Chapter 19 Nightmare

"Let's go."

He looked at me in surprise but he also recovered immediately because he opened the door of the passenger seat. I shifted on my seat and he turned to ride in the driver's seat. I rolled my eyes at the whole car because he was carrying something else. I wonder where is his driver or body guard? I don't know.

"That was easy. I thought I had to kneel down just so you could come with me."

I ignored him and focused my gaze outside. In the back of my mind I wondered if Levi had brought me back to him. It was like a dagger stabbing the pain in my heart when I realized the pain I had left at home.

Hopefully I'll be at the coffee shop until tomorrow. And at least there I was having fun.

"Are you always this silent?"

So he would shut up. I smiled sparingly at him.

"Are you always this nosy?"

I now look straight at the dark streets of Mar De Vena. I heard nothing but hissed. I chuckled. I think this one was conceived out of resentment.

"Is your wound okay?"

He turned to me for a moment and moved it to the bandage in his hand.

"I'm fine. It's just a small wound."

I nodded and never followed what he said again.

"Have you thought about what I told you?"

My forehead wrinkled due to confusion. He probably felt that so he followed what was said.

"Modeling."

I laughed sarcastically at what he said. What did he see in me and he was forcing me into his work. Is he going to drag me into his chaotic life?

"Are you too sad and you still want to include me?"

He was silent for a moment.

"Yeah."

It was just a word but I could feel the bitterness in what he said. My chest throbbed and I immediately wanted to take back the leftovers. I blamed myself for how many times. I'm supposed to be the one who brings him to the negativity of life.

"I'm sorry."

Me summing up everything. He did not utter what I said. A few seconds also passed and I thought I was probably too bad for him. Maybe he already realized the ugly thing I was talking about.

"You're turning college this year right? You can get the course you want while working in a field that doesn't steal much of your time."

Why does he keep on insisting that?

"I don't see myself modeling. I can't imagine what you're saying."

"I also can't bear to see you serving other people Ava."

I was a bit tense when he spit those words. It stings and drips like an acid.

"First, you're working for the Solidad's. And now you're working as a waitress to that coffee shop?"

I winced at the bitterness of what he said.

"If you'll accept my offer, you can easily get the course you want and it will be a good opportunity to learn abroad because that's also the base of the company-"

"What's wrong with my job? It's honorable and even though I don't earn much there, I'm happy."

I was annoyed because I didn't have to prove anything to him and it was me who was beating him up. I don't even know him, apart from his last name and his brother Levi I don't know anything.

"That's the least I can do for you."

He said it weakly, as if it were not for me but for him. The longing and sadness is clear. My annoyance with him seemed to disappear.

"But at least you're happy. That's all that matters."

I let out a deep sigh and unbuckled the seat belt as his car stopped.

"Don't do that to me again fetch. Thank you. "

I didn't wait for what he said and I closed his door. I turned around in the desire to be able to leave the presence of that Vidalio only for me to encounter another one. His hands are in the pocket of his black jeans, a knitted black turtle neck was hugging his body.

Looking like well fine man. I could see sarcasm in his eyes as he stared at me from head to toe. Like I did something bad to him and he's not happy with that. He licked his lower lip and proceeded to bit it. Straight into a mocking smile his lips did. I almost stared at what I saw.

You're mad Ava. Yes you are. The car door slammed behind me and I was stunned by what had happened. I ran my fingers through my hair to comb it, due to frustration it only got worse.

"Your princess is now refusing to have a driver. What about that?"

That sounded so irritating to me and I just bowed my hand at the annoyance I felt.

Lourd, this Romeo don't need his princess he wants his Juliet. Mixture of chisels and butterflies I feel in my system. He really did ask Lourd again to pick me up?

My eyes remained blank as I stared at the ghostly smile on the man in front of me. He touched the bridge of her nose and when he looked back at me he bit his lower lip. I blushed and immediately averted my eyes from him. This Vidalio ...

"Silly, what do you do when the princess asks for something?"

I heard Lourd's chuckle.

Not because he was happy but because he was disgusted by what he heard. Levi crossed his hands on his chest and gently touched his lip. I met his eyes, his pissed look had been replaced by his puffy eyes. Like how it is used to before. Looks of surrendering and giving his all. A pressure was seen as his jaw moves.

"You grant it."

It was as if my knees were breathing to hear her voice. The rumble of the waves in the sea the insects I hated accompanied the coldness of his voice. You don't do this to me Levi. Not when I'm not okay. I would have forgotten where I was because I would have drowned in his stares if the man behind me hadn't just laughed.

"Then I'll probably get going."

"You supervise the site tomorrow."

He who still doesn't take his eyes off me.

"What? Just when I'm avoiding the public, do you want me to make a fuss there?"

These two are really are something. Patience is really the key to enter the mansion peacefully. I silently stepped to my feet to enter the entrance. I want to rest myself on everything. I passed them both and left them both there.

"Just do as I told."

