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RIAN POV
Completely out of breath, I collapsed onto the bed next to her and closed my eyes for a moment until my body calmed down a bit.
Sex with her was definitely different than fucking some meaningless whore I was fed up with after one go anyway.
I could have done it again with her right away, but my cock had to take a short break and her rapid breathing and the slight trembling of her body showed me that a second round was probably not possible.
"You okay?" I asked her in a soft voice and pulled her to my trembling chest, after which she immediately snuggled even closer to me. I really wanted her to feel comfortable with me. After all, it was her first time and that must have thrown her quite a bit.
"Yes," she breathed exhaustedly, drawing circles with her fingers over the tattoos on my chest while I stroked her back soothingly and we both slowly caught our breath.
"Was it for you too... Okay?", she asked shyly and lifted her head slightly to look into mine with her beautiful brown eyes.
I couldn't help but smile and gave her a tender kiss on her slightly sweaty forehead.
"More than that," I breathed, and immediately she blushed that sweet red she always did when we talked about such topics.
She snuggled back into my chest and we probably just lay there for a while. Everyone is busy with their own thoughts but still together...
It was a nice feeling. A sense of intimacy and where I couldn't wait to flee after sex, I could have just laid there with her for ages.
"Oh god," I suddenly heard her voice and she immediately stood up and looked directly at my cock, which made me look at her questioningly.
Hadn't she noticed him before?
Her entire face turned bright red and her eyes widened, causing me to sit up in confusion and cup her chin in my hand.
"What?" I asked, thinking I'd done something wrong when she bit her lower lip in embarrassment and gave me an embarrassed look.
"There's blood... I'm so sorry," she whispered, and I immediately cupped my hands on her cheeks, kissing her lips so tenderly.
"Stop being ashamed of this, let alone apologizing for it," I breathed, then stood up, staring at her sweet face, to pull her up by the hand. "It's normal," I added as she nervously chewed her lip, still concerned about it, driving me insane again.
She really had no reason to be ashamed at all.
I took the black blanket off my bed and gently wrapped it around her, then grabbed her hand to pull her out of my room and into the hallway behind me.
"Your brothers," she hissed immediately, and I turned to her, smiling.
"They're still gone. Keeva, please stop worrying about everything."
She nodded, but I could still see the tension in her eyes and it wasn't until we got to the bathroom and I closed the door behind us that she finally stopped biting her lip.
The way she stood there, the blanket wrapped tightly around her petite body, her brown hair falling all over her in a messy mess, ruddy cheeks and big brown eyes...
Damned! I really had to exercise restraint.
Ignoring her, I quickly ran to the shower stall, turned on the hot water, and took off my condom to throw it in the small trash can.
The thought of how she would feel without it came fleetingly, but I quickly pushed it away before I would completely lose control.
I climbed into the cabin, dipped my face directly into the comfortably warm water for a few seconds, and ran my hands through my hair several times before turning back to her and catching her staring straight at my butt.
Our eyes met and when I put on a dirty grin, she parted her lips slightly and then smirked as well.
"Come in," I urged, holding out my hand, but she hesitated, clutching the covers tighter as she gazed up at the bright light.
Are you serious now?
"Can't we-"
"The light stays on," I interrupted, raising an eyebrow, and before she could roll her eyes like I always do when I disagree, I step out of the shower and stand right in front of her to put my hands on hers.
"It's nice and warm," I whispered and she still looked at me hesitantly. "I'm not looking either, I promise."
Shit... What was my plan now!
She took a deep breath, then finally let the blanket fall to the bathroom floor and I really just kept looking into her eyes, which were also staring at me.
"Why so shy?" I smiled and at the same time carefully pulled her into the cabin with me. "It wasn't that long ago that you still had my head between yours, demanding-"
"Rian!" she half-screamed and turned red again to slap my arm lightly.
A dirty laugh came from deep in my throat and she just shook her head in disbelief.
"You are impossible."
When we stood stark naked under the warm, pounding water and her shyness made her barely breathe, I decided to leave her alone.
After a gentle kiss on her wet forehead, I gave her a quick smile and then turned my back to start lathering myself up.
I also felt her turn around and somehow it felt nice to be standing back to back with her.
So nice that that stupid grin was permanently on my lips again.
I really had to pull myself together because out in the cold world, that smile could cost me my life.
***
After this really soothing shower, I walked up to my floor, dressed in a white bathrobe, and fell onto my bed with a big smile.
Rian wanted to get another hour of sleep as he still had to go to some tailor to pick up a suit that evening, so I wanted to leave him alone and gather my thoughts after my wonderful first time...
