I Love Him

Is it too much if I will hope that maybe even just a bit, a little probability, that he is also feeling the same way I does? How can I ignore the fact that he saved my life twice? Is it normal to encounter him in every dangerous situation? Maybe, probably. Leaders are destined to keep peace and order in our kingdom. They regulate the system to avoid any conflicts between families, probably the reason why he protected me from those daggers.

The moment he said that he will train me, he left immediately. I was not able to answer him, I will not be able to answer him either if he stayed and waited for my answer. It was out of my world; I couldn’t even believe myself if I heard that right or I am just missing something. It was unbelievable.

I couldn’t think of any reason that would perfectly explain his motives. He definitely has nothing to gain for training a weakling like me. I can’t comprehend or explain him.

Above all this, one worries me the most. It is my sister. She will not like the idea that her mate, Alpha Xylo, have saved her embarrassing sister. She will never like the idea that I was able to have an interaction with his mate. It is fatal. She will be fuming mad if she ever discovers that.

Right now, she wasn’t aware about it. In our dining room, my family including me is having a lunch. Andrea is here and she’s not harming or giving me any threats. I can’t eat properly because of the fear that she’ll attack or hurt me. Mom would just probably watch us if ever that happens.

“You did great in your match,” mom said while looking at Andrea who is obviously not in her usual self.

She just smiled back at my mom. In normal circumstances, she will be bragging about her attacks and abilities. She is so confident and she seeks the approval of my parents. She will not just smile when she receives some praise from them.

“Me and your dad will be needing to travel north this afternoon.” Mom said as if she was only talking to her one daughter, Andrea. Seems that I am invisible in her sight.

Andrea looked at my mom, clueless with their mission. “For what reason?” She asked.

“A possible part of divinium is said to be found there, we need to retrieved those.”

I looked at that, he’s at his usual facial expression. The one that I can’t read. He’s not bothering to speak and is busy consuming the food that I prepared earlier.

“Should I join you?” Andrea asked.

Mom shook her head, “you need to protect our territory. Our rivals might attack out of nowhere.”

Andrea smiled proudly. “No worries, mom. You can count on me.”

My mother smiled back at my sister. She, afterwards, looked at me but did not say a word. Probably have nothing to say to a useless wolf like me.

I bit my lip and shifted my gaze at my food. I just hope that this lunch will be over soon.

It was about three in the afternoon when my parents left our home. By the looks of the weapons that they brought, it will not be an easy travel. They might also take several days before reaching the north. As soon as my parents leave, Andrea also left our home. I did not bother to ask where will she going. It would be easy for me if I stay out of her business.

Bored at the house, with nothing to do, I decided to just go and train in the magical falls. I blushed at the idea that the Alpha, the strongest wolf in our pack, said that he will be training me. I was not sure, though. He did not say when and where he’ll train me. The essential details are missing.

But I did hope that I will found him in my magical falls where we last met. To my dismay, there is no one in the magical falls. I have to admit that sadness crept through me. He changed his mind, probably. It was probably just out of pity and when he thinks things over, he might have dismissed the idea. He probably thinks that I am just a waste of his time.

Thoughts of Andrea’s whereabouts crossed my mind, too. It is possible that the two of them are together at this time. Probably in the stadium, watching the duel. Now that I think of it, when I was attacked yesterday, the duel is ongoing. Did he not attend the duel that day? Or did he leave early?

I shrugged my thoughts and looked at my wounds, it is still a mystery for me why am I healing faster. My wounds from my duel are completely healed and the ones that I received yesterday are not aching that much. I sighed at the thought that no one in my family have noticed these newly received wounds.

‘None of them cares, Clary. When will you accept that?’ Cordia snapped out of nowhere.

‘They might see me as someone someday.’ I said, trying to raise my own spirit. Family is still a family, right?

‘They might not.’ She said contradicting my only hope.

‘You’ve been quiet lately.’

She sighed, ‘I’m sleepy these days.’

I nodded. It is okay that I can’t talk to her all the time, all that matter is that I have her. I cannot afford to lose someone so dear to me. Darren momentarily crossed my mind but I immediately shrugged the thought of him.

I busied myself in the falls by reading the books that I bought yesterday. I could probably start training my physical abilities tomorrow. It was already midnight when I decided to go back home. He did really change his mind. Alpha Xylo, who offered me a help, did not went in the magical falls that night.