CHAPTER 92

The reason why I hate my lifestyle before is that I always get bullied by the way I talk and how I behave. My innocence is always putting me in danger. Maybe because I’m an over-thinker. I tend to think about the situation a lot before I do something. I first think about what effect my actions will have on other people.

So maybe I forgot I also have a feeling too.

“We need to go back to Manila immediately. I'm done with the fixes here. Plus I need to find a new architect for our house,” I heard Levi say while talking on the phone.

I glanced at him for a moment before I turned my gaze back to my daughter.

“If I want to rush it, then I will definitely do it, Mom. You know me,” he added.

"Are we going home, Mommy?" Ria asked me so I focused on her.

I took a good look at the whole thing. I smiled bitterly as I remembered what had happened to me that night at Noah's hand.

It's only now that I realize — I can't afford to lose myself because I still have her.

“Yes, baby. Why?” I asked her back.

"I will miss Aunt Avery and her baby." Was her cute answer and she was still giggling so I laughed.

Later, Levi returned to my side to continue eating lunch. I could still feel him holding me by the waist so I turned to him.

"What is it?" I asked referring to what they talked about with his mom.

It tilted its head to look at me. He smiled briefly at me and kissed me quickly on the forehead.

"About our wedding, I want it to happen by next week," he simply answered me so I was alarmed.

“Huh? I thought it was next year,” I said to him and turned to feed my daughter again.

“Why? Don’t you want it?”

I was caught off guard by what he said which made me look at him again. His forehead was already furrowed so I almost laughed.

“It’s not like that, Levi. I just don't want to hurry because I want everything to be fine first,” I explained to him and smiled at him.

He stared at me for a while before finally nodding and continuing to eat.

When we finished lunch, we were ready to leave. I was busy packing our things in the living room when all of a sudden Noah came so I almost had a heart attack.

“Hi, Astraea. How are you?" He asked me immediately and looked at me meaningfully from head to toe.

To my horror, I quickly got up from my seat.

"L-Levi!" I shouted from the living room where I am now to call Levi who momentarily took Ria to its playroom.

Noah suddenly smirked at me and took a step forward so I become alert.

"D-don't come any closer!" I was quick as he continued to step closer to me.

His grin widened even more. I could feel the intense trembling of my whole body in fear as he stared at me as if he was stripping me of his mind.

“Chill, Rae. Even though I really want us to continue what we didn’t finish that night, I’m not going to do that here of course. I don’t do the live show,” he mockingly said to me and began laughing.

Fury welled up in my head when I heard his scary laugh.

“Y-you really are an animal! I’ll make sure you pay for what you did to me!” Shuddering, I said to him while holding back my outburst of anger.

My eyes are starting to burn and it’s killing me.

"And do you think anyone will believe you?"

I was shocked to hear that. I could still feel my tears welling up from my eyes as I looked at him.

That’s what I also thought that night. Will anyone believe me when I tell them? Especially since no one saw what happened that night.

My lips trembled when it opened but no words came out of it.

“No one will believe in you because you are stupid. Also, no one saw it. I can easily refuse in court because I have a lot of connections. How about you? What is the only thing you can do? Cry out and ask for help? Until when?"

His words seemed to pierce my heart with sharp knives. That in so much pain, I could no longer think correctly. That in so much pain, I could no longer speak. Only my tears have the ability to explain how I feel now. It was as if I was being killed over and over again.

"St-stop it…" I told him emphatically. I grabbed the end of my dress just to take courage from there because I can no longer call Levi's name.

“S-stop it. I know someone will believe me. You know someone will believe me.”

“Really? Let’s see, then? I’ll see you in Manila,” he said and laughed again.

He was about to turn around but it quickly turned to me so I was almost stuck in my position again. He looked at me from head to toe and his gaze stopped on my face.

“You’re really hot, huh. You're so deliciously sweet,” he said horribly and left quickly.

I sat down violently on the sofa. I almost fainted holding my breath as I faced that ‘demon’. I rubbed my whole face and there wept.

How fucking shameful he is! How fucking dumb! How fucking disgusting! What’s this happening to me?!

I don't know why is this all happening to me. Am I a bad person? Did I do something wrong in my past life? How bad was it that they gave me this kind of punishment? If I tell them, would they believe me? I know they will. I can feel it. But what if they don't? What should I do to heal myself again once the whole world rejects me again?