Improvements

I was not able to understand his words. What should I stop from doing? Is he mad that I attempted to enter their castle? For talking to his sister? Or he is mad with me for aiming my arrows and helping them earlier? I am confused as ever with his words. He was difficult to understand...and never in the million times that I will be able to read his thoughts and understand where he is coming from.

The rest of the night went in a bliss. As I expected, my sister was protected by other leaders inside the castle. She was with the mother of Alpha, Beta, and Omega. She was guarded by them to avoid any attacks that might be directed toward her. It was an understandable move from the leaders, my sister is crucial in our pack, we cannnot let her be exposed in much harm.

We went home together that night silently. I could feel my father staring at me in the rear view mirror as my eyes closed because of the fatigue that was emerging in my body. He is probably curious about my whereabouts when the attack happened. I cannot understand him, too. I mean, if he want to say something, he should do so. Why would he settle gazing at me if he has something on my mind? Men are too difficult.

My sister, on the other hand, looks frustrated when we are on the way home. "The most special night in my life is ruined!" She would occasionally throw some tantrums like that.

Of course, our mother would join her. "Those shameless wolves!"

They were both like that inside the car, too angry and furious with what happened. I did not bother to say anything, I could see why my sister is angry and frustrated but it is what it is. At least, she is safe and the attack was not successful. The leaders and other wolves protected her from outside, she should be happy with that thought.

I can't be fully happy, though, if I were in her shoes. Some of the men who protected her was killed by the invaders. It was a terrifying fight, too. I wonder what will be the reaction of the family of those wolves who died trying to protect the castle from the attack. It was heartbreaking for them. I could imagine their agony right now, losing someone they truly love and care is excruciating.

That night, despite of the tiredness caused by the commotion earlier, I was not able to sleep properly. Whenever I try to close my eyes, I could see the blood on the ground. The bodies of those who fight to protect the place and the dead bodies of the invaders. I could see those... I also wonder if the invaders who attacked us wanted to do that or was just ordered by someone higher than them, someone more powerful...If it is against their will then I am guilty for taking the lives of some of them.

I have targeted fishes, birds, deers, and other prey but it felt different when you are taking away the lives of your own species. I am feeling guilty for attacking them and taking their own lives, I should have aim for the other parts of the body.

It was probably the regret that wake me up that whole night. Or the thoughts of Alpha kissing Andrea. I am not so sure. It is safe to say that probably both of these reasons. The words from Alpha sayin that I should never do something again also kept on replaying on my thoughts. If only I could understand him...

The next day, terror is still evident in some residents, afraid that the wolves from different pack might attack again. The kingdom was silent, wolves from different families are attentive to their surrounding. Everyone was taking their very best to improved their battling skills, some strengthen their territory's defense. I could also see some members of the family of leaders in front of our house, probably protecting Andrea from the possible attack.

Everyone is frightened but the duel is still continued and held in the stadium. It was announced by the leaders that the duel should be still continued in order to test one's ability to fight in case something like yesterday happened. The winners representing each family - dagger, archery, and swordsmen will be given a chance to serve the family of leaders. The objective of the Homer's Pack game has changed and it made the participants more dedicated to win every duel that they have.

Being not so important in my family, they let me to go outside our territory. That is not the case for Andrea, she was ordered to refrain from going outside. I decided to train again today, it is crucial for me to use this day to prepare for my next duel and for the possible attack. As expected, Alpha was not here in the magical falls when I arrive. He is surely busy handling the aftermath of the attack yesterday. The same thing applies for the other leaders like Beta and Omega. They are probably planning a defense for the whole pack to be safe. Alpha was never the leader who would attack another wolves, that's why they are probably putting their efforts into defense.

Now that I think of it, Darren is probably having a hard time today. He and his family are responsible for not letting the invaders to cross the border in the kingdom, they probably got scolded for letting wolves from other pack to enter our kingdom. He is probably beating himself at work, doing everything he can to avoid that situation. I can only think of it, he is not reaching out to me.

I spend the rest of the day enhancing my physical abilities by swimming and running in the forest. I can only do this much to improve myself. It looks rewarding, though. I can feel that my thighs and shoulders are getting some improvements.