I lay on my back on my soft bed, closed my eyes, took a deep breath and immediately saw him again.
His gray-blue eyes, which looked intensely into mine... His black hair, which fell slightly in his face...
I heard his rapid breathing again, felt his hands on my body again and just from that, I got a tingling sensation in my stomach again, which I happily let work on me.
Behind closed doors, he really was the perfect husband and I wish with all my heart that neither his father, nor his enemies, nor the world outside would let the cold take hold of him again...
How naive I was.
After a while, as my mind drifted further and further into my fantasy, I reluctantly fell asleep, only dreaming about him...
Exhausted, I slowly opened my heavy eyelids and took a moment to orient myself.
My gaze fell to the window and I was shocked for a moment when I realized that it was already pitch dark outside.
I really slept through almost the whole day...
I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom to change into fresh underwear, red top and white trousers before taking the stairs down and only stopping when I was in the living room.
"Had a good night's sleep?" Rian smiled at me, who was sitting at the table and apparently had some paperwork to do.
A laptop was right in front of him, behind it were several files and he just looked incredibly good in his white shirt, the top buttons of which were unbuttoned, although I was surprised that he was still dressed so formally at home in the evening.
"Yes," I answered after my brief stare and then glanced over to the couch where Odran was watching TV and Nero was halfway settled on his lap.
"Are you hungry?" Rian wanted to know while pointing to the kitchen island, where I spotted several pizza boxes.
I smiled at him and walked past the table, then grabbed one of the boxes to sit directly across from him.
He ignored me and went through the documents while I ate the pepperoni pizza and stared past him into the darkness.
I kept looking at him, but he didn't return it, which was perfectly fine. Apparently he was really busy, so after a while I got up, put the empty box away and then flopped down on the couch next to Odran, who was watching some action movie while constantly stroking Nero.
"I'm sorry about that Selena girl," I whispered to him apologetically and he only glanced at me briefly before the corners of his mouth twitched slightly and he stared at the TV again.
"Don't worry about it," he said in a calm voice and I really hoped he didn't take offense.
After all, he also lived here and I could scarcely scare away every other woman... Although if they thought they had to talk to me like that, then yes.
"Soooo," I suddenly heard Senan's voice and turned curiously to the front door, which he was closing behind him. "I'm going to the beach, have a drink and relax a little. Anyone want to come along?"
Of course, his gaze met me first and I would have liked to say yes immediately, but how automatically my gaze fell on Rian, who also stared at me and shook his head almost imperceptibly.
Spoilsport!
Did he think I should sit around here when he was busy with his work anyway and Odran was a complete failure as a conversational partner?
"Okay, not then," Senan shrugged and ran to the patio door with a bag, but before he could leave the villa in his white shirt, black pants and white sneakers, I got up in a hurry and ran onto him to.
"I'll come with you," I smiled, but immediately I heard Rian's voice next to me, which sounded ice cold again.
"No."
That's all he said, but I didn't let it go, even though I didn't even know what exactly I was fighting for.
"No?" I repeated, impatiently waiting for him to meet my gaze, but he stared stubbornly into the laptop and didn't respond at all.
"Let's go," I defiantly turned to Senan, who just grinned stupidly at me and just as I was about to follow him outside, I suddenly felt a hand on my arm.
"Keeva, I said no," he said seriously, looking at me as if that day had never happened. As if the warmth in his eyes had never been there. It was scary the way he was looking at me again.
"What's your problem?" Senan intervened as well and immediately Rian targeted him hostilely.
"What's my fucking problem?" he growled at his little brother, letting go of my arm and standing right in front of him. "You! You're my problem! First the situation with Jake and now you want to get drunk for no reason and you want to drag others into your shit! Isn't it enough for you to already have a life on your conscience!!!"
Rian seemed on the verge of actually doing something to Senan and I watched in shock as tears welled in Senan's eyes.
"Enough," Odran tore me out of my rigidity, which I suddenly felt right behind me. "Keeva, please leave us alone," he said in a soothing voice and then placed himself between the two. I was completely confused, didn't move a step until Odran turned to me again and glared at me angrily.
"Do you hear badly?!", he got louder and only then, when I looked at him anxiously, I took a few steps backwards, then turned around and ran up the stairs.
Again it was my fault that the brothers were fighting... but it was totally inappropriate of Rian to forbid me to go to the beach with his brother!
What did he think was going to happen?
Then his words came back to me...
Isn't it enough for you to already have a life on your conscience.
