Bleeding Hearts

"And I am sorry for loving an arrogant and selfish monster like you Xavier Knight"

Rosaline yelled while breathing heavily, her eyes pooled with angry tears as she glared at the brunette who kept staring her with guilty eyes.

"Rosebud, I-"

"STOP!!"

Xavier tried to calm her down but she immediately cut him off. Xavier lifted his head up and looked at her sadly.

"STOP CALLING ME THAT!! I AM NEITHER YOUR ROSEBUD NOR I AM YOUR WIFE!! NOR I AM A VALENTINO NOR I AM A KNIGHT, I AM ONLY ROSALINE!! DO YOU HEAR ME? I AM ONLY ROSALINE, NOTHING ELSE!!

Rosaline screamed on top of her lungs, her chest heaving up and down with pure rage. Xavier was not at all shocked with her outburst because he expected that. After all he was the one who was responsible for breaking her into pieces. But his heart clenched when he heard her calling him as not his. His throat clogged up as he couldn't digest this mere fact that the girl whom he had always loved his whole life doesn't no longer want herself to be called as his.

Xavier stood up as well and looked at Rosaline whose eyes were holding only rage, loathe, disgust and contempt for him.

"I know Rosebud, I fucking know how much you're angry at me. I can understand your rage for me and it is completely valid too. But-"

"But?"

She cut him off, Xavier looked at her with a pained expression.

"But what? What Mr. Mafia? You can never understand my pain, you never knew how I felt when you used to snub me along with others. No one can ever understand my feelings nor they have ever tried to understand me either. So just shut the hell up."

She growled with clenched jaw. Her vision turned blurry and the tears which her eyes were holding captive for so long freed themselves and started rolling down her cheeks ruining her pretty face. Xavier sighed heavily; his heart was constricting with her every tear.

"I know Rose, I don't deserve your forgiveness. I have hurt you way too much. I don't even know how should I say that to you even but for once, just for once listen to me."

As soon as he finished Rosaline raised her palm in front of his face making him immediately seal his lips.

"No, why should I listen to you? Why should I even give you a chance to give me your fucking explanation? Did you ever tried to listen to me? Did you ever give me this opportunity that I should make things clear with you? Forget about the present Xavier, in the past when I was your wife do you even care to think from my perspective? Did you ever mulled over the fact how badly you used to treat me? You assaulted me, forced me, abused me, did you ever feel guilty? Did your eyes ever saw my tears? Did your ears ever hear my cries? Did your heart moved a bit when I used to cry and beg you to show me mercy? Did you even feel an ounce bit of sympathy for me?"

She spat with gritted teeth. Xavier didn't say anything further. Without waiting for his reply Rosaline immediately turned around to leave as she couldn't bear to break down in front of her tormentor. She barely took one step forward when Xavier suddenly grabbed her left elbow from behind and wheeled her around. Rosaline's figure swirled in air and before she could process, Xavier bellowed on her face.

"YES, I DID!!"

Her eyes widened. Her face lost colours as she found Xavier glaring her ferociously. His eyes turned red-rimmed and his breathing turned short.

"YES, I AM AN ASSHOLE, A FUCKING PSYCHOPATH, A MONSTER AND WHAT NOT? I WASN'T LIKE THIS; I WASN'T BORN THIS WAY!! DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR TURNING ME THIS WAY?"

He yelled, his veins were popping out from his neck and forehead.

Rosaline flinched as she didn't expect him to react like this. She abruptly took a step back in fear but her little move didn't went unnoticed by the Mafia's hawk eyes. His jaw clenched as he deciphered her defensive action as resistance. Xavier took a step towards Rosaline making her immediately move back in reflex. She kept moving backwards while Xavier kept striding towards her like a predator.

Rosaline stared at him with horror filled eyes. Her rage was now replaced with trepidation and anticipation. His eyes were no longer schooling the calmness and softness in them instead they were replaced with burning rage and an unhealthy desire.

She could see the old psychotic Xavier in front of her. His eyes were blood red while the darkness in his pitch-black orbs in them scared her to no extent. She could see the lust and obsession in them for her and it was deepening more and more with every passing second. The psychotic lover was back and it made her shiver to her core. The back of her legs abruptly collided with something soft. Her knees wobbled and she was about to fall down when Xavier grabbed her arms swiftly in a tight grip and hauled her towards himself.

"It's all because of you, YOU!"

He blared. A horrifying gasp escaped from Rosaline's lips as she stared him in bewilderment.

"I was also a simple boy. Yes, I was rich, my road was paved with gold but I was a calm and composed guy. My only goal since childhood was to become the world's most powerful Mafia and established the most successful and dynamic Mafia Empire in the world. I was entirely focused on my target when all of a sudden you came in my life like a bright star, like an Angel and lightened up my dark world. You brought colours in my mundane life, filled it with your innocence and purity. You didn't even do anything yet I got bewitched with you. I don't know what the hell was wrong with me? Everyone said to me that you are fire and touching you will burn me down, you are danger and getting closer to you will be my downfall. Everyone said to stay away from you, to leave you, forget about you, not to think about you but I can't, I JUST FUCKING CAN'T!!!"

Xavier yelled while tightening his grip on her forearms making Rosaline shriek in fear. He then pulled her closer towards himself such that a sliver of space was only left between them. Xavier leaned forward towards her face, his fiery gaze boring holes in her teary-eyes.

"No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't stay away from you, my temptress. Your pure soul attracted me towards you, your innocent face made me want to protect you from every evil eye, your enchanting smile made my heart skip a beat, your pretty face, your ocean deep eyes, your honey like sweet voice, your breath-taking beauty, your heavenly figure, your kind and soft heart, your shyness, your timidity, your naivety, your humbleness, your modesty, your elegance and what not. Just like a magnet, I got attached to you. And no wonder what others say I couldn't separate myself from you. I got attracted, I got lost, I became obsessed and finally I became crazy."

