Torment
80. Torment
🤍🖤🤍 Natalie 🤍🖤🤍
A girl rushes toward us with a huge smile and hugs Jacob without giving him time to react or respond.
Some old friend?
I step away to give them some space, but he steps backward from her and pulls me near him again.
Ok...
“How are you?” She says in a chirpy voice. “GOD I missed you.”
She throws a glance at me. I smile, but she doesn’t acknowledge it.
That’s rude!
I take a quick look at Jacob, wondering if he will introduce me.
Jacob pinches his eyes and says, “Quit the facade, Sadie!”
Her smile drops, and her expression hardens. Now she looks at me again, but with hatred in her eyes. It’s creepy how her expression changed within a few seconds.
Jacob continues, “This is not Ok Sadie... Approaching me... or even talking to me! Nothing is gonna change. Move on for God’s sake. It’s been a year!”
My eyes widen hearing Jacob’s voice. It’s the first time I have seen him annoyed and angry like this.
“Got yourself a new girl…” She looks at me with disdain. “Doesn’t mean you have to insult me in front of her…”
“Then quit stalking me!” Jacob snaps.
OMG, she is the stalker!
“I am not stalking you!!!” she grits through her teeth.
Maybe she just saw us here by coincidence.
Is Jacob being too harsh with her?
“Great!” Jacob says, and we turn to walk away from her.
She blocks our way and warns me. “He will leave you… Out of the blue!”
Ok… Now I am annoyed too.
“That’s my problem to deal with! You don’t have to worry about it.” I say before Jacob can say anything.
She looks disgruntled at my answer at first, then snarl, “You won’t be so casual about it when he blames something degrading on you!”
I roll my eyes and we pace away from her.
….
“Sorry about that!” Jacob says while sitting in the car. I can see his mood has turned sour.
I shrug. “Don’t be! Nothing can be done about such people.”
It’s almost two hours, so we drive back to his place. He has gone quiet and there is an uncomfortable silence between us. I want to talk to him but I stay mum as his mood is too grim.
After a while, I say softly, “We can cancel tonight’s plan if you want some time…”
“Can we?”
My chest tightens. I wish I could do something to comfort him. But if he needs privacy, that’s alright.
I nod and say, “Yes… I will tell at home that Ira had to go somewhere else all of a sudden.”
He considers it for a while, then glances at me and says, “Noo… Just come to my place. I don’t want to be alone tonight.”
He gives me a tight smile.
“Give me your hand.” I offer my hand to hold.
He smiles genuinely this time and takes it. Now the silence doesn’t seem uncomfortable anymore.
Once we near our neighborhood, he says, “FUCK! It’s your Dad! Down Down Down!”
I unlock my seat belt and drop down the seat to hide in a heartbeat.
I peek at him and he snickers. I cannot help but giggle too.
“Did we pass him?” I whisper, then realize Dad cannot hear me.
He nods.
“Did he see me?”
“I hope not… Just stay down Ok… You are sleeping in my bed tonight. Nobody’s gonna change that!”
I feel butterflies in my stomach in anticipation.
….
Jacob parks his car inside the garage. I come out of car once the garage door closes. We both giggle after accomplishing our mission. Jacob holds my hand, takes me inside his house, and hugs me. I look around and ask, “Where is everybody, though?”
It didn’t occur to me to ask him before. My mind was fogged with excitement. It’s odd to be here when no one is around.
“Once a month or two, June has this dance thing in the next town. Dad loves to watch her perform.” He goes quiet after answering me.
Doesn’t he come to watch him play? I don’t have the courage to ask him. I guess I will know this weekend. Even School Hockey matches are a big deal in this town. I hope he comes.
He pulls away and walks towards kitchen. “It’s too late… I guess we will have to do with what I already half-prepped. Sorry, no time for a full course.”
I lean on the bar counter and watch him pull stuff from the fridge.
“What in the menu?” I glance at clock. It’s almost dinnertime. I will be hungry in no time.
“Creamy Chicken & Gnocchi?”
“Are you asking me or telling me?”
He frowns and states, “West says that!”
My smile falters for a moment, then I make a face. “I am sure he picked it from me.”
He chuckles. “I am asking you if Chicken & Gnocchi would be fine? Although we don’t have much choice or time for anything else now.”
