CHAPTERS 29 (Part 1)

Talliah Eryn Castillego POV

BEING OBSESSED and crazy with someone is beyond scary. You would always imagine to be with that person so bad. You create things in your mind and imagination. Because you want to be with that person and be yours, you create scenarios in your brain... for the happiness of your heart.

My heart suddenly tear apart when I saw the scenery in front of me. The man I've always dreamed of to be mine is with someone else... I saw how happiness danced in his eyes as he looked at the girl in front of her.

My fresh hot tears slowly streaming down to my cheeks making them wet when Caelan slowly crouched a bit to kiss her forehead.

I weakly put my hand on the back of my car because I could feel my heart slowly breaking. It's so subtle that it hurts.

I shook my head repeatedly while catching my breath. No... That's not him... He loves me! Caelan loves me! why the hell did he kiss someone who's not me! That's not my baby! Oh God... please tell me that's not my baby with Leina.

I shed more tears when I saw that his face gradually came closer to Leina's face. I fisted my hand tightly when I saw how their lips met for a sweet kiss.

My lips parted at what I witnessed. I felt like I lost my breath because of what my eyes were seeing.

"Caelan! Stop kissing her! Didn't you say you loved me? So why the hell you were kissing someone who's not me!" I shouted at the top of my lungs.

But they're like deaf people and don't even hear me. I clutched my chest when it ached badly inside my chest. Slowly Caelan Rainer the man I love tilted his head to my side causing our eyes to meet.

Hope immediately rose up inside my chest. He knows me right? i am the one he truly loves right? Maybe he didn't mean to kiss Leina because he really loves me...

Rainer forehead creased when he saw me. He looked at me curiously as if he recognized my face. When he was satisfied he suddenly looked back at Leina as if he didn't know me.

Rainer suddenly stood up and held out his palm in front of Leina. The woman accepted it with a smile. I balanced myself to stand properly. My muscles trembled when I saw them walking away from me.

I composed myself and dried my tears. I tried to chase them but I couldn't catch up with them. I stopped when I felt I ran out of breath. I punched my chest while trying to chase them.

No this is not real... Please someone wake me up... My life should be fine. I am with the man I love and my children. We have children. This is not true. I'm just dreaming. Please someone wake me up from this bad dream.

I screamed so loud and held my head when it hurt. someone is whispering to me that this is the reality. But I shook my head repeatedly cause I know this is not the fucking reality.

"Rainer doesn't know you... he doesn't even love you. You're just imagining things. Wake up Talliah." Someone evilly whispered in my ears then laughed afterwards.

"That's not true! My baby loves me! This is just a dream! I'm not imagining things! You witch! Get out of my head! Please!" I shouted and shouted just to silence her.

But I could hear his devilish laugh even more in my ears. the hairs on the back of my neck suddenly stood up because of what he said.

"You're crazy Talliah... You're just like your Mom! Going crazy because of a man. The man you love doesn't really know you. It's just your imagination that he likes you back because you're so crazy about him. but the truth is he doesn't know you and he will never love you back..."

"This is the reality Talliah... No one loves you. Everybody left you because they don't love you." The voice laughed in a mocking tone.

Don't listen to her Talliah. Listen to the beat of your heart. you can wake up in this bad dream okay. Rainer loves you and you know it. Tallan and Caelliah love you so much. There are people who love you.

I can't just imagine everything. I can't be crazy. I'm not crazy. This is only a bad dream. My family loves me.

And even if I'm the most sinful person living in this world I know God loves me...

I looked up and saw the dark sky. There is not a single star you can see in the sky. Just pure darkness. I lay down on the grass because I couldn't take the pain in my heart anymore. if everything is just imagination I don't want to wake up.

I felt my hot tears flowing on my cheeks as I slowly closed my eyes. I was hoping that this is only a bad dream. Save me please...

My forehead is sweating profusely. I want to wake up but my eyes don't want to open. Am I just really imagining things? Am I just like Mommy who goes crazy and has a headache?