That and Lourd's annoyed smirk was all I heard. I felt Levi following me. The dark Sala and the one that opened up to me. But it was no obstacle for me to see where I was going because of the beam of light coming from the kitchen. I looked at it and saw no one.

Is he alone here? The sound of our feet echoed in the whole house, especially as I climbed the stairs to go up to the bedroom. I thought he would never follow me but when I heard his footsteps I was wrong. I accelerated my pace even more so that he could not reach me.

But then again I was wrong. I'm too dumb to think that he could reach me as if his biases had doubled my steps. I still ignored it even though my heart was pounding with nervousness to have any conversation with him.

My gratitude was overwhelming when I finally touched the door. I stopped for three seconds thinking he was going to stop me but I heard nothing. I opened the door as fast as I can and I saw him pass my door going to the office. Without giving me a glance or even nothing. I leaned against the door and my eyes trembled at the embarrassment I felt.

Damn you Ava! If the earth could eat me in my desire to get rid of the shame I had incurred it would have happened. 'Who are you and what role do you play in that person's life so you seek to coax and whatever? Feels like the frustration and tiredness enveloped my whole system. My eyes started to water my lips trembled and my knees became week.

Maybe it's time to accept the fact. Man was given a foot to walk, and a bird to fly. It is very foolish for a person to want to fly in the sky when it has never been for him. I'm so stupid.

Seems like I was hoping and wishing for the constellation to fulfill my wishes only for it to come down crashing on me. I knew from the beginning that it was wrong to have a look at him. I knew I couldn't have a connection with him but I still insisted.

I can't blame him for everything and interpret everything he does for me because maybe, as Nana Celia said, he considers me a brother. I went to my desk and looked for the pencil he had lent me. It took me a few minutes to stare at it when I saw it. I sat across from the young man and looked at the quiet trees, different from the days when they danced, only the waves and insects were making noise there. I let out the sobs I had been wanting to get rid of.

I touched my lips hoping to not escape a sob but I failed. Slowly help my luxuries running down my cheek. The feeling in my heart was so heavy and any drop of my tears didn't seem to fill the pain that was there.

I saw his pencil and without hesitation I felt even heavier. I held it tightly and bowed my head on my knees and cried out all the pain, in conjunction with praying to relieve it. I look at Levi and he was serious doing something on his laptop, maybe one of his works again.

I no longer continued to draw it in my sketchbook and I just laid it on my thighs and gently stared at him. His fingers were typing fast and he also occasionally looked at the papers in front of him, there were even a few times before that someone called him but he did not answer.

I kept thinking that the call was confidential and I was not allowed to hear it so he just didn't answer. His two eyebrows met and his jaw tightened every few seconds as he was serious about what he was doing. His perfectly shaped jaw was sharp and I notice his clean shaped stubble. The veins in his hands add even more to his muscular posture.

Maybe this is what Ate Celest always sees whenever they're together, or maybe I'm the only one who notices then? I can't believe I'm seeing all these just now. I also don't have the courage to look at him. I always have to remind my self to look at the grounds and not to the heavens. I better know where my place is every time he visits. Am I being greedy? If before I just wanted to be happy now it is very impossible what I ask for. T.

he gods will be punishing me if they hear me. Ava know your ground. I stopped thinking when I saw that his fingers also stopped typing fast.

Why? He was in a blank expression and his adams apple moved in a second. I was shocked at the gift I robbed when he shifted his gaze to me.

"Yes Ava? Are you finish with your work?" He smiled.

Instead of answering him,

"Where is Ate Celest?"

I nearly gasped. I also don't know what that's for. I saw how his mouth opened and twitched as well eventually.

"Celestine is back in Manila. Why? Do you need something from her?"

"Then why are you here?"

My chest heaved as I said that. That's what I want to ask. I've been wanting to ask for a long time so now that I've said that I don't have a chance to back off. I knew in myself that that wasn't the only thing I wanted to know. I can't just put it in words.

If Ate Celest is in Manila while none of any Solidad was here, then Why is he here? Isn't he staying in town? Why am I here? Why would he waste someone like me? Those dark eyes that were staring at me right now, I've been looking for them. First time meeting kammi this is what he showed me, I'm sure of it. He swallowed a few times and I could still see the darkness in his eyes.

The tightness of his jaw made me even more nervous. He quickly closed the laptop he had been focusing on. For a moment I saw how he's face turned into someone who's having a hard time. Why Levi? Am I giving you that? He moistened his lower lip and narrowly looked up at the same time as his heavy breathing as if he was having a hard time with what he was feeling. My vision was blurred by the clotted tears that were about to drip. I feel a mixture of fear and nervousness and I don't know where that is coming from.

"Levi."

I was forced to close my eyes as he stood up, causing a loud crash. His chair hit something I didn't know anymore because I was too scared to open my eyes. Fear of the truth when I finally see everything. Crispy cheap I heard and nothing after the door slammed I heard nothing more. I woke up shivering with a heavy heart. Thank God for that nightmare.

I finally made up my mind.