You became the reason of my Madness

"The day you entered my life, I caged your soul in my heart

I will always bring you to me even if I had to tear the world apart.

You're my cute Santa who flooded my dark life with gifts of happiness

You became the reason of my sanity but also the reason of

MADNESS"

"I am so sorry my Rosebud."

Xavier cried while hugging Rosaline tightly. He was sleeping beside her when all of a sudden, he felt some shuffling. He immediately opened his eyes and saw Rosaline staring at the walls in horror. Her eyes were wide opened and her lips were quivering in fear.

"Rose, I-"

"Leave me"

Xavier became stunned to hear a harsh voice that belonged to none other than his Rosebud. He quickly broke the hug and looked at Rosaline only to find her glaring him.

"Rose, what happened? Are you angry?"

He cupped her face and tried to look in her eyes but she jerked off his hands harshly and sat straight on the bed.

"Don't call me that. Even after hurting me this bad, you have the AUDACITY to ask me what had happened?"

She spat in anger. Xavier looked at her confused but his eyes widened when he understood the meaning behind her bitter words. He quickly held her arms and started shaking his head in denial vigorously.

"No, no Rose. What are you saying? You think I did this to you? I will never do this to you Rose. How can you even think of something like that?"

He babbled. Xavier couldn't find words to explain how helpless he was feeling at the moment but Rosaline kept staring him coldly. Her rage was uncontrollable and her eyes were burning with fire.

She scoffed.

"Maybe you didn't do this but you're the sole reason why I am here right now. Because of you only, I am suffering right now. I am so fed up of all this. I am just so FED UP!!"

She shouted and gave a hard blow on his chest. Xavier flinched and looked at her in shock. His heart twitched with pain as he noticed the coldness and hate in her eyes for him.

"I AM SO DONE OF BEING THE SCAPEGOAT ALL THE TIME!! WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO HAD TO SUFFER EVERYTIME? WHAT CRIME HAVE I EVER COMMITTED THAT I HAVE TO BEAR ALL THE PAIN? BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I THINK TODAY I HAVE FINALLY GOT THE REASON BEHIND MY MISERY. AND THAT'S YOU!!! IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU, XAVIER KNIGHT, ALL BECAUSE OF YOU!"

Rosaline yelled fiercely while she kept pummelling his chest with her tiny fits. Although it was nothing for Xavier but his posture immediately turned stiff after hearing her accusatory tone. His jaw got clenched and his eyes started getting red-rimmed. But then he recalled James's words. He looked down and heaved a deep sigh to control his building temper.

"Love, you need to calm down."

Xavier spoke gently and tried to hold her shoulders. He thought that maybe the reason behind her anger is her weakness. But Rosaline quickly crawled back and pushed his hands away as he tried to pull her towards himself.

"DON'T TOUCH ME! YOU DIGUSTS ME!! WHY XAVIER? WHY CAN'TYOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE? WHEN I FINALLY GAINED MY FREEDOM, MY LIFE BACK, YOU AGAIN CAME BACK TO RUIN ME. WHY CAN'T I ESCAPE FROM YOUR DARK SHADOW WHICH ALWAYS KEEP LURKING AROUND ME? I CURSE THE DAY I MET YOU..IF...IF YOU WOULD HAD NEVER CAME IN MY LIFE, I WOULD HAVE BEEN LIVING HAPPILY WITH MY PARENTS IN CHICAGO RIGHT NOW INSTEAD OF LYING ON THIS HOSPITAL BED BECAUSE OF ONE OF YOUR SICK GAMES!"

"ROSE!!"

Xavier growled in anger. His eyes turned red and he gnashed his teeth furiously. He pushed Rosaline back on the bed and hovered above her. She started wriggling in his hold but he tightened his grip on her as he had enough. He circled his one hand around her waist and with other he cupped her face.

"You.need.to.calm.down. Alright? You're still sick so first"

"No, I am not sick. YOU'RE SICK!!""YES I AM SICK!!"Xavier couldn't control himself anymore and shouted. His anger finally exploded. He cupped her small face with his rough hands and squeezed her cheeks painfully making Rosaline whine in pain.

