Carved

I tilted my head as I looked at Alta. She has this confused look with furrowed brows and squinting eyes.

It's our break time and we are both seated at the same table.

We decided to just have our lunch in the park rather than in the cafeteria because it's too crowded.

Another thing is that Alta had a bad trip with Brenda because their classmate got into a fight again during the discussion and that's why their professor got angry, causing them to take a long test and almost all of them didn't answer anything because the lesson that was stopped was the content of exam.

Almost all of her classmates were angry with Brenda. But she doesn't seem to care. I mean of course she wouldn't care if she's Brenda. She doesn't freak out about everything.

But I don't know why she keeps on picking fights with other people. It's just nonsense. She's not a child anymore. We are almost graduating and we're going to face the real world. Yet I don't think she's prepared at all. But that doesn't matter as long as she has money.

His family is rich and it looks like he will inherit all that wealth so he doesn't study hard and doesn't care about whatever happens and what he does to other people.

I knew it from the very first day, glad she's not picking a fight with me anymore. She doesn't want to fight with me because she knew that I would stand up for myself this time. I've had enough of her bullying.

With what happened last night, I had a lot of confidence to face my fears.

"That Brenda is really annoying! It's good to bang on the wall! She's so rich, she doesn't care about someone like me who needs to graduate! Since she can afford to pay the professor to change her grades! Eh us?" She said while sticking the hot dog in the plastic paper again and again.

"Calm down, Alta. For sure the prof will give you a chance, it's not your fault."

"That's the point! We are not supposed to be included in the punishment!"

"Maybe you can ask."

"Tsk. I really only have a little more patience with Brenda! It's annoying!"

My brows raised.

Why do I feel like she's into something more than just the exam?

I knew Alta very well, she's not grade conscious, that's why we are besties!

We studied well but we didn't dwell on our drownings so much just to get the highest grades. It's enough to have a passing or middle grade rather than the highest but you don't really enjoy studying or have time for yourself at all because you're just studying all the time.

But now she seems different.

She cares so much about her grades, I mean yes we need to pass everything to graduate but I never saw her this mad about grades.

"Are you sure you're angry just because of the grade? Oh Brenda fought you?" I ask her.

"Try it and I'll stick it in him!" She said and lifted the fork.

I reached for her hand and put it down. I scanned around the place, and some people raised their eyebrows at us.

"Calm down, Alta. You don't need to get violent because of her. You know that nothing can be done because Brenda's attitude is really bad. Her mission in life is to be annoying," I said with a laugh. .

"Just eat your food and let it go. You will just be stressed if you keep thinking of her," I said and smiled.

I take a bite on my egg sandwich.

I noticed Alta's eyes are still staring at me.

"Why? What's wrong?" I asked.

"Why do you seem so happy?"

How could I not be happy?

I just fulfilled my dreams last night. I had the best night of my life.

"Huh? What do you mean?" I asked.

"You seem so happy, so positive, like you can light up someone's world because of your smile. Like someone is making you so happy."

I turned to him with a frown.

Why does Alta seem so specific?

"What are you saying Alta? Happy? Of course I'm happy we're safe and living so yes I'm happy," I said and faked a laugh.

As if that would hide what is the real thing. Yes I'm truly happy and I also want Alta to be happy.

"It seems like just yesterday you were restless and like you were looking for something, Adra. Did you find it?"

Oh yes I did!

"Wait, that's wrong. Did you find him?" she asked once again.

"Huh? What are you talking about Alta. You should just eat so you can get rid of your annoyance with Brenda. It's just hunger."

"No, Adra. I've been ignoring this behavior of yours for a few times. I'm hoping you'll tell me about it yourself. I'm not blind, we've been friends ever since! The best of friends ! You can't hide everything from me, Adra. Tell me what it is. Is it the pale guy?"

Fuck shit.

Alta knows.

Should I tell her?

"You like him, don't you?" she asked.

I sighed.

There's no reason to hide it from her anymore.

"Yes."

She smiled. "I knew it!"

Yes she knew that I liked him but she didn't know about what happened last night.

It is more than magical. I can still feel his touch until now.

Asmo thought he could break my bones last night like Bella's, but he was wrong.

I'm Adrasteia, I'm stronger than that.

I can take him all the time and nothing will break aside my womanhood. But I can take all the pain just for him.

In that case it's a win-win situation.

Because in the end it will bring us pleasure.

And love...

An endless love.

I admit that I still can't because it's something precious to me. It's my first and I gave it to him, to the person I love... to the vampire that I adore with all my heart.

The vampire that made my dreams come true.

There's a lot of things that happened that night. I was just trying to breathe in fresh air, and went to look for him. I was stuck in the cave like a waterfall and then it happened.

When all hope is lost, he comes...

He likes me…

He loves me more than he wants to admit and it's fine with me.

Asmodeus is not a showy person, he wants everything to be in private, considering the fact that he is a vampire and I'm a human. I'm not even supposed to know anything about them but here I am.

Thinking about him.

Loving him.

It's fate that brought us together.

I believe in that because if it's not fate then what is it? Just coincidences? Good coincidences that made our hearts intertwined with each other.

I'd like to believe that it is fate because I don't know what I would do if it's not, he is the only person I see myself with.

He is the only vampire that I love. And no one else.

It hurts me to even think that we are not destined to be together, and that's why it hurts me, because it's not true. I know deep in my heart that I was made for him.

I'll always treasure our first forever.

It's in my mind and I will never forget it, no matter what happened. I even tried to carve our initials on the flat stone where we made love.

Fortunately, there was a sharp stone so I was able to carve Asmo and I's initials. After that he took me home, it's surprising that Mama didn't really notice that I left the house. That would be better so he wouldn't have any more problems.

I got home safely.

Happy and full of love.

Or…

I shook my head.

What am I even thinking?

I scanned the park.

"Oh you're looking for it now?" Alta asked.

"No, I'm not." I'm with you.

"Gosh! You should have told me before! I wish I could have helped you, right! You don't want to tell me!" She said.

Her mood seems to be okay now. The forehead is no longer wrinkled and the whole face is frowning.

The knowledge seems to have helped him.

I took a deep breath.