What if Caelan Rainer is not true? Will my system accept it? My answer is no. My system can't accept that Caelan is only inside my head and my imagination. I know he's real and he loves me.

"I love you Talliah... I love you so much." I heard a soft whisper in my ears.

I felt someone caressing my wet cheeks. As he mumbled some words. I felt someone kissing my eyes and all over my face but I couldn't even open my eyes.

"Please Mommy wake up... I'm here. I won't leave your side hmm... Just please wake up." a familiar voice softly whispered and placed a kiss on my lips.

Even though it was difficult for me to open my eyes, I tried to open them slowly. I slowly opened my blurry eyes. I couldn't see the face of the person in front of me because of the tears. The person in front of me immediately wiped my tears away making my vision getting normal.

Sobs immediately came out of my mouth when I saw Rainer's face full of tears while staring at me. i saw sadness, pain and worries around his brown orbs.

I immediately hooked my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. He also hugged my waist and hugged me tighter.

It's just a dream...

My chest is pounding so hard. I'm so scared. I bit my bottom lip when I felt Rainer caressing my back softly.

"Shh... You're just dreaming. Hold on." He whispered softly making me cry even more.

I pressed my face to the side of his neck and hugged him tighter. I'm afraid I am afraid of my dream. I can't... I can't leave without him knowing.

He's only mine, isn't he... he can't leave me. My heart will die when that happens.

"You're not going to leave me, are you? You love me, right?" I asked with difficulty in a raspy voice.

Rainer sighed and showered my head with kisses.

"I won't leave you and I love you too much to just leave you." he promised for sure.

"I wouldn't have waited a few years if I wasn't sure about you. I wouldn't let myself go crazy with you to leave you. I bet my whole being on you because I'm sure you're the one for me."

He mumbled seriously making me look at him. My tears are still streaming down. They seem inexhaustible. Rainer wiped my tears away and fixed my hair. his soft brown orbs looked at my blue ones.

He caressed my cheeks and watched my face intently.

"Damn it... you drove me crazy. How can I leave you if you drove me so crazy. Do you think you're the only one crazy in love here. I'm Talliah too. I'm so crazy about you." he laughed softly and immediately removed the tears that fell from his cheeks.

"That's why it hurt so much when I found out that you left me. The woman who said she's so crazy and into me suddenly left me. I thought you were crazy about me, why are you leaving me all of a sudden." he bit his bottom lip while looking at me.

"You made me and my system crazy over you. So don't ever think that I would leave you... Because I can never do that. Even if we die, Talliah, I will not leave you. I'm always here by your side to tell you that you are loved."

"Talliah Eryn Castillego is so unique and beautiful inside and out. She maybe the craziest woman I know. But hey, I love my Mommy so damn much." He muttered proudly.

I can't stop crying because of what he says. I felt how my heart beats erratically inside my chest.

"Everywhere I look I can't find anyone like you. So why would I leave you when you are the standard. why should I leave the girl who did nothing but make me feel how much she loves me."

"Why would I leave Talliah if she loves Caelan more than herself. I couldn't find a woman like you in this lifetime. So fuck them I will keeping you in my arms forever. You can't be crazy about other people, you should only be with me." he said firmly and planted a kiss on my lips.

"So don't ever think that I would leave you hmm... You were the first one of us to go crazy. I will make sure that I will understand your insanity." he whispered while kissing my lips.

My heart suddenly calmed down after hearing his words. The apprehensions I felt earlier disappeared immediately and were completely blown away by the wind. Rainer's words assured my heart. All the fear in my heart is slowly disappearing.

I feel that he loves me. Even if he doesn't say it, I can feel his love through his actions and that's enough for me to know that we feel the same.

But he gave me even more assurance because of the words he uttered.

Rainer pulled me closer to his body. I just left it to him. He kisses my forehead. I bit my lower lip when I heard how fast the beating of his heart.

He stroked my hair lightly but I still couldn't close my eyes again.