Unfair World

The beating of my heart turned faster than it was when the man looked in my direction, I couldn't see his face because of his cap and hoodie. But… his senses are very bright,

‘Of course he can recognize us even from afar, we are his mate, Clary. Let's meet him!’ Cordia said excitedly.

I decided to come out from hiding but then again, I was stopped when my sister Andrea went out of the house and hold his hand which made the man turned to face her, I suddenly felt the heat of rage coming out of me.

‘How dare she touch our mate!?’ Cordia exclaimed, just then, I didn't realize I was already clenching my hands when I saw Andrea kissed my mate on the cheek.

‘She's out of boundary, Clary!’ Cordia growled.

After that, the man immediately walked towards the very first black car parked in front of the house and it drove away followed by the rest of the cars, leaving me dumbfounded. I didn't even found my courage and I just lost my strength. I fall down sitting on the ground while leaning on the tree.

"Am I worth the living?" I asked more to myself, why do I seem like the world betrays me? The Goddess might have been mad at me for I have no reason why.

‘Clary, what are you doing!? Are you just letting her do that to our mate!?’ Cordia snapped.

I clench my hands in a fist, "No, I have to know things well Cordia... I have to know that man." I stands up and started walking towards the house.

When I opened the door, I saw Andrea leaning on the wall, seems like she's been waiting for me.

"Who is he?" I asked not realizing my voice was dark.

She stands up straight, facing me and then she smirks. "Why do you care? Anyways, he's my MATE, the alpha Xylo Crosswind." She said emphasizing the word mate which made my blood boils but curiosity filled me most.

"H-how could it be? He's my MATE." I growled with mixed emotions. I know, that man... is my mate. From the effect he had on me, from his scent... I knew he's my mate.

In just a blink of an eye, Andrea is already holding my neck pinning me on the wall. "He's MINE, Clary. He's NOT yours. Don't you ever dare take him away from me... or else I'll kill you." She threatened in her deadly voice.

I tried taking her hands off of me, but she's so strong, I felt like losing air as I can't find my voice, "I-it c... can't... be." I said.

Her eyes light up in amusement as she laughs. She let go of me and I gasped for air as I fall down on the floor but she still keeps laughing.

"It can't be?" She said in between her laughs as she faced me "Do you even see yourself, Clary? You're weak! Weak! Weak! You're useless! And you even dream of stealing my mate, the strongest alpha!? Keep dreaming my lil' sister." She exclaimed and laugh again. Then, she leaned closer to me, "Who would ever believe you?"

I remained silent as I keep panting for air and I could feel my heart quenched with certain pain. Weak...

‘Don't listen to her, Clary.’ I heard Cordia said.

"Who's Alpha would ever accept a weak.useless.werewolf? Huh, my dear little sister Clary?" She asked testing me.

I took a deep breath and find more courage to stand up, I faced her with determination "I may be weak, Andrea. Be careful, this weak little sister of yours may... become strong one day."

She started laughing once again "One day," she said in between her laugh "Oh, Clary. Just focus on your loser boyfriend." Then she eyed me seriously "Stop dreaming."

"What's happening here!?" Suddenly, dad came out from nowhere with mom beside him.

Andrea grinned "Oh, your daughter keeps dreaming. She says, MY MATE was her mate. I don't think Xylo will even recognize her." She sarcastically stated.

‘Clary, I knew he's our mate. He will recognize us.’ Cordia said encouraging me.

"I felt it, I felt the pheromones the moment I saw him... I knew, he was my mate." I defended with determination and again I could feel Andrea fighting the urge to laugh at me.

I saw mom and dad looked at each other as if they're hiding something from me and then dad walked closer towards us.

"Xylo is Andrea's mate, Clary. They feel the same including the pheromones that connect the mate and you can't do anything about that. Even though you think you are his mate, you can't handle having an Alpha as a mate because you are too weak." Dad explained and I felt that his voice seems... apologizing.

"So, don't you ever talk to the Alpha Xylo, Clary. Don't put our family in shame." Mom added authoritatively.

Shame... I'm just nothing but... a shame. She's ashamed of me, they are ashamed of me. Why does it hurt so much? I'm just a burden in this family. Why do you have to be so weak Clary? Why do you have to be so useless? Even my own family doesn't want me.

I never argue when it comes to my parents because I respect them as their child. That is why, I don't have any other choice as I lowered my head "I- I'm tired, I'm going upstairs so please don't bother me." I said lowly biting my lips, I didn't found the courage in my voice anymore so I immediately run upstairs into my room.

I closed the door of my room and there, I felt like all of my strength have gone, vanished as I slumped on the floor and let myself cry in silence.

What did I ever do to them? Why can't they understand my feelings?

I felt like the world doesn't like me but why did I ever exist? Oh, why goddess of the moon? What is the purpose I was born with? Is it just only to serve my family? Is it to make me feel useless everyday? Or is it to make me feel unworthy?

I stand up and slowly walked into my bed as I let myself fall into it just wanting the world to eat me. My sister is so strong and I am so weak, is that the reason why they choose to love and cherish my sister and not me? Isn't the world so unfair? Then, why didn't my parents ever listen to my plea?

‘Clary, I'm here. Please, stop crying… it makes me weak, be strong Clary.’ I heard Cordia whimper.

Those were the last words I heard from her as darkness embrace me… I hope, forever.