"I AM SICK OF MY HEART WHICH ONLY BEATS FOR YOU! I AM SICK OF MY EYES WHICH ONLY WANT TO SEE YOU! I AM SICK OF MY LIPS WHICH ONLY MOVE TO SAY YOUR NAME! I AM SICK OF MY MIND WHICH ONLY THINKS ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME! I AM SICK OF MY EARS WHICH ONLY LONG TO HEAR YOUR VOICE NOTHING ELSE! I AM SICK OF MYSELF AND I AM SICK OF YOU TOO!! WHY? WHY DID YOU CAME IN MY LIFE? WHY DID YOU HURT ME SO BAD? WHY PLAYED WITH MY FEELINGS WHEN I LOVED YOU WITH ALL MY HEART? WHY BREAK MY TRUST WHEN I TRUSTED YOU LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW? WHY BREAK THE PROMISES WE HAD MADE WITH EACH OTHER?"

Xavier screamed while tears of frustration escaped his eyes and hit Rosaline's cheeks who was herself staring him with teary-eyes.

"I loved you so much Rosebud, I loved you more than my life. You were my whole world. You were my beginning; you were my end. I trusted you more than anyone. You know that everyone was against our marriage, you know that my Dad didn't liked you. You know that my brothers were also not in favour of this relationship but I was the one who decided to hold your hand forever. Noah kept convincing me till the last moment that you weren't the right girl for me but I fought with the entire world just to be your side. I vowed to protect you with all my heart even if I have to keep my life at stake. But what did you do?"

He spoke in a broken voice while Rosaline kept listening to him silently. But then all of a sudden, his eyes turned dark with rage. His nose flared in anger and his face turned red.

Xavier slowly glided his hands down to her neck and gripped it lifting Rosaline a bit up in air. But the shocking part was that she didn't even flinch a bit. She kept staring into his blood-red eyes which infuriated him more.

"You.left.me. You trusted your little scums more than me. You fought with me for others. You didn't even try to understand my point of view. You didn't even tried to hear me out.one last time and ran away from me. You ran away to live your life but most importantly you decided to live your life with another MAN! How? HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME? I NEVER THOUGHT OF ANYONE ELSE APART FROM YOU. I NEVER GAVE MY HEART TO ANYONE ELSE BUT YOU? YOU NOT ONLY BETRAYED ME BUT CHEATED WITH ME-""BECAUSE I HAD NO OTHER OPTION!!"Rosaline cut him off as she screamed on his face. Xavier became startled by her outburst and stared her in shock.

"I had to Xavier. I had to. You say that I betrayed you, everyone says that I am an unfaithful wife but why can't you all see? Why nobody can see my sufferings, my pain? Why I am the only one who gets castigated without any reason? You, your friends and your well-wishers can see how much you had suffered, how much you had gone through because of me but why do they turn a blind eye every time when it comes to me, my pain, my sufferings? Why do you all portray me as the villain? You say you love me; you say you trusted me then why did you kept me in dark? WHY DIDN'T YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU WERE A MAFIA?""BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID!" Rosaline flinched as Xavier blared while more tears escaped from his swollen eyes drowning her already damped cheeks with his painful tears. He squeezed her throat and snarled near her lips.

"I was afraid that you will leave me. I was afraid that after knowing my real identity, you will get scared and leave me-"

Xavier immediately stopped in midway as soon as a chuckle escaped from Rosaline's lips. He furrowed his brows and stared her as she started laughing but hurt and pain was laced in her empty laughter.

"Afraid? You got afraid? So for your fear you decided to keep me in a lie for the rest of my life. Or maybe you thought that once you will make me yours forever then you'll show me your true colours. You knew that I won't be able to do anything. Afterall you were the most dangerous Mafia of America but me, I was just an ordinary middle-class girl. Who will be able to fight against such a powerful and vile gangster? And that's what happened, isn't it? I told you that I won't marry you but you forced me. Still, I forget everything- the death of my friends, your torture, your barbarous acts and gave you a chance. You know why I did this Xavier?"

Rosaline spoke while smiling sadly at him. Xavier's gaze softened and he slowly loosened his grip around her neck.

"You say I would have left you if you had told me the truth but Xavier, I had been in love with you when I didn't even knew the meaning of love. I fell in love with you when we both were oblivious of this heavenly relationship. I didn't loved you because you were rich, I didn't loved you because you were good-looking. I never longed for your wealth, I never loved you to seek any benefit from you. Do you remember the day I forgive you the first time? I told you that I will be with you even if you become poor and have nothing. You are counting my faults but what about you?"

Her gaze abruptly turned fierce. She grabbed Xavier's collar harshly and pulled him towards her lips.

