Chapter 28 My Guilt

Chapter 28 My Guilt

"I said no!"

"I don't care what you said. That's what's going to happen"

"Don't you dare test"

"What you gonna do little doggy" Cristian taps Andrew's head.

Andrew pushed his hand away and growls at him. Cristian just smiles at him while he has his hand in his pocket.

"Could you two stop?!" I shouted from frustration.

They have been arguing all god damn day about where we should have our meetings. Andrew wants the meetings on the pack land but Cristian wants us to meet at his castle.

Andrew, Cristian, Simon, Daniel and I are all currently in Jackson's office, we would've meet in Andrew's office but it's in the pack house and we didn't, because we don't want the pack to know the vampires are here. And Jeremiah isn't here because he refuses to step foot on the pack land. Idiot.

"You too are getting on my nerves." I close my eyes and rub my temples trying to figure out how to solve this. Then I got an idea, "I got it. There's this spot out in the woods"

"The cliff?" Andrew asks.

I snap my fingers. "Yes. It's a big enough space for everyone one to meet AND it's not on anyone's land" I looked between the two of them as I said the last part.

"I still think we should go to the castle, it's more private"

I roll my eyes at his ignorance. "The space isn't that open either. It's blocked off by trees and bushes so that's plenty of privacy"

"I agree with Elle" Andrew agrees.

"Of course you do" Cristian says under his breath. If Andrew heard it he chose to ignore it. Thank goddess.

"What do you guys say?" I turn to Simon and Daniel.

"I agree to anything than meeting at the castle and the pack's land. Not with the Grinch" he's referring to Cristian's dad, Alejandro. "And beasty over here." He nods to Cristian. "And wolf boy" Andrew. "Wanting to rule over each other because of their position on their territory."

"Daniel?"

"Yeah, Whatever Simon said." He said with his mouth full of chips.

Then I turn to Cristian. "Cristian?"

He rolls his eyes. "Fine" He walks over to Daniel and grab the chip bag and stuff some in his mouth.

"If you weren't my brother I would have sent you 10 feet under"

"It's 6 feet under"

"When I'm done, you'd want him 10 feet under"

I'm still confused. I shake my head and get back to the situation. "We'll update everyone later this evening and we'll meet at the cliff tomorrow" I stated. Everyone nodded agreeing.

"You guys are hotter than I thought"

We all turn around caught off guard only to see Jessica looking like a kid on Christian's day.

"What the hell are you doing here?" Andrew asks.

"I wanted to meet our new... friends" she smirks as she looks at Daniel.

Daniel saw her looking and gave her a weird smile and slowly pulled Cristian in front of him.

"You've met them. Now bye" Andrew gestured to the door.

"Hold on, hold on. Let me introduce myself" She starts walking over to Cristian and Daniel but Andrew took her up and threw her over his shoulder. He carried her out the door as she's screaming at him to put her down. When he does, he slams the door in her face.

