His Regret, Her Despair

"You came as a light in my life, my saviour, my hero

But your madness ruined me making you the reason of my sorrow

You made me dream of stars, but your selfish love destroyed it

You claimed to love me but your actions never justified it"

-Rosaline

"You aren't a star of my life, you are my whole damn sky

The smile of my face, the sight for my sore eye

Don't question my love for you, I promise I'll win you back

You have always been mine Rose, even the God knows

that it's a universal fact"

-Xavier

At Knight Heritage, Italy

Rosaline immediately turned her steps back to the mansion after the little fight she had with her friend turned foes. She was completely distressed and tired of all this. Everyone has a patience limit. She endured everything, spent half of her life in hot waters but today's incident completely shattered her poor heart. Her career was kaput, she had turned just into a slave bearing their lousy behaviour and demeaning comments.

Rosaline entered the mansion and doddered all the way inside the living room. Her mind was blank while the heaviness of her eyes was making difficult for her to see clearly. She just wanted to lie down on her comfy bed and wished never to wake up again. Although she went to the office today but the heavy amount of insult and pain that was showered on her had debilitated her.

All of a sudden two pair of shining black shoes came in her view. She looked up only to be met with Sebastian who was raging like a bull.

"Are you happy now?"

He snarled. Rosaline looked at him blankly. Sebastian didn't like her silence in fact it only increased his temper more.

"WHAT? WHAT ARE YOU STARING AT? I HATE YOU SO MUCH ROSALINE BROWNS. I CURSED THE DAY I LET YOU COME IN MY BROTHER'S LIFE. I SHOULD HAVE KILLED YOU THE DAY XAVIER INTRODUCED YOU TO US!! I JUST-"

"SEBASTIAN!!"

Elijah shouted from behind as he marched towards him angrily.

"Shut up okay. Stop spewing shits on her when you're the one who is at fault."

He growled. Sebastian looked at him in shock but then his jaw clenched as he found Elijah looking at Rosaline with pity.

"Don't mind him, Rosaline. He has lost his brain cells. Well, I need your help with something."

"NO!"

Sebastian immediately cut him off in between. Elijah looked at him with a pissed expression.

"She is not going inside Xavier's room. I will call Sophia or Katherine to help him."

He spoke with gritted teeth. Rosaline frowned.

'Help?', she mentally thought.

"Why need to call them when he has his own wife to take care of him?"

Elijah smirked. Sebastian glared him but then he let out a throaty chuckle.

"Oh yeah, a cheater wife who ran away with her beloved. His ex-wife who is involved with so many men that she even lost the count. Isn't it Mrs. Browns/Valentino/ Knight?"

He chuckled. Elijah balled his fists in anger. He grabbed his collar and was about to lash on him when suddenly a raspy voice echoed in the hall grabbing their attention.

"I didn't know that apart from being a Mafia, you have also started a side business of disrespecting women, Seb?"

Sebastian and Elijah looked behind Rosaline only to see Noah looking them coldly. Sebastian looked at him in shock as it was highly unexpected of Noah to defend Rosaline, the girl whom he had hated all his life. But abruptly his shocked expression changed into an amusement one as he scoffed at him.

"Since when YOU started taking her side?"

He mocked him. Noah smirked in response.

"Since the day I came to know that you are nothing but an asshole."

"NOAH!!"

Sebastian growled and marched towards him like a predator. He swung a punch in air and was about to hit him when Noah caught his fist in midway.

"Not this time Seb."

Noah spoke in the same mocking tone and pushed his hands away harshly. Sebastian looked at him with wide eyes. Rosaline was watching the whole drama silently. She was not at all interested in all this action dramatic scenes. Elijah looked at her and found her looking everyone with a flat face. He chuckled internally.

"Rosaline, take this."

Rosaline immediately tore her gaze away from the duo and looked at him. Her eyes landed on his hand which was holding a first aid kit. She furrowed her brows in confusion.

"Go and treat Xavier. He isn't listening to any of us."

He spoke calmly. Her expressions immediately hardened as soon as she heard that. Her jaw ticked. She curled her fists as her gaze turned fierce.

"That's none of my concern. I am for sure your employee but I am not your Master's slave. And you should call a doctor instead of telling me to treat him."

She snapped at him. Elijah sighed.

"We did but Xavier threatened to kill the doctor. That poor doc immediately ran to save his ass from your crazy lover."

He snickered. Rosaline rolled her eyes not enjoying his jocular remarks.

"As I said, I am least interested in hearing about all this shits. If that doctor ran away, you can call another one and treat his bleeding hand or else it will get infected. He isn't the only doctor left in the whole Italy."

She scoffed and looked away from him while crossing her arms over her chest. Elijah smiled.

