CHAPTER 46

2:17 AM. I try to sleep but my mind won't allow me. Even though I was very tired, my mind was wide awake and seemed to be just waiting for a miracle. I wish it was just a dream and I suddenly woke up. But no. This is not a dream because my lower lip was almost injured from the bite earlier.

I looked again at the man who was still dead in his sleep. He’s sleeping now in my room because the sofa is wet and he can’t be there, so I first asked the two to move him. I've been thinking of calling Jaxon before but I can't either because I'm sure it's a big mess.

I sighed violently and quietly approached him. I sat down next to him. He was sound asleep after I changed his clothes and shorts. I didn't bother myself with what I saw because I had no choice but to do it. Damn that two! I don't know what are they thinking.

"Lumiere..."

I was shocked when I heard that. It was low but very clear to my hearing so I stared at him even more. His expression is somewhat... full of agony and pain. Its forehead is furrowed and it does not look airy. I don't know but it looks like he looks different.

I suddenly felt something. I just stared at him so closely again. I feel like I miss him so much. His scent, his facial expression, his eyes, lips, and all. I feel like hugging him. The last time we talked, I tried to kill my feelings for him because I wanted to feel angry but I knew I hadn’t succeeded then. And now, he’s here in front of me, I feel like I want to betray myself and just claim him again. I fucking miss his hugs and kisses and this is so wrong.

"Hey..."

I blinked twice when he suddenly woke up and uttered a word. I have no idea when he wakes up because I feel like I've been staring at his lips for a long time... at him.

I could hear nothing else, only the loud throbbing of my chest. It was loud and I feel like he could also hear that. The surroundings were quiet amidst the dim light.

I smiled but that never reached my eyes.

“Hi,” I replied to him and immediately stood up.

But before I could finally get up, he quickly grabbed my hand and gently pulled me back to him.

"Did I come here after I got drunk?" He asked me in his raspy voice, still holding my wrist.

I can always tell that his sleepy voice is the sexiest thing in this world.

“Rafa and Yerim brought you here because you were so drunk,” I told him as I was trying to forcibly remove his hold on me.

I averted my gaze from him as he slowly sat up from his reclining position. I can still feel the intense throbbing of my chest because of his presence. The smell of wine still wafted through him, but his ‘smell’ was more dominant.

“Is this your room? Aren't you sleeping yet?" he still asked me softly so I sighed violently.

The way he was softening his voice is making me sore and tender. I feel like I want to forget even for a moment what happened before and let him lock me in his arms.

"Lumiere..."

"It's Astraea," I said firmly to him and tried to hide the softness in my voice.

“You can sleep here and just leave early in the morning. I'm just in the other room,” I coldly said to him and quickly left him there.

When I got out, I was chasing my breath because I had been holding it back inside before. I can feel my heart beating faster and I couldn’t even calm down especially since Ria is just in the other room and there is a good chance that they will meet if he hasn’t left yet. That can't happen.

I glanced for a moment at my daughter who was fast asleep before heading to the kitchen. I just grabbed three bottles of beer from the fridge before heading to the terrace and quietly sitting there.

"Drinking instead of sleeping, huh?"

I ignored the speaker because he was the only one there. Instead, I opened the beer I had taken and drank it straight while staring at the emptiness. The rain was still heavy along with the strong wind. I don’t know if there was a storm or what.

"If you can't sleep, go home," I told him lazily without looking at him.

I could feel him holding me so I just shook. You’re making things hard for me, Levi. Why are you doing this to me up to now?

“Is this your place? Where’s... Jaxon? ” He asked me out of the blue.

I could see him taking a bottle next to me and opening it.

My forehead furrowed and immediately looks at him.

"What makes you think that Jaxon can be here and you can't?" I asked him with a laugh.

It also stared at nothingness before finally turning to me. He ruffled his hair as his forehead furrowed.

"Because Jaxon is your boyfriend and I am not?" He wasn't sure what to say to me so his forehead furrowed even more.

I drank the beer I was holding again and couldn’t believe looking at him.

“Jaxon is not my boyfriend and by no means. Why do you all say that—”

"Because that's what he told us all before he hid you from me. Stop playing victim, Astraea,” he blurted.

“What? I do not know what you're saying. We haven't been and even more so we won't be,” I told him angrily and turned to face him.

Next, I heard him cuss multiple times as he sipped that beer straight away. It sighed violently and tilted its head to look at me.

“I was fucking devastated when he suddenly told me that you two were dating back then. He even said something had happened to you so I stopped chasing you, Rae! Did you forget that right away?” he almost shouted at me so I was alarmed because of Asteria.

Wait... what?!