He turns around, puts his hands on his hips and smile. "Now where were we?"

~~~~~

Andrew just finished telling everyone where we will be meeting before everything goes down. Andrew still refused for the people to see me, which I'm confused about but it doesn't bother me, I still have fear facing them.

"I'll be right back. I'm gonna talk to my parents real quick"

"Ok. I'll be in your room." He was about to leave but I stopped him. I don't know why, but I got think of something. "Uh, tell your mom thanks for the clothes"

"Will do" He kissed my forehead before he left.

This is the second time he's done that. But I'm not complaining.

I get over my little forehead kiss and went up to Andrew's room. I close the door and turn around and see Cristian. From reflex I accidentally punched him.

"Oh no, I'm so sorry"

He's holding is jaw, massaging it. "Wow, you got a punch"

Seeing him just boiled up some anger that I have been keeping cool.

"You know what? I'm not sorry. What the hell are you doing here? I thought you left"

"I need to talk to you"

"What could you possibly want to talk about?"

He walked up closer to me and I backed into the door. "Us"

"There is no us, Cristian"

Both our bodies are pressed against each other and my heart starts racing. We both look into each others eyes, their locked. "I need you. Please." He whispers to me desperately.

He slowly lift my head up with his index finger and slowly move in. Our lips touch, reminding me of the time we spent together. Our lips moved in sync. The more I kissed him the hungrier he got.

He puts his hand on my face, deepening the kiss. I was getting too caught in it, I had to stop kissing him. "Stop" I gently pushed him away from me. "I can't do this. I'm not doing this with you Cristian"

"Mi amor-"

"Stop calling me that" I stopped him before he could say a word. "You need to leave"

"I need-"

"Now, Cristian"

I turned away from him, not wanting to see the hurt in his face and just waited for him to leave. I heard a sound and turned around, he was gone.

There is this guilt in my stomach and I don't know if it's because I turned Cristian away or me having feelings for Andrew. Maybe both.

I don't know what I want. A part of me wants to be selfish and have both of them but I can't do that.

"You'll see him tomorrow" I hear Andrew coming this way.

"But I can't wait that long" Jessica cried.

"You're twelve and he's like a hundred years old. What the..?"

I step away from the door as I hear them at the door.

"So?"

"I..I can't believe this." Andrew opens the door and walk in.

"Andrew-" he slammed the door before she could get another word out.

"Daniel?" I asked.

"Yeah" he breathes out.

"We belong together. You'll see!" She shouted from outside.

She's been obsessed with him ever since she laid eyes one him. Daniel isn't really happy with it either. He was the first to leave too.

"She'll get over it"

"If she does. It won't be for awhile" We both laughed.

As we're here, I remembered someone. "Hey, what happened to Emma?" I haven't seen her around and she just ran through my mind.

"Oh Chris and her are taking care of something at another pack. They'll be here tomorrow."

"When did that happen?" I laughed as I walked over to the bed and sat down. I thought those two hated each other so much to be in the same room.

"Their mates" I started choking on thin air. Andrew rushed over to me and tapped my back gently.

I calmed down. "What? How?"

He kneeled down in front of me and sighed. "Long story short, before you left Chris was 17, he turned 18 a couple weeks after. They found out and didn't want anything to do with each other and now their the pack's power couple"

They are not a pair I can imagine.

"Isn't it... awkward considering your history?"

"Oh yeah. It is"

"You don't feel anything for her do you?" Why am I asking this?

"No, of course not"

I nod my head not making eye contact. He puts his hand over mine. "I'm sorry for the pain I caused you"

I held my breath for a second, holding back a tear. "I'm sorry for calling you names" I laughed a little remembering all the things Simon and I would call him.

"I don't blame you"

I look at him in the eyes, that look. I can't get over it. I did something that I never thought I would do.

I grabbed his face in my hands and kissed him. I caught him off guard because he froze for a second but he didn't take long to catch on. He kissed back.

Have you ever heard about sparks fly when you kiss that one person? Well this was not it, it's better. I deepen the kiss wanting more of him, his hands all over me.

He leans forward and I lean back on the bed without our lips parting. He's now on top of me. I run my fingers up and down his back then I roam my hands around his neck.

He runs his hands down my body to my hips and grips them. That urges me to grind on him and I heard him groan. He starts kissing me down on my neck and he sucked on a certain spot that gave me so much pleasure, causing me to moan.

At this very moment on word ran through my mind.

Cristian.

Oh no. "Stop" I pushed him off me and ran to the bathroom and locked the door. I looked in the mirror and fixed my clothes.

I feel so guilty, but why?

"Elle?" Andrew knocked on the door. "I'm sorry" Why is he apologizing? I'm the one that kissed him.

I didn't answer him, I just sat on the bathroom door and overwhelmed myself with my thoughts.

~~~

It's been about an hour now and I haven't moved. Eva's been keeping me company though but not in a good way, she's being annoying.

"You shouldn't have stopped"

"I heard you for the 47th time now Eva"

"But you shouldn't have. What if he was going to.. you know.. the big thing"

"Have sex? Yeah no, I'm not ready for that."

"No not that, the other thing..."

"Oh" You meant mark me.

That can't happen.

"Why?" Eva whined.

"It just can't Eva"

I'm sick of this. I have to get out of here, my butt hurts from seating so long. I heard the door close a couple times and I don't hear anything so he must be gone by now. Right?

I get up off the ground with my butt all cramped up and open the door.

I was wrong.

Andrew is on the ground next to the bathroom door sleeping. I slowly step out, trying not to wake him but he woke up. My luck.

"Elle?" He looked up at me with his stupid sleepy brown eyes. When he finally realized, he got up off the ground. "I'm sorry."

"You should really stop saying sorry." I used his words against him. "Especially when you did nothing wrong."

"I know, but it feels like I made you do it"

"You didn't make me do anything, I did it on my own free will.... but it was a mistake" After I said the last part he frowned.

Oh come on. What is wrong with you Elle? Ugh. If I wasn't in front of him right now I would be kicking myself.

"I totally understand."

Really? Cause I don't. I'm messed up.

Cristian's POV.

Later that night...

I'm pissed and drunk. If you thought I would be angry about what happened between Elle and I. Then you should imagine how I feel when I saw her with that piece of shit.

No, I didn't leave when Elle told me to leave. I was in the woods watching through the window. Andrew came in , they started laughing then SHE KISSED HIM. Full on making out then they went on the bed.

I couldn't watch anymore and I left. I can't fucking believe it.

I left my office, storming down to the third floor. I found the room I wanted and knocked. I leaned on the wall waiting for her to open the door.

She did. "Cristian? What do I owe this?" Olivia smirks at me.

I walk up to her. "You can move in my room now if you still want to." She smiles and nod her head while biting her lip, looking at my lips. "And I want you. Now"

She smirks and comes closer to me. She didn't make the move so I made it for her. I kissed her and walked forward as she walked backwards and closed the door.