Selfish Love or Selfless Love?

"Hold on Rosa, Hold on!!"

Jennifer sniffed, her blue eyes spilling lakes of tears as she wiped the blood from Rosaline's lips and face.

Xavier and his team immediately left for home without informing Mr. Ivanov. He was confused and a bit sad because of their sudden departure but Elijah told him that they had some urgent work for which they have to leave the party. Although Augustus didn't buy his lie but kept his lips sealed after receiving a stern glare from his father.

"Sebastian has gone to pick James from his clinic. He will be here soon.", Antonio told Xavier. Xavier nodded while trying to console Rosaline who was wriggling in his hold like a dying fish. Although Jennifer had bandaged her wounds still Rosaline was crying loudly like a child. Noah and Elijah were dealing with Ashton and Katherine who were now locked up in one of the Scorpions' warehouses.

Xavier was befuddled. He wasn't able to understand the reason behind her pain. Rosaline's continuous struggles and cries were making him weak. Worry, fear, sorrow and guilt was clearly visible on his face. He thought that Rosaline was whimpering because of her injury but the real reason behind her quirky behaviour was because she was on heat.

Emily was quiet the whole time. She was silently assaying the situation with scrutinizing eyes. She could sense that something was wrong with Rosaline but couldn't put a finger in it.

"C-Calm down Doll. Nothing will happen. E-Everything is fine", Xavier said to Rosaline who was crying hysterically. He kept wiping off the sweat from her forehead and neck. Rosaline looked at him with teary-eyes. She placed her shaking hands on his wrist and sobbed.

"H-Help m-me."

Xavier nodded with bloodshot eyes. He couldn't find words to console her as he was drowned in regret.

"THIS IS ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT!! YOU MADE HER LIFE HELL!! NOW DO SOMETHING!!", Jennifer seethed on his face, veins were bulging out from her neck as she glared Xavier with resentment filled eyes. Xavier didn't reply as he was lost in his own sorrows. He was feeling himself too helpless and vulnerable at the moment.

"Jennie shut it. Xavier, I need to talk to you.", Emily spoke in a cold voice. Jennifer snorted.

"Why? Why should I keep quiet Em? It's an open-shut case-It's all his fault. He was responsible and he had always been responsible for Rosa's tears.", she sneered. Emily's gaze hardened.

"Shut the fuck up Jennie. You both immediately leave the room. I have to talk to Xavier alone. It's really very important.", she spoke with clenched teeth. Antonio frowned and looked at her. Emily nodded at him. Although he was confused as hell still, he nodded at her back.

"NO! I WON'T!!", Jennifer growled and clutched Rosaline's left wrist tightly as she was scared of leaving her alone with Xavier. Antonio rolled his eyes. He immediately strode towards her. Jennifer flinched when he abruptly gripped her right forearm and started dragging her away along with him.

"NO!! DON'T!!", Jennifer screamed but Antonio took her outside the room. Xavier looked at Emily who immediately locked the door. She then turned around and looked at Xavier who was staring her with questioning eyes.

"What's wrong?", he asked her. Emily took a deep breathe.

"Rosaline has been drugged. She is on her heat right now. That bastard tried to take advantage of her and had injected aphrodisiac in her body.", she gritted.

Xavier froze. His eyes nearly came out of his sockets. His gaze then dropped on Rosaline who was holding his hand, her fingers trembling while her mouth was wide open as she tried to suck as much as oxygen as she could. She was drenched in sweat and she was shaking like a leaf.

She looked at Xavier with hooded eyes. Her skin had turned red and she kept rubbing her feet on the mattress as she was trying hard to get rid of her pain.

Xavier tore his gaze away from her and looked at Emily who was glaring him.

"T-Then what should I do Emily?", he asked her innocently. Emily gaped at his words.

"What.the.fuck.do.you.mean? Stop talking through your hat Xavier, your wife needs you at the moment.", she gritted as she gave him an incredulous stare. Xavier huffed in annoyance while few tears escaped his eyes.

"I am not fucking playing around. I can even take a bullet for my Rosebud but the point is I don't know what should I do? Tell me in details, I am not joking. I really fucking don't know what should I do?", his voice cracked in the last. Xavier was sniffing hard as he couldn't bear to look at his love who was struggling to live.

Emily looked at him in disbelief. She couldn't believe her ears.