'She still cares about him', he thought.

"You want to turn this mansion into a cemetery?"

He spoke while sighing in a dramatic tone. Rosaline huffed in frustration; he was getting on her nerves now.

"Listen, I am not-"

"You're going. End of discussion."

Rosaline gritted her teeth as she shot a death glare to the blondie who was staring her sternly.

"Stop ordering me around."

She gritted. Noah looked at her with a bored expression.

"Ah!! I am fed up of your asinine behaviour. I am not your reminder button. You know it damn well that you're in no state of neither making any argument nor taking any decision. You have to just act the way you're told to. So, for now little Doll, stop protracting the situation and making it complicated. Just get the hell inside Xavier's room and fucking treat his hand."

Noah spat in an intimidating tone.

Rosaline closed her eyes suppressing her anger as she knew it was the bitter truth. Noah had hit her hard below the belt as he again reminded her of her miserable position in this house. Her throat clogged up while her eyes pooled with heavy tears. She was feeling too helpless. Her whole life seriously has no meaning at all. She can't even take her own decisions that much pitiful her life has turned now. Rosaline tried to push back her tears and opened her eyes. She looked at Noah with so much resentment and disgust but he kept staring her blankly unfazed by her rage.

Rosaline snatched the kit from Elijah's hands harshly and immediately left for Xavier's room but not before giving a death glare to all the three guys.

Elijah's smile got dropped off his face. He sealed his lips into a thin line and looked at Noah who was staring in the direction to which Rosaline left.

"Now that wasn't so difficult, right?"

Noah said while staring at Rosaline's disappearing figure and then eventually darted his eyes towards the pale guy who was glaring him with disappointment.

*****

~Time skips

Xavier was lying on the couch bearing the pain while his body was completely drenched in sweat.

He had lost a good amount of blood now which had for sure created a pool beneath his shoes. Although being a Mafia, Xavier was habitual of such injuries but too much blood loss was now weakening him and compelling him to get it treated. But that hard headed beast had totally made up his mind today that this wound would will only be get treated by his beauty.

His eyes were stuck on the door waiting anxiously for his healer like a parched traveller who craves for a drop of water in Sahara. Xavier kept shaking his right leg furiously as his patience was nearly running off. He had been waiting for Rosaline for the past one hour and his injured self wasn't helping him at all. He kept losing consciousness time to time but he would keep himself awake by squeezing his bloodied hand making the shards of glasses pierce more in his flesh. He would then smile cynically staring at the drops of blood that were ruining the marbled floor continuously. Xavier had for sure lost his mind but with every passing second his guilt for hurting that innocent soul was increasing more and more.

Xavier stood up from the bed as he walked towards the window. He leaned his head on the wall and closed his eyes remembering how brutally and inhumanely he had behaved with the girl whom he claimed to be the love of his life. How cruelly he insulted her, how mercilessly he tortured her, abused her still she forgave him but what did he do in return? He called her a slut, a whore, a cheater, even a bed warmer.

Xavier himself couldn't believe how much cruel words he had said to Rosaline. He was for sure angry at her but he crossed all his limits this time. He could still remember the shock and pain he saw in her eyes when he kept tarnishing her image, stomping over her character. A sad chuckle escaped his lips as he recalled the day, he protected her dignity while acting as a saviour but today he himself snatched it away. Xavier kept punishing himself for misbehaving with Rosaline by hurting himself again and again but he knew this wouldn't work. The pain of remorse now could only be alleviated by the person whom he himself had broken beyond repair. How ironic the situation has become now?

There are two ways to defile a person, either you do it by physical assault or you crush his soul and assassinate his character by your brutal and contemptuous remarks. And Xavier did both. He made a joke of Rosaline's morals and character. He couldn't forget the way he used to laugh and mock her along with others while they keeping dragging her through the mud but Rosaline always tolerated all his brutality quietly. He kept provoking her but her silence always turned his wicked plans useless. After all this, do he even deserve to ask for her forgiveness? Xavier himself know the answer to this question but he didn't want to accept it.

Xavier came out of his trance as soon as he heard the sound of door creaking. His eyes immediately shot up as he turned his neck towards the entrance only to see Rosaline standing there while holding a first aid in her hand.

His lips curved into a bright smile while his eyes sparkled with joy but his happiness didn't last longer as he noticed her icy cold eyes. Rosaline was staring him, her face devoid of any emotion as she stood rooted on the same spot. Xavier looked at her, his eyebrows creased together in confusion. He flashed her a beautiful smile but her next words immediately wiped that smile off his face.

"May I come in, Boss?"

Xavier's P.O.V.