“I am fine... As long as I don’t have to help you.” I shrug. “I am sure I would suck at it.”
He rolls his eyes and continues with the remaining prep while the oven preheats.
“Who taught you to cook?”
“My Grandma…”
“You were close to her,” I state, and he nods.
“She never let me feel odd in the house. She was always there to back me up. Especially when Dad was rude to me…”
It must have been hard when she passed away. I think to myself and try to avoid more sad and grim topics. Soon Jacob is done and puts dish in the oven.
When he comes near me, my heart thumps with excitement. I almost scream when he picks me up and throws me over his shoulder.
“What the fuck are you doing?” I yell at him.
“Yeah… You can scream as loud as you want. No one can hear us,“ He says and takes me upstairs to his room.
“Jacob, it’s scary!! I will fall down,” I say, almost frightened.
I wonder If I am too heavy to pick? But I am too embarrassed to ask.
“I won’t let you down. Close your eyes if it scares you.”
And I do.
My senses heightened when I closed my eyes, and I smell him better. His sweat mingled with a faint deodorant. It’s intoxicating. Heat pool between my legs. Jacob enters his room and throws me over his bed. I stumble, then sit up.
“Remove your top Natalie,” He orders while removing his T-shirt.
“Do… do we have enough time?”
The oven was set for 20 minutes.
“We will figure out.”
Spoiler alert - it wasn’t enough.
…..
I remove my top, and he hums in approval, looking at my laced bra. He gets up on the bed and pushes me to lie down.
“You wore that for me?” He asks as he cages me between his legs.
“Nope! It’s for my other boyfriend !” I try to joke because I am feeling nervous about his changed demeanor.
He pins my wrists next to my head and says in a low voice, “Don’t ever joke about that.”
Then he kisses me. Hard and deep. There is a strange sensation in being overpowered by him like this. I crush under his body weight, unable to breathe but enjoying every second. He senses my breathlessness and rolls to bring me on his top. I pull away from our kiss and heave, trying to catch my breath.
“It’s so difficult being around you these days… I am freaking hard all the time.” He admits while tracing my waist with his finger.
I giggle and lie on his chest.
“If it makes you feel better… I am on fire all the time, too.”
“I hope this night can make things easier for us.”
Then I rub my core on his hard-on and he groans.
…..
When the oven timer beeps in the kitchen and we get out of the bed. I walk around bed to pick up my top but he snatches it away and says, “No need to wear that!”
“I am not walking around naked!”
“You are not naked!” He says grinning. Then takes my top with him downstairs.
Jerk!
I walk into his walk-in closet to grab a shirt. I am stunned to see the interior. It’s massive, with independent slider doors and huge mirror walls. No wonder June wanted this room. I slide a door and see he has so many freaking clothes! Jacob doesn’t repeat his clothes very often, and it makes sense now.
He has five freaking suits! Who owns suits at barely 18!
I snicker when I see multiple pairs of same white and Black T-shirts.
“Dinner is served!” His voice booms from downstairs.
I grab one of his shirts and wear it.
Suddenly my phone rings and I pick it up without realizing it’s an unknown number.
“Don’t cut the call, Nat… I want to hear your voice. Please…”
My chest tightens, remembering the time when we used to talk for hours. It gave us a strange sense of comfort, and then he didn’t need me anymore. I had to cope and struggle with the loss of my lifeline, named West.
And now he is back. I don’t want to do anything with him. But he is here now and I don’t know how to deal with it.
“Why do you torment me West?” My throat is tight with frustration. It’s been difficult to avoid him when he is playing nice and apologetic all the time. But I cannot forget what I have been through the entire year.
“I am trying to be bett-“
I cut him in the middle and say, “Quit the act West! Just tell me, what do you want?”
He stays quiet for a moment then says, “One chance, Nat. One fair chance!”
When I don’t answer, he says, “If you don’t want me after that chance. I won’t bother you again.”
“What do you mean by fair chance?”
“You will have to keep your feelings about Jacob aside when you are with me.”
I scoff at the absurdity of his statement.
“It’s not a switch I can turn on and off West!”
“Meet me once God Dammit! Just once. We will figure something out!”
I take a breath, trying to control my annoyance and say, “Ok!”