"You smashed all my expectations brutally right on the day of our wedding. You tortured me, hurt me still I gave you a chance. You kept hurting me, I kept giving you chances but see even after being the sole victim of all your wrongdoings, after bearing all the tortures, I am the only one who is bearing everyone's hate instead of you. Noah had always disliked me from the start but you made Sebastian and Elijah despise me too. WHY? WHY CAN'T YOU SEE THAT THEY WERE THE ONLY ONE WHO BETRAYED YOU? WHY ARE YOU FAVOURING THE ONES WHO BACKSTABBED YOU AND HATING THE ONE WHOM YOU YOURSELF HAD DECEIVED? WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME? WHAT DO YOU ALL THINK OF ME? AM I TOY TO YOU? I SAID I LOVED YOU BUT YOU ALWAYS WANTED ME TO GIVE YOU THE PROOF OF MY LOVE!.TO GIVE YOU THE PROOF OF MY LOYALTY! YOU MADE ME YOUR WIFE XAVIER BUT TREATED ME LIKE YOUR PET, INFACT WORST THAN THAT!!"

Rosaline cried her heart out and finally burst into tears. The strong walls which she had wrapped around her heart finally shattered down. All the tortures and tribulations had torn her soul apart. Xavier's heart squeezed with pain as he watched her crying hysterically beneath him like a child.

Rosaline was too broken and hurt. Her eyes were painted red while tears of agony kept rolling down her cheeks as she started bawling her eyes out.

"Why did you do this to me Xavier? Why gave me false hopes? Why promise to protect me and keep me safe from all the dangers of this world? I had always loved you Xavier but you intended me to do take such a harsh step. I am tolerating everyone's hate despite of the fact that I was the one who had suffered the most in this toxic marriage. I am also human. Why I have to be the one who is used like a slave and then left to die on the cold street? Even after being the victim of all the wrongdoings of this cruel world, why I have to be the one who always wander around begging people for justice in the end? When I finally understood that no one from your side will stood up for me so I decided to leave you. I left the place where I have no self-respect, I left the guy who treats me like a punching bag, who claims to love me but only hurts me, who promised to give me all the happiness of the world but all he has given to me is pain, tears, and a broken heart. I left you not because I didn't love you Xavier but because I finally gave up on myself, on our empty marriage, on my one-sided love and broken relationship"

Rosaline whimpered and looked at Xavier who was watching her with teary-eyes.

"Doll, I-"

Xavier tried to explain her but she immediately cut him off in between.

"Doll, I used to love this word and used to long to hear it from your lips but now this word only dreads me. It's because you had really reduced me into one. You really succeeded in making me your Doll, your finger puppet."

Rosaline spoke in a sad voice. Her hold on his shirt slowly loosened as her hands fell on sideways. Xavier quickly placed his hand behind her head while staring her softly. Rosaline looked at him with half-opened eyes. All the screaming and crying had drained her energy. She was already so weak but today she was completely broken.

Xavier stared her for a couple of minutes but then he gave a soft peck on her both eyes making her startled. He caressed her head gently with one hand and with other, he started caressing her cheeks. Rosaline watched him as he slowly started rubbing her lower lip with his right thumb and brushed his lips on hers. She became confused with his sudden demeanor.

Xavier rested his forehead on hers and closed his eyes. His soft breath sloshed her lips but this time she was not getting aroused by his touch instead his soft acts were only fuelling up her anger. She was becoming frustrated with his sick behaviour. He then slowly traced his lips on her head and plastered a lingering kiss on her forehead.

"My Rose, my love, my world, my wife, only mine"

He whispered softly. Rosaline became baffled by his words. She frowned but flinched when Xavier kissed between her eyebrows.

"Don't do that. I don't like when you frown."

He mumbled and looked at Rosaline while smiling. Her blood boiled in anger as she found him smiling at her softly. Her jaw clenched as she glared him furiously.

"WHAT THE HELL XAVIER! DO YOU REALLY HAVE NO SHAME?"

Rosaline started throwing profanities at him as she was beyond furious. She thought that maybe after opening her heart to him he would finally realise his mistakes and would feel guilty for whatever he had done to her. But no after listening to her cries, he started behaving more weirdly. He was smiling at her all the time and stared her while his eyes were filled with love and admiration. Even after hearing her cursing him badly, he was just staring her with a smile.

Xavier then slowly pecked her cheeks and beamed while adoring her face.

"I am so happy Rose. I finally got my answers."

He whispered near her lips and pecked her lips. Rosaline pushed him back harshly and shouted in pure rage.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? LEAVE M-

But before she could complete, Xavier slammed his lips on her leaving her shocked and frozen.

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