I became stunned by her reply. But soon my shocked expressions turned into a pained one as I realized how much harm I had done to my poor Rosebud. Her eyes were hollow, no emotions, nothing. Her face was pale but soon my jaw clenched as I noticed the wetness and puffiness of her cheeks.

'Someone again made her cry'

I looked at her and found her waiting for my response. I sighed and nodded. Rose came inside and closed the door. She turned around and walked towards me. I kept staring her as I was dying to touch her. But abruptly she halted in her steps. I frowned and looked at her only to see her eyes glued on the floor. I followed her gaze.

'Blood? Is she scared of this?'

I looked at her only to see her pupils dilating in fear and her hands started trembling. My eyes widened when I understood that she is having a panic attack.

'Oh my God, what have I done to her?'

I immediately ran to her and cupped her right shoulder.

"Rose, if you aren't feeling good here, we will go somewhere else, okay?"

I said softly. She looked at me and opened her mouth to say something but I quickly held her hand and took her to the balcony. I made her sit on the chair and sat beside her as well.

"Feeling better now?"

I spoke softly and touched her cheek but she immediately flinched and moved back from me as if my touch burned her. Well, it was obvious though. She hates me now. My heart constricted even by this mere thought. I bit my lip as guilt hit me hard.

Rose looked at me but her face was still stern unfazed by the sadness that was loomed all over my face. She held my hand and inspected the cut. She stood up and went inside to God knows where. After sometime she came out with a bowl filled with water and a towel. She then sat beside me and grabbed my hand in her soft ones and started cleaning the blood. She removed the needle from the box and sterilize it with alcohol.

Rose took my hand and started removing the fragments of glass pierced in my skin. She then plucked them out with tweezers. I kept noticing the change in her expression while she kept doing her work. She would eventually take her lower lip between her teeth and I could hear a hiss sound coming out of her mouth when she would pluck the smithereens as if she was the one who was getting hurt. She would furrow her brows and scrunch her nose as if she could feel my pain. A small smile made way to my lips as I kept staring at my beautiful wife with a smile.

Finally, Rose wrapped my hand with a bandage and placed my hand softly on my left knee making sure not to hurt me. She then started placing all the things inside the box but I immediately raised my hand and cupped her right cheek in my palm. She immediately turned stiff and looked at me in shock. She tried to move backwards but I pushed her towards myself with a jerk. Rose yelped and immediately placed her hand on my chest as she didn't anticipate this. Her eyes widened in trepidation. She again tried to pry my hands off her but I tightened my grip on her face and pulled her closer, such that our noses collided with each other.

"Why? Just why in the world I can't hate you?"

I rasped. She shivered feeling the warmth of my breathe on her cherry lips. I stared deeply in her beautiful eyes, the moonlight illuminating her gorgeous face like a Goddess making my heart raced.

"You gave me so many reasons to hate you, you gave me so many chances to hurt you yet, yet I can't do it anymore. I want to belittle you, wreck you, humiliate you still I don't feel happy, still my heart doesn’t feel contented. Why? Why is that Rosebud?"

I whispered; our lips brushed against each other. Her minty breath fanned my lips as she gasped at the extreme proximity. I rubbed my hands on her cheeks feeling the softness of her milky skin. Rose looked at me in fear while tears started collecting in her hazel orbs.

"I don't know what spell you have casted on me that I can't even stay a second without you. Your separation exasperates me, your reluctance makes me desperate, your sadness depresses me, your smile makes me obsessed."

I smiled and captured her lips into a passionate kiss. She flinched and fisted my shirt. A small mewl escaped her lips as I started sucking her lower lip pulling it between my teeth. Wrapping my other arm around her waist I completely flushed her body towards my hard chest. I savoured the taste of her luscious cherry lips like a rapacious wolf. I was hungry for her and I couldn't wait a second to devour her. I swallowed all her moans as I didn't even give her time to breathe. This is the magic she does on me, I just lose control every time I am with her. I inserted my tongue in her mouth coaxing her dry one to play along with me but she kept fighting me.

Rose started thrashing violently in my possessive hold but this time her hesitancy didn't infuriate me rather made me sad. I was feeling too much hurt, I didn't want to make her hate me more so I quickly broke the kiss.

I looked at her, her eyes were closed while tears were streaming down her eyes.

"I am sorry for hurting a pure and innocent soul like you, my Rosebud."

I spoke sadly while wiping her tears with my thumb.

But within a fraction of second, I felt a stinging pain on my left cheek. I didn't say anything nor I reacted because I deserved it. I tilted my head and looked at Rose who was staring me angrily but the disgust and loathe I saw her in my eyes for me squeezed my heart. I swallowed the lump of regret that formed in my throat but her next words were enough to kill me alive.

"And I am sorry for loving a selfish and arrogant monster like you Xavier Knight"

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