Chapter 43: For The Greater Good
JADE:
“I-I have someone I love now… I accepted Liam. We’re together now.”
Liar! I was a freaking liar…
I can feel it in my bones. After all these years, I thought I had forgotten Kix. I thought I had killed the love I had for him with the fierce amount of hate that was coursing through my body.
I thought that I was fortunate that we never got to speak after I stabbed him. I couldn’t bring myself to break up with him formally after all. Even when I told Kix’s mom and dad that I’d break up with him, I never mean it.
Kix was my first love. He still is…
But just like before, I have to hurt him and push him away for our own good.
“No, Jade… Tell me you’re lying. The two of you – I saw it in the library. It was all a hoax, right? I knew he was only trying to help you back there… He didn’t mean anything to you, right?”
I wanted to say yes. I wanted to take back every hurtful word I said to Kix and tell him it was a hoax. I was only fooling around to see his reactions…
But I knew that wasn’t the truth too.
I love him, but I also love Liam now. And I can only choose one person.
“Kix, we’ve had our time before. I really loved you. I loved you with all my heart,” I said, swallowing the bitter tears that kept trickling down my face. “But you’ve got to let go of the past now… That includes me…”
That’s right. Kix belonged to his pack. He is in charge of their businesses too. He wasn’t as free as he would like to think. He is their leader now. There will be responsibilities he needed to fulfill, and the last thing he needed was someone like me ruining the good path before him.
That was what his mom said to me when she and his dad kidnapped my parents. They made me stay in a separate room while they made me watch as then threatened my parents in another room…
“You will just be a pain in his neck. What kind of help can you give him? You will make him give up everything, is that it? Even though he loves you now, Francisco will resent you later. He will curse you for making him follow a miserable path in life all because he was blind enough to choose you,” she screamed at me.
I do love Kix, and I don’t want to find myself in a predicament where he finally tells me he hates me and that he wished he had never picked being with me…
Seeing how life turned well for him now, his mom and dad were right… Kix was meant for greater things in life.
He was meant for another wolf like him whom he can be proud of. He was never meant for someone low and broken like me…
Kix continued to cry. I knew that the words from my mouth were hurting him, but it would hurt even more in the future if we continued with this nonsense. It’s better to let him go this way… Sharp, clean, and cold…
“Mr. Sarmiento, let’s move on from the past. It was over a long time ago. You and I have changed a lot. We aren’t the same people we were back in high school,” I said as matter-of-factly as I can.
I began to stand from where I was sitting at, but Kix held on to my hand firmly.
“Jade… You didn’t mean that right?”
Kix looked so sad that my heart was melting. It felt like it was my own heart that was shattering into pieces as I looked at his pained expression.
But that wasn’t what came out of my mouth next…
“I mean it. I mean every word I said… So please, let me go.”
“No, Jade, don’t leave me… Don’t leave me like this!”
I tried to brush his hands away from me, but he wouldn’t budge.
“Let go, Kix,” I said again. I must get out of here now… If he continues to look like this, my resolve to leave him will definitely melt away.
“No… I don’t want to!” Instead of letting go, he wounded his left arm against my back and hugged me.
“Jade, no… I can’t… I can’t live without you.” I could hear his muffled words against my back.
Kix had always been a proud person. In all the years I have known him, he had never begged someone to stay.
My heart was grieving for him. My heart was being crushed into pieces just seeing him like this.
Why was it so hard to let Kix go? Why was it so hard to unlove him?
My heart was starting to give way. It was quivering in sadness so badly that I began to raise my hands to hug Kix back.
Before I could do that, however, somebody burst out from the door and pulled Kix away from me.
“Let my girlfriend go!”
It was Liam. Before I could say anything to keep the peace, Liam’s hand landed on Kix’s face, and a fight had ensued.
“No, Liam, stop!”
Kix retaliated and sent an equally strong fist into Liam’s left cheek.
“You two, stop this,” I screamed. I got into the middle of them, trembling in my own rage.
“Kix, please… Liam, this isn’t like you… Please stop fighting! Why don’t we all talk this over calmly,” I said, trying not to lose my cool.
I looked at Kix’s face and saw a swollen lip. Liam however, had a cut near his eyes.
Naturally, I went to Liam’s side, fearing that Kix’s punch must have been more than enough to send him to the emergency room.
“Are you okay,” I said, trying to look at Liam’s wound. It was a bloodless cut. It didn’t look like it’ll need stitches though. I breathed in a sigh of relief.
The two were still throwing daggers with the way they looked at each other at this point. I decided to separate them, taking Liam a couple of notches backward.
“Kix, I’m sorry I ruined the party... Maybe you should go home now. We’ll take care of Dianna from here…”
Kix didn’t say anything. It didn’t seem like he will listen to my suggestion, so I tried to ignore him as I explained Dianna’s predicament to Liam.
“I’ll just make a quick call to Dianna’s dad. I’ll be right back,” Liam said as he exited to get a better phone signal, so he could call Dianna’s parents to pick her up.
Kix and I, as well as the sleeping form of Dianna, were left by ourselves once more at the fire exit.
“Kix… I…”
“You don’t need to say anything, Jade… I get it. You’ve made your choice,” he muttered, his voice sounding bitter. “So I am making my choice too. I’m never giving up on you. I’ll show you why you must never pick that rat over me.”
With this, Kix left for the night.
I was also left alone with my broken heart and an even more broken spirit.