The world's most powerful and wanted criminal, the king of underworld doesn't have any knowledge about how to deal with a woman who is on heat? It was the funniest joke of the century yet she couldn't make herself to laugh on it. She palmed her face and groaned.

"Unbelievably man. Is this some kind of a fucking joke? Please don't tell me that you, Xavier Knight has no idea how to bang a girl? Because if this is true then I will shoot myself. ", Emily snickered. Xavier's gaze turned dark. He took out his gun from his trousers and immediately aimed it at her crown.

"Don't worry. I will do the honours. Now fucking tell me what should I do? How can I cure my baby?", he growled. Emily scoffed and shook her head.

"Alright, I won't beat around the bush anymore. In simple words it means that you need to fuck her", she answered while looking straight in his eyes. Xavier's grip on the gun loosened. His jaw dropped to the ground. All his senses immediately stopped working.

Xavier looked at Rosaline. His eyes widened when they met with her hazel ones which were drowned in lust and desire. He placed his shaking hand on her forehead.

She was burning!

But all of a sudden, he immediately shook his head in denial as he got pulled out from daze.

"No. I can't do that.", he mumbled and kept shaking his head vigorously.

"Why? What's the problem?", Emily scowled. Xavier looked at her sternly.

"Isn't there any other option?", he ignored her words and rasped, his voice came out as harsh and firm. Emily nodded.

"Yeah, you can give her a cold shower but-", Xavier didn't wait for her to complete. He instantly tried to stood up but got pulled back by a gentle force. Xavier turned back and looked at Rosaline who was holding her left hand in her soft ones, her eyes spilling lakes of tears as she shook her head in denial.

"N-No. S-Save M-Me...", her hoarse voice constricted his heart painfully inside his chest. Xavier placed his hand on her trembling ones and gave her a sweet smile.

"Don't worry Rosebud. You're safe. I am going to-"

His words died in his mouth when Rosaline started getting up from the bed. Xavier immediately ran to her and hugged her. He placed her head on his chest and started patting her head. Rosaline wrapped his arms around his torso and clung onto him like a koala. After a few minutes when she finally calmed down, Xavier tried to pull her hands away but stopped in midway when he heard her sobbing.

"N-No, I w-want you."

Hearing those words, every muscle in his body turned stiff. How badly he wanted to hear those words from her mouth but he instantly jerked his thoughts away. Emily looked at him. She could see him battling with his inner self to take down his own wife but she couldn't decipher the reason behind his hesitation.

"I don't understand Xavier. I mean she is your wife. Why can't you just-"

"I can't, alright? It will be wrong", Xavier snapped at her. Emily chuckled.

"What the hell is wrong here? I just don't fucking understand. I mean you claim her as your wife and you as her fucking husband. Then why the hell aren't you helping her when she needs you the most? Do you even know that there is long traffic jam at Rue de Centre? There is a high probability that James will not be able to arrive here on time. Rosaline is fucking drugged and just by looking at her, I can easily tell that she really won't heal by a fucking shower. And how the hell can you even suggest for a shower? She is injured Xavier and her arms are bandaged.", Emily retorted back and narrowed his eyes at him. Xavier looked at her. His jaw ticked as he looked her with murderous eyes.

"You don't understand-"

"No, you don't bloody understand. I don't know what the hell is stopping you?", Emily sneered.

"BECAUSE SHE IS FUCKING INTOXICATED DAMMIT!!", Xavier yelled in frustration.

Emily stilled on her place. "What?", she whispered.

Xavier heaved a deep sigh. He laid Rosaline on the bed. Feeling his warmth leaving her body, Rosaline panicked and quickly leaped towards Xavier but he immediately grabbed her shoulders and pinned her on the bed harshly.

"N-No-"

"SHUT UP!!!!", he barked on her face. Rosaline flinched hard by his blare and burst into tears. Xavier then stood up and glared Emily ferociously who herself was staring him bamboozled.

"DID YOU JUST SAW THAT? ROSALINE IS HIGH ERIGHT NOW THAT'S WHY SHE IS BEHAVING THIS WAY. Now tell me if I take her down now, what would be the repercussions of it? She already hates me and if she comes to know that I fucked her against her will, I took advantage of her intoxicated condition? Won't she hate me forever?"

"It's not against her will. It's the need of the situation. Besides, you will save her life", Emily tried to explain him but Xavier was adamant on his decision. He grabbed her right shoulder and shouted on her face.

