Battle

I tap the tissue on my forehead as my sweat keeps dripping.

Whoa!

I was in the bathroom for about fifteen minutes and did nothing but let out all my anger.

Fortunately, not many people enter the bathroom but it's embarrassing!

Alta is right.

Because I drank too much coke. I also didn't eat any breakfast and immediately drank coke. Maybe that's why my stomach hurts.

But I didn't regret drinking coke. I like that drink too much to blame it.

Another thing is my fault, because my stomach is not used to not eating breakfast.

It's sensitive as heck.

I should drink medicine because even a little bit still hurts.

'Are you the one who drank coke in the morning on an empty stomach? That's really going to hurt.' I told myself.

Maybe I should do what Alta is telling me. drink Nesfruta. Because her complexion is getting better, it's like it's getting more and more blooming!

Is nesfruta the secret?

Or is there something else?

My thoughts quickly fade away.

I stopped walking and rubbing my stomach when Asmo caught my eye not far from the men's bathroom which is right next to it.

I was about to walk up to him when the scene played in my mind. The time where Layla waited for him and she smiled like crazy for him.

I looked around.

There is no sign of Layla. Where is that one?

It's a miracle and she's not crashing now?

She was probably afraid of a collision or he was looking right at the road. Because someone like me might be angry with him again.

With that in mind. I shook my head so my thoughts will go away. I jogged towards Asmo direction.

I started walking and blocked him in the way.

"Hi!" I smiled at him.

He didn't say a word, instead he took a step to the left and walked away.

I followed him with a frown.

What's wrong with him? Why doesn't this one notice and I don't seem to have seen it?

I chased after it and blocked it again.

"I said, Hi!" I repeat.

But he did it anyway.

What's wrong with him?

Why is it avoiding me?

I thought he liked me?

If you like someone you won't ignore that person, you won't act like she's not there in front of you, greeting you.

He said he loves me.

Thinking about it now, there's chances and cases that some people don't show how they like someone, if they're too shy, they won't really notice you or try to be noticed.

Is that what Asmo does?

I would buy it if nothing happened last night. But something happened so, no. I refused to believe it.

So why is he ignoring me now?

I grabbed his arm and pulled him back towards me.

"Why are you avoiding me Asmo?"

He sighed and looked me in the eye. His eyes are still shining the way it was that night.

His actions are different from what his eyes are telling me because it's longing for me. I can feel it.

I don't know why but my sense is starting to get stronger just like my intuition and feelings about everything.

"You are supposed to ignore me, Adra."

"But why would I do that?" I asked.

"Did you forget about it already?" He asked.

I was confused for a second then it came into my mind.

Are we still going to do that?

I thought everything was okay?

"We have an agreement, Adra."

My mouth is closed.

"Y-yes. But I thought everything was okay--"

"Your life is still at stake, Adra. Do you want to risk it?" He asked, his voice full of concern.

"For you I will," I said.

It is true, I will do anything just to be with him and I know it's the same with him.

"I can't, Adra. I don't want something bad to happen to you. I won't let anything happen to you," he said.

"Then why will you ignore me? If you don't want something bad to happen to me, you need to stay with me. We need to stay together Asmo. When can you find this love for years if you are going to let it go? Do you want to live your life forever regretting that you could have had the "

"I want to. But you didn't know what you wanted, Adra."

"I do! I want you!" I said.

Why is he making this so hard for both of us?

We don't need to torture each other because there is no problem.

I know he is worried about me. He is concerned if something bad might happen to me and he will get the blame for it. I knew that he doesn't want to be blamed because he's here protecting me all along but nothing will happen to me because his vampire clan is already gone. They're not even here with us, they only come to Lorcan's party and I don't think that they will wander around just like the Vointeroz are doing, just like what Silvana is going around the places.

"What is wrong with you Asmo? We made love and this is how you are going to treat me? This is just unacceptable."

"It's not like that, Adra. You know what I am."

I sighed.

I'm not sure if he really understands me or if he did understand me before because it seems like we're still a blur.

"And I accepted you Asmo. I'm not asking for too much. I just want your love and nothing else. I hope that you realize my value before it's too late," I said.

I kept looking at him.

I won't force him.

He didn't utter a word. He just kept looking at me. I took a deep breath and pressed my lips together.

I turned my back on him. But before I left, I looked at him again.

He didn't even try to stop me.

I don't think he will.

I walked slowly away from him as I felt the tears pooling in my eyes.

I'm so tired of pushing him. I'm so tired of waiting for him but he doesn't seem to see my value and the efforts that I did for him. He can't see the adjustments that I did only for him.

I didn't like this before.

It's not my job to insist.

I'm not desperate before him, but look at me now. I have changed only for him.

I did all the things I thought he would like. He says he appreciates me, but I don't feel it.

He is not the only one who is hurting...

He wasn't the only one who was having trouble with the two of us.

No one can ever love him the way I do.

No one will fucking wait for him like I do!

No one will go to that extent just to be with him, only me.

I'm on the brink of just letting him go because I'm too tired to even convince him that I'm the only one for him if he doesn't even see how special I am.

I know he is the one for me. My heart knows that he is the one and I will love no one else.

The hardest thing is that I want to let him go but I can't see myself with someone else other than him. I already pictured our future with our family and it's hard to imagine my life and my future without him.

My vision became blurry because of the tears rolling down my eyes. My chest tightened and my breathing became heavy as my chest went up and down.

My body started to get weak without a reason and my knees became wobbly. Even so, I still forced myself to walk away from where Asmo was.

I already planned our lives and how smooth it'll go.

I thought we would be happy...

We will grow old together...

We will love all the time and watch our kids grow.

Maybe it's too much to think about the future with a vampire who can't even decide whether to keep you or not.

If this is a test for us, I hope we can overcome it but if this is the end, I can't do anything.

I can't seem to take it anymore and I just want to let him go...

But if this is actually the end.

I don't think I'll ever love again.

I used to laugh at people who say that they will never love again, that they will die without the person they love, not knowing that I'll be a victim of this fucking love!

That I would also be a fool, the laughing stock for falling for a man, a vampire, who's out of my reach, who's different from who I am.

Asmodeus, won the battle.

I'm