I want you more

There are things that one would hear, and she would feel it is normal, but just hearing that she was raped by the famous one eyed man, someone whom the entire federation was cursing as they speak, someone whom no one wants to know.

She touched her stomach, roving every connection of her child with a criminal.

She remembered what she was told that blood is usually thicker than water, and she feared, that her child might end up suffering for the sin of a man, she doesn't even know.

She too didn't get to know him, and she is grateful for it, she would have appreciated it the more, if she had been given the chance, to forget that she actually did meet him.

Somehow she wish she could loose her memory and forget him, not like they had anything l, but just the imagination of his hands on her, made her feel all worse.

"God please, whatever curse is following this Steven of a guy, may it not have anything to do with her". She prayed silently, as her tears profusely poured down like rain drops.

Dave have not finished his story, and he really did not know how to console her.

"Please don't cry! Was all he could tell her, but that didn't seem to work, for she was really hurting.

"What of my child turns out to be a criminal? She poured out her fears to him, and he nodded his head in disagreement.

"That is not gonna happen, You are a great mother, you have a beautiful soul, you are wonderful, there is no way, darkness will overshadow light". She smiles, because she knows that he was just trying to make her feel better. Months ago, he would have capitalized on that, and insult him, but he was acting like he didn't say all those hurtful statement to her.

"Are you really the one calling me a good woman? She asked, as she remembered all he said to her, and how she had felt afterwards.

Dave shook his head, as it seem as though she is never going to forgive him.

"I know I wronged you Amy, but I think anybody in my position would do exactly what I did, and I realized now, I was wrong, I am sorry, please forgive me, let me take responsibility for this baby". She didn't want them to talk about coming back, she just shook her head, as she wouldn't stop crying.

I love you Amanda, I never stopped loving you, no matter what happened back then, I still love you". In such cases, she would have walked away, but she was feeling too heavy for words, that she just sat there on the bed, and looked away.

She closed her eyes, and her fears increased, as the image she got, made her force her eyes open, and even after she opened her eyes, she was still seeing the same image.

"No!!! She screams as she closed her ears and shut her eyes, then she rested her back on the bed, which felt like she was sleeping, but the image kept coming to her head.

She saw in her imagination, that she had her baby, and all of a sudden, she was all grown, she had a great man close to her, but the face of the man, she could not place it. At some point, the man beside her would look like Goodluck, which is the person she wants to see, while at other times, the image she would get, would look like that of Dave, and that was the opposite of what she wants.

The men, though they were not really the issue, for the issue, was her daughter, that had now grown, she started working, she was bringing money home, but she realized later that she was killing, stealing and kidnapping, she opened her eyes wider, looking at Dave that just stood looking at her, obviously scared.

"You are scaring me Amanda, please talk to me". He begged, but with her eyes opened now, she just had to get herself distracted, she blinked severally, to get herself back in the hospital, as the image in front of her, would nit disappear, when it finally did, she looked down, then looked up back at him and said.

"Tell me more. I want more.