Chapter 51
LEILANI
Two days later.
"Congratulations Ma'am, you're two months pregnant." The doctor said to me.
I don't know the reaction I expected to feel when I came here to the hospital to confirm. When Zavier and I came back from our visit to the convent, I didn't get the chance to come and do this.
Morris had been with us since yesterday and it has been very fun, grilling Zavier about our visit and how the 'humans' there behave. Zavier has given him a detailed narration, right down to the part where we were leaving and Sister Benedetta blessed us.
I was finally able to sneak out today when the both males were engaged in a heated but friendly argument.
As I stared at the female private doctor who was smiling at me so kindly as she delivered the news, I really didn't know what I expected.
"Huh?" I let out dumbly.
"You're two months pregnant, my dear. Well, a little over two months, you're exactly ten weeks pregnant."
"Oh my God...." Joy, undiluted and very swift coursed through me. I've had two days to live with the possibilities of being pregnant, I found out that my heart yearns for the result to come out true!
But,with the joy came fear.
The doctor smiled patiently. "I'm surprised you didn't come here sooner for this. Surely, you have been getting the signs and symptoms."
"I d-don't know anything about it, doctor. Not the signs and not the symptoms, I'm really sorry. Doctor, I'm so scared." I whispered truthfully.
"Why, dear?"
"I'm scared that I might not be able to make a good mother." I whispered my greatest fear, touching my belly tentatively, "This baby will look up to m-me for everything. I'm s-scared that I'll let her down."
"Oh, honey. Most first time mothers also have this fear and I'll assure you that it's okay for you to feel like this. But, I'll say that you'll make a wonderful mother."
"But you don't e-even know me, doctor." I pointed out the obvious.
The smiled again and flipped through my file. "I don't need to know you to know this, my dear. Call it woman instincts or even maternal instincts because I'm a mother of four little monsters." She groaned with affection, causing me to gave a startled laugh.
"So dear, all you have to do is give it your best shot. You and your husband, and the both of you will be fine." She finished.
"But I really don't know nothing about pregnancy. What if I make a mistake and loose my baby?" Just the thought of it, had me panicked.
She stretched out her hand and patted mine. "Don't worry, dear. I'll give you medical instructions and procedures of everything. We'll give you all the books you need to read and educative movies about pregnancy and childbirth you need to watch."
"You might not be registering with us but you still came to us. Just like everyone else, all you have to do is follow the instructions, read a lot and watch a lot. You will most definitely be fine."
That made me feel better and I nodded. "Thank you so much, doctor. I'm really sorry I won't be registering here. But my fiancΓ©e and I are moving away from here."
"It's no problem, my dear. I wish you and your fiancΓ©e well." She grinned, "I also wish our little baby inside of you well. I'm sure baby will feel really grateful always for have you and your husband-to-be as her parents."
"Thank you so much, doctor." I blushed at the compliment.
"You're welcome dear. So, let's get started..."
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Two hours later, I arrived back at the house. Zavier had been beside himself when he looked for me after I left but couldn't find me.
He was glaring hard at me when I entered the house and Morris was nowhere to be found. He was pissed....and also worried.
Thread carefully, Lani. I whispered to myself, knowing him well enough already especially when he's angry.
"Where the fvck have you been!?" His voice was harsh but it didn't hurt me because I know it's only worry for me, talking.
"I dropped a note for you in the bedroom before I left." I whispered softly.
"I saw the damn thing. Said you'll be back but gave no fucking explanation where you'll be. I've been so damn worried." He racked his hand through his hair in agigation.
He was more worried than I imagined.
Some time ago in the past, I would have backed away from him when he's all worked up like this. How time has changed, I said to myself softly as I took steps closer to him.
I took his hand into mine and stared him in the eyes. "I-I'm really sorry, Zavier for not explaining. I thought I'll be coming back earlier than now. I went to the hospital."
If anything, his expressions got darker. "Hospital? Are you sick? Is it about the tiredness and dizziness and vomiting? Is everything fine? What did the doctor say?"
"I'm fine, Zavier.... I'm so very fine." I was quick to reassure him.
He calmed a bit, most of the worries draining from his face. A gasp of surprise broke out from my lip when he suddenly drew me into his embrace, his arms around me tightened.
"Don't go anywhere without telling me, doll. It's for your safety, especially now that we're still here in Santa Orion. This town is filled with druglords, criminals, killers, rapists, assassins and so many goddamn others. I almost went mad when I didn't see you, until I saw the damn notes. You.....scared me." He added the last one so lowly whispered I wouldn't have heard it if I wasn't go attuned to him.
Oh my God.....!
"I'm really sorry, honey. It truelt wasn't my intention to scare you, I'm really sorry." I pleaded sincerely, my hands automatically running over his strong back in a reassuring motion.
He nodded once and pulled back. "What did the doctor say?"
I'm carrying our baby, I almost said. No, it isn't time yet.
"It was just a flu. The doctor gave me drugs for it." I said instead and watched the last tension drain right out of him.
It made me happy and relaxed me too. It doesn't make me happy when he's not happy and I really don't like it when I keep secrets from him.
And that's why I made a resolve to talk to him about our baby tonight.