"BUT SHE WON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND THIS SHIT!! SHE HAD NEVER TRIED TO UNDERSTAND ME AND JUST LIKE EVERYTIME, SHE WILL KEEP BLAMING ME FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE!! Already, already my own selfish deeds had put her through a lot of dangers now I can't afford to lose her forever. I want to make things right between us not ruin them more. She will fucking think that I raped her and I don't want to become her sinner. She already despises me too much; I can't bear her hatred anymore. AND I DON'T NEED YOU FUCKING CONSENT!! WHATEVER I AM DOING IS FOR HER OWN GOOD AND-"

'SMACK'

Before Xavier could complete, Emily jerked his hand away and instantly slapped him hard across his face. Xavier became shocked. His face got swung to the right and his skin slowly started turning red. He titled his neck to the front but before he could lash out at her, Emily beat him to it.

"NO!! YOU ARE ONLY TRYING TO PROTECT YOURSELF JERK!!", she spat as she glared him in disgust. Xavier's eyes turned blood-red after hearing her accusations.

"ME? I AM TRYING TO PROTECT MYSELF?", he glowered at her.

"Yes, you are. You always have been doing that Xavier Knight. At this crucial moment, you are debating with yourself that whether you should save your wife or your reputation? Can't you fucking see that she is in so much pain? You can easily heal her but no, you're still thinking about your fucked up love life. Rosaline will hate you forever, she will again run away from you, you won't be able to get her back, blah blah blah but what your eyes are failing to see that your one mistake can save her life?", Emily snapped at him. Xavier froze. He looked at her in shock.

"B-But?"

"OH!! JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP!! I am so done with you. Rosaline could have easily informed us about that fucker Ashton but she kept her mouth shut as she feared that he would harm you. She went alone, defenceless to save you even when you have given her only pain and betrayal. You were the one who killed Michael but she had to bear the consequences of it. She was abused, drugged and was about to get ruined. That ordinary, naive girl put her life on stake to save a powerful gangster like you and here you are struggling to save her life? You don't want to jeopardize your own character but how many time you have assassinated hers?", Emily snarled. Xavier was tight-lipped and kept glaring Emily with piercing eyes.

"If any other girl would have been at her place, she wouldn't had given a fuck about whether you stay alive or not. In fact, Rosaline should have been happy because indirectly Ashton was giving justice to her as well by killing you and she will finally be able to leave her life peacefully. But no, she didn't do that. That silly girl didn't think twice and went to save you alone.", she chuckled with teary-eyes.

"You keep nailing colours to the mast that you love Rosaline and she is a cheater. If that's the case Xavier then Rosaline wouldn't had gone alone to save you from that freak when she knows it damn well, she won't be able to harm a hair on his head. You know why? Because she loves you. She cares about you. She tolerated all your brutality and contemptuous remarks still she couldn't stop her heart from worrying about you. You keep shouting like a maniac that you love her but what you call love, it's just your psychotic obsession. But her actions speaks louder than words. She does loves you, Xavier. Her love is pure and true while yours is nothing except smokes and mirrors", Emily spat and looked away from him in disgust.

Xavier was rendered speechless.

Her bitter words hit his heart hard. Xavier asquinted at Rosaline who was crying like a kid. Her small face was buried in her palms while her whole body jolted with loud sobs. His heart twitched in pain. He looked at Emily with teary-eyes who was glaring him with loathe and contempt.

"If you would have really loved her, you wouldn't had hesitated a second and had tried to alleviate her pain. You wouldn't have thought about the after results. Your main priority in your life should be Rosaline Xavier, nothing else.", Emily said in a calm tone although her voice was laced with anger.

Xavier had nothing left to say now. His eyes held too much pain and sorrow. He didn't cry anymore but his long face was solemn as he kept staring Emily coldly.

Emily exhaled sharply after hauling Xavier over the coals. She then turned her heels and started leaving the room. She twisted the knob and opened the door but before leaving she looked at Xavier through her shoulders.

"It is not too late now also Xavier. Though I was harsh and my words must have been like a bitter pill for you to swallow but I really do care about you and Rosaline. If you really want to live a happy life with your Rosebud and if you are really wanting her forgiveness then I would suggest you only one thing."

Emily then turned back and looked at Xavier who was watching her with a dejected look on his face.

"Kindly mould your selfish love into selfless love. Genuinely apologise to her and then let her go. If she really loves you, she will come back to you one day on her own will. I guarantee you."

She whispered and with that exited the room leaving Xavier with a contrite heart.

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