So Impossible

Clary’s POV

I decided to visit first the stadium to see the progress in the duel. From the crowd, I could say that there are still many wolves that still haven’t had their first duel. Every wolf, regardless of gender, with the age of 18-30 should have their first fight before having another duel for those who lose or won. I could assume that my duel will the weeks from now.

I haven’t focused much on the duel taking place at the center of the stadium. I only came to check the progress and calculate the possible schedule of my duel.

‘You came here to look for him, too.’ Cordia said in a teasing tone.

I bit my lip and did not bother to correct Cordia. I can’t deny that it her allegations because it is somehow true. Three days have been passed since my parents left and I have been training myself on my own. Alpha, who said that he will train me, never went to the magical falls or in the forest. I have been running all around the forest and I am aware that there is no trace of the Alpha.

I looked at the elevated portion of the stadium where the leaders are seated. I crossed my brows when I noticed that his seat is empty. Beta and Omega, who were not present in the last duels, are both watching up there. I pouted, he must be busy doing something. My sister is also out of touch; I haven’t seen her since our last lunch together.

I pouted once again with the thought that they might be together right now.

I did not stay for a long time in the stadium. I changed into my wolf form and run as quickly as possible towards the magical falls. I usually run in my wolf form, which is much faster than my human form, when traveling towards the forest. I am afraid that some members of the family of daggers will attempt to hurt me again.

I became cautious with my surroundings because of that. I don’t want to be that helpless. If someone dares to take my life, I should at least defend myself.

I was shocked when I found Alpha Xylo standing in front of the falls. He’s facing away from me but I am sure that he is alpha. This familiar feeling that I can only feel when I am near him tells me that it is him

“You are late.” He firmly said as he faces me.

I got really ashamed to be seen by him in my wolf form. Compared to the leaders with a gray, black, and white hair in their wolf form, an ordinary wolf like with light brown hair makes me feel embarrassed with my body.

I immediately shifted in my human form, “I-I didn’t know that you’ll be here.” I said trying to calm my composure. I pouted thinking that I am looking at him at the stadium. I should have come here instead.

He looked at my shoulder. I looked away, unable to look at his handsome face. Here comes my heartbeat again, as if it has slept for a long time and is now finally awake.

What is he doing here? Is he waiting for me? My thoughts become unorganized again, unable to comprehend the meaning of his presence in the place that we last met. I want to ask him those questions…but I feel so unworthy to speak alone.

‘You missed him.’ Cordia said in between my messy thoughts.

My heart jumped for that reason. I couldn’t deny. I am just so happy that I get to finally see him. My heart is jumping happily. I pouted to avoid the smile that is about to crept in my mouth.

‘Cordia, shhh! He might hear us!’ I said, afraid that he will hear my thoughts.

‘Tss, it’s impossible. But he is probably hearing your heart,’ she said as she tries to tease me.

“You heal fast,” he said in a surprised tone.

I blushed, “y-yes…” That must be the reason why he is scanning my body with his eyes.

He walked towards the tree where he usually leans, and just like I thought, he leaned there and crossed his arms.

“Swim in the river for one hour,” he ordered while his eyes are closed.

My eyes widened in his words, should I follow? Of course, he is the alpha! Is this the training that he mentioned? I bit my lip with the sudden realization that I have no clothes with me that will be suitable for swimming. I am wearing a jogger pants with multiple pockets and a black hooded jacket. I can’t swim with these clothes on!

When he opened his eyes, I am still standing in front of him with no clue on what to do. He did not say another thing, he immediately jumped up in one of the branches of the tree. He positioned himself in that branch with his arms closed. He, then, closed his eyes again.

I am of course wearing undergarments with me, that would be enough to swim the river. I bit my lips and walked towards the corner, away from his sight to undressed myself. My undergarments are enough to cover my private parts. I gulped at the idea that I am almost naked in front of the alpha. All I could thing is the embarrassment.

Good thing, when I glimpsed at him, his eyes are still closed and he probably is sleeping up in the tree.

I immediately dive into the river, not sure if I am doing things right or why am I following his orders without a word. I just trusted him.

The river is calm that made me swim easily but because of my stamina, I can’t seem to swim for about one hour. I breath and gasped for air above the water every several minutes, unable to held my breath for a long time.

This is so impossible.