THE GOD OF SEA

It's really frustrating when you have nothing to do to kill time, huh? No one to chat with physicality or even on the phone. What a life I have! Nobody would like a life like the one I am living. I just had my breakfast a while ago, and now I am all cooked up in my room, wondering what to do until four in the evening. I thought I would spend some time with Nick preparing the song we agreed to do together, but he had to push that to tomorrow because he wanted to have some alone time with his girlfriend today, which I totally understand. About these other two, Tim and Jimmy, the kings of women, well, I don't fit in their group, so I didn't even care to ask about their plans for the day. It's not like I would ask to tag along with them to the clubs.

I take a shower, pondering what to do. I would have chosen to sit in front of my laptop and read a few emails or comments from my fans, but I have been avoiding that lately. What if there is a family member or friend out there who has contacted me? What will I say to them? Will I be like, I don't want to be found? Or, hey, stop looking for me. Jeez! I might need to clear my head for a bit and wait—why not take a walk to the beach? The great Indian Ocean—I heard it's a few minutes walk from here. That would be nice, right?

I excitedly get out of the shower and dress up for my morning walk and tour of the sea. Excited about seeing the blue waters, I step out in my short jeans, a light T-shirt, and flat shoes. I leave the phone indoors because I don't want any disturbances, and I hit the road. Standing on the shore of the great Indian Ocean, I can't agree any less about it's beauty as described on the internet. It's amazingly beautiful. How wide is it? I can't even guess. I drift away from the multitude, the families and friends having their best moments together, the sun bathing on the white sand, and others in water. It must feel good to be in the blue waters, and it must feel extremely refreshing to feel the sweet morning sun message your body while lying flat on the sand. Next time, I will remember to carry a swimming costume.

I remove my shoes and decide to walk barefoot around the beach, as far as I can, while still enjoying it's view. After slowly walking around the ocean for about twenty minutes, I came to a place where there were fewer people. Actually, there is only one person here, about two hundred meters from where I am standing. He is a man with a very admirable back view. I wonder what he is doing here, all alone. And I also wonder what his face looks like. I bet he is handsome. Anyway, I am barred from having any man near me, so however he looks is none of my business. I look deep into the blue waters. The current waves are really strong this morning, making it difficult for me to take my eyes off the water.

I wish that these waves could just carry all burdens away. I wish that all my worries, troubles, and sorrows could just be blown away by this calming breeze. I wish that everything weighing down could just drown in the deepest part of this ocean. I take my first step into the waters and start walking in. I have read stories of people who come to the sea to let go of things that tie them down. Things that are a hindrance to their progress. This is where some people come to set themselves free from any bondage. I am here today to let go of everything that is holding me down. In here, I drown all my worries, all my problems, all my sorrows, and all my fears. I want my life to take a different direction. Show me some light, god of the sea, if you are there. Give me a sign that my wishes have been fulfilled. The heavens have been silent on me for a long time, but today, I want the heavens to speak up to me. If not, I will keep walking deeper and deeper until I can't see the blue sky anymore.

I didn't know how deep I was in the blue waters until a Greek god appeared in front of me from under the waters, dripping wet, his curly hair falling to his face. Did I say a Greek god? I take that back. This is an angel who just fell from the sky. A spotless brown-skinned man with perfectly curved jaws that give his oval-shaped face a perfect complexion, a medium-sized, sharp nose that's well fitted on his face, moist lips that spell nothing but sin, and dark brown orbs that speak nothing but temptation Is he human, or was I right? Is he an angel? If he is a person, then he is definitely the most handsome man in the whole world. Is he even real? I stare into his eyes, and he stares back.

"Gia Wilsons???/!" His beautiful voice has the power to weaken my legs, even when I am in water. I am shaking, and I am glad he can't see it.

O.M.G! Did he just call my name? He knows my name. He knows me. I was right, you know. He is an angel, which is why he knows my name. Otherwise, a human being of his stature cannot know me.

"You are devouring him with your eyes, Gia Wilsons! You might scare this angel away if you don't take your eyes off him." My inner self scolded me, snapping me out of my dismay. I blink like three times to hide my embarrassment.

"Do you know me?" Finally, I found my voice.