.

Yeah, I do hope Hailey doesn't give him an easy way out because the jackass is not helping me here. Scratching my head I walk out of the conference room and made my way into the hallways then up the stairs. I hear shouting from Colby and Hailey's room, but I ignore it and walk into my room.

"Dad" I hear my seven-year-old son named Hans call me and I turn around to find him came running up to me. I catch his body and lift him in the air.

"I miss you," he said, burying his head in the nook of my neck. "I miss you too buddy," I answer and kiss him on the forehead. I open up the door and went inside.

"Daddy, why are mommy and daddy Colby fighting?" he asks in a sad voice, and I just scratch my head not knowing what to do.

"Damon and Sora are in their rooms not talking to each other," he added.

I let out a sigh and put him down. I know this is fucking messed up because I fell for Hailey and look at where it got us. Our kids are confused here with our relationship.

Damon who's fourteen is well versed in our situation but he's not taking Hailey's side and is only closer to his father Colby. While Sora on the other hand is confused just like my son about the fact that Hans has two daddies, and she doesn't.

She only has Colby, and the girl loves her daddy dearly. I don't want to talk about it with my son. I want to explain what was going on, but I have a good idea now and I hope he would like it and forget about the fight.

"Okay, why don't you go and ask Sora and Damon if they wanted to take a ride? But after we drop off a friend of mine's bag. What do you say?"

Hans nodded his head happily and went to get his brother and sister. I lay back on my bed to take a rest, thinking that this is all my fault. If my son asks me in the future who was at fault. I with no doubt will tell that it was me.