I'll Make Them Pay

Clary's POV

"Clary!" I heard his scream coming from the magical forest.

I was too shocked to hear his voice, I wasn't ready to even hear his voice. I wasn't prepared for any interaction with him and I have no plans to have one. He was never in my plan. I cannot forgive him for colluding with Andrea, the wolve who have killed our child. I could never forgive both of them.

"Run faster..." Marcus whispered, probably he was hearing or sensing that someone is approaching us. I did what he told and ran with all my might. I couldn't imagine Alpha being near that place, I never thought that he will be coming there. It was out of my thought when I planned to retrieved some of my arrows. He was out of the equation, he will never be part.

The day that I realized that I lost my child is the day that I forgot everything about us. I can't be falling in love with someone who is bound to marry someone who has killed a part of me. I couldn't forgive him for that, not when he is still continuing their marriage while I am suffering for the lost of our child. I couldn't forgive them.

Was life supposed to continue for them? I guess so, but not for me. I can't live this life without getting the justice that my child deserve.

Marcus and I stopped from running when we arrived at the sae destination where we left the chariot that we were riding earlier. I instantly hopped inside, same thing was done by Marcus. I was catching my breath while we were escaping out of that kingdom using this chariot. Marcus, on the other hand, looked pissed.

"I shouldn't have agreed to let you near this place," he is definitely mad at this moment. His voice and facial expression confirmed that.

I wrapped my arms around his arm that is busy holding the rope tied to the horse.

"Stop being angry at your long lost cousin," I said jokingly, hoping that his anger would subside.

With the time that I spent with him, I become attached with him. He was very dependable cousin, he is my buddy...and I learned to know about his attitude. He get easily pissed when it comes to this place and pack, he is definitely angry towards this pack that I grew up. He does not need to tell me that, I could see through his actions and emotions.

"Erina, you will not be stepping again in this fucking place. I tell you that. Whatever you are planning, stop right now." He said, with his pissed facial expression.

See? I told you. He gets really angry when it comes to these things. I didn't answer him, I just cling at his arm. I was afraid earlier, too. I was afraid that he will be seeing me and all my plan would collapse in just a second. I am afraid to see him and I don't think I want to see him ever again.

He was aware that Andrea almost killed me before, breaking almost every bone that I have. He was aware of it, I asked dad about it when I was resting in his friend's house. If he ever did love me, he would have stopped seeing Andrea and end things there. He should have done that if he truly loves me...and now that I think of it, he never told me that he loves me. Not even once. I was a fool for believing that we have a chance back then. I was a fool for falling into that and I promised that it would never happen again. I will not be the same person.

"Don't you think that he still need to know about your child?" Marcus said when we are approaching the border, he is now calmer as compared earlier. He sounded serious, too.

I never thought that I would be hearing him say these things. He was angry with everyone in this pack, I couldn't believe that he will go tell me these things. I was also surprised, too. How did he knew that Alpha is the father of my deceased child? But thinking that they have watched me from afar, that explains his knowledge.

"He doesn't deserve anything, Marcus. I lost a child and there he is, planning for his marriage?" I hissed angrily, thinking everything that my child had to go through. I couldn't forgive myself that I was not able to child my child, but I couldn't forgive them too for living life comfortably.

He stayed silent and I could see that he was analyzing things, analyzing everything...and I couldn't help but do the same.

When we were able to reach the border, I saw Darren in his position. I immediately covered myself with the cloak that I was wearing to avoid any complications. Darren looks fine, too. Everyone looks fine in this place, they have probably moved on with me being dead. I guess, I wasn't that important to be worth of their grief. I couldn't blame them, though. They need to move on, life continues even if I am dead.

"Your ex looks too soft," Marcus remarked when we passed the border and is now heading back to the Northeast mountains.

I punched his arm slightly, "you stalker, didn't know that you guys are stalking me that much."

He laughed at that for few seconds and I hissed at him for that reaction of him. "I have also watched you from losing with a dagger-user woman. You were better than that, Erina."

The thoughts of him watching that duel where I feel so helpless, embarrassed me. I am embarrassed with the fact that I was helpless and weak before. Good thing, I have learned everything and I am no longer the same wolf.

This second life will not be wasted, I will do everything to make them pay.