He rasped as he flashed her a beautiful smile. Rosaline's knees turned jello while her face turned red like a tomato. Her heart started palpitating wildly, she feared that it might come out of her ribcage. Her arms were stuck on his chest while her eyes were glued on his obsidian ones. The moonlight was illuminating his handsome face accentuating his masculine features more. Her eyes automatically started roaming all over his face. From his thick black eyebrows to his beautiful black eyelashes curtaining his captivating eyes, his high cheekbones, his razor-sharp jaw and finally they stopped at his thin, pink lips.

Xavier followed her gaze and saw her staring at his lips intensely. His smile widened as he didn't waste one second more to capture her rosy lips in a deep, passionate kiss. He leaned forward and was about to plaster his rough lips on her delicate ones when all of a sudden her words froze his actions.

"I didn't ask you to get obsessed with me"

Rosaline spoke woodenly, her face void of any emotions. Xavier frowned and looked in her eyes but before he could react, he was harshly pushed back. He didn't expect that and as a result stumbled backwards. Xavier looked up and stared at Rosaline in shock only to find her glaring him with anger.

"Did I asked you to fall in love with me? Did I forced you to become mad for me? What do you think that you will read some heart-warming words in front of me and I would immediately get flattered and would jump in your arms forgetting everything whatever you've done with me till now?"

She spat while staring him in disgust. Xavier clenched his jaw. He marched towards her and clasped her chin with his right hand.

"You think I am fucking cajoling you to get you back?"

He growled while his voice shook in fury. Rosaline yanked his hands off him. She crossed her arms over her chest and scoffed.

"Of course, that's what you always do Knight. You fucking play with my feelings again and again and me being the dumbest person on earth keeps forgiving you. I keep giving you chances while forgetting about all my pain, my screams, my wails, my sufferings. Why? Because you blackmail me, you cry in front of me and I can't see you in pain. I can't see tears in your eyes but you? You love to make me cry every ticking second. I knew I left you but I also prayed daily that you forget about me and move on. You live your life as you want with dignity and respect when on the other hand you kept stomping over mine, tarnishing my self-esteem and making a joke of my emotions. Perhaps you forgot how brutally you questioned my character and even called me a promiscuous woman."

Her voice cracked at last while tears gathered in her eyes. Xavier balled his fists in anger but his gaze abruptly turned soft as he noticed her sparkling eyes. He lowered his head in shame.

"I know I shouldn't have said that. I am truly very sorry for that Rosebud; I didn't mean that."

He said, his voice was laced with remorse. A prolonged silence followed after that heated conversation when abruptly his ears perked up hearing a soft chuckle. He looked up only to see Rosaline laughing with teary-eyes.

"You didn't mean that? Of course, you didn't. You said all this to teach me a lesson like you have always done."

She said casually and shrugged her shoulders. Xavier frowned; confusion was smeared all over his face.

"Why so surprised? I am saying the truth only. You were enraged because I left you alone that's why you plotted everything so as to humiliate me. To show me my fucking place, to make it clear to everyone that I am still your fucking possession, a puppet and you're my puppeteer. That's why you called me a floozy who not only trapped you but your friend as well, a gold digger who seduces billionaires with her innocence only to end up in their bed, a vixen who ensnared the sweet, innocent boy in her dirty games and separated him from his family. Your brothers always despised me, they only think of me as a whore who only considered you as a money bag and played with your feelings. By now I think I would have definitely become the talk of the town by the praises that you all have sung in my glory. But this time you didn't gave me the title of Rosaline Knight but had crowned me as the lady of pleasure."

'SMACK'

No sooner Rosaline completed her venomous words, Xavier's hand collided with her left cheek harshly as he slapped her hard across her face. Her face got turned to the right making her cheek throb with an excruciating pain. Heavy tears filled in her eyes as she placed her hand over her stinging cheek.

"SAY ONE MORE WORD AND I WON'T HESITATE TO CUT OFF YOUR SHARP TONGUE NEXT!! STOP SPEWING SHITS ABOUT YOU, I AM WARNING YOU. I WON'T TOLERATE A SINGLE NONSENSE COMING FROM YOUR MOUTH!!! NO ONE, I REPEAT NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO INSULT MY ROSALINE, NOT EVEN YOU ROSALINE KNIGHT"

Xavier berated as he glared at her petite figure sobbing quietly. He was enraged and also ashamed of his deeds but her words made him go off the deep end.

Rosaline removed the hair from her face and looked at him. An eerie silence enveloped them. The only sound that could be heard in that deadly silence was Xavier's heavy pants and Rosaline's muffled sobs.

Xavier looked at Rosaline but soon his gaze turned soft when his eyes landed on her lower lip which got busted due to the harsh blow and was bleeding. His jaw clenched and he curled his fingers in a tight fist. His heart twitched as guilt aroused in it.

He again hurt her.

Knowingly or unknowingly, he keeps hurting her.

Xavier lowered his head as he closed his eyes in anger. He had no intention of hurting her but he couldn't watch her humiliating her own self this cruelly. Now he felt how bad Rosaline must have felt that time when he used to pass snarky comments at her, embarrass her and insult her. When his own heart bled after hearing such brutal words, then she must have been torn apart the moment he showered her with profanities.

Rosaline noticed the sudden change in his demeanour. She looked at his dropped face. Her lips curved up into a faint smile while a lone tear escaped her eyes as she spoke sadly.

"You're right because you only possess this right. The right to hurt me"

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