I Should Take Your Life

Just when I was about to see her face, I got startled by the loud banging noise outside that woke me up. The first thing I saw was my sister marching towards me. I could feel that she is about to bring the storm.

I immediately stand from my bed. My body is getting better as compared to its state yesterday. I could move without feeling a lot of pain.

Andrea rapidly grabbed my right arm, she looked at my wounds from the duel two days ago. Her grip is tight, showing that she really is fuming mad. I could see that her grip would cause some discoloration in my skin.

I bit my lip to avoid myself from telling her that she’s hurting me. I just stood there, waiting for her anger to subside.

“It wasn’t even deep!” She exclaimed.

I could agree, looking at my wounds, it is not that deep as compared with the actual duel. It looks like a normal wound that can be easily tolerated. But it really is deep and painful during the duel. T wouldn’t bleed so much if it is not that deep.

I did not say anything. She has the same temper with mom, and answering from them will only worsen my situation. I’m afraid to do that.

“You lose because of this?!” She forcefully threw my hand. “I am so ashamed in front of the leaders because of you!” She added.

I looked down, afraid to match with her dangerous gaze. I just have to endure it; she will eventually get tired of this.

‘You should defend yourself, Clary.’ Cordia blurted out.

‘Nothing good will come out if I do that.’ I responded. It will only make her even more furious. Fighting fire with fire is disastrous and it should be avoided.

Andrea probably received a message from mom through telepathy because she composed herself.

Before going out of my room she managed to say, “I am not yet done with you.”

I sighed when she’s finally away. What a bonding for siblings…

When I am only left with myself, I suddenly remember my dreams. It does not seem like a dream, it feels real. I could also still feel the peace that the mansion and that woman gave. However, I am aware that there is no gothic mansion in this place but it felt familiar. It seems isolated from others.

It is probably the effect of almost drowning to death. My brain must have been shaken by almost experiencing death. I sighed and let go of that imagination.

Before going out of my room, I composed and prepared myself for any outburst from my family. It would be better if I’m mentally prepared for the worst things.

Good thing, when I went down, my family was nowhere to be seen. They must have another business together. It’s a relief, I won’t be facing them. Of course, I am ashamed of my performance in the duel but what else could I do? I have tried several training sessions, but none of them worked out. I am probably meant to be weak and helpless.

I decided to clean our yard, leaves are all over the place. My family has no helpers to clean or maintain our house, they are afraid to let other individuals to be close to our territory. My parents protect ourselves from betrayal by lowering our guards.

That’s where I enter, I do all the household courses. For a talentless wolf like me, it is probably the perfect job. I smiled bitterly.

Have I died, will they be looking for my body? Will they have regrets? I don’t think so…

It was before the evening when my parents came home. Andrea is not with them. Dinner is already set for them when they come home. I am quietly eating with them while observing them. Both of my parents look tired, it must have been another tough day.

I was looking at my mom when she turned her gaze towards me, I immediately looked away.

“I worked really hard to build this name, only for it to be destroyed by someone.” My mom said with conviction.

I bit my lip. Of course, I am that someone who did destroy our name. I looked down at my plate, embarrassed by the fact that my mother was right. It must have been difficult for them to clean the mess that I brought.

Dad cleared his throat but did not say anything. I remained silent, unable to defend myself. That’s how our dinner went.

I immediately went into my room after finishing the dishes. I stayed on my balcony, trying to get some fresh air and think things through. I closed my eyes and let the air come through me. Feeling the loneliness of the night. I stayed that way until I suddenly felt the familiar feeling that I have when I am around someone.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw Andrea and Alpha Xylo in front of our house. My heart starts beating abnormally, the same response whenever I see him. I bit my lip when I saw that Andrea kissed his cheeks.

He was about to leave when our eyes met. My heart hoped that he would at least smile at me. However, he only stopped for a second and eventually left. I have to admit that it stings inside.

I was about to go inside my room when Andrea suddenly appeared. I froze. Her left elbow is in my chest with her hand gripping my arm. Her other hand is pointed against me, with her nails digging in my throat. I looked up to avoid her sharp nails pointed at my throat, I can’t move my body because of her elbow placed in my chest. I can only hold my breath, afraid that she might kill me.

“Stop flirting with my mate!” Her voice thundered. The intensity and warning is the same with my mom’s.

I couldn’t say anything, too afraid that her nails would dig deeper. I could feel some blood dripping from it.

“I should have taken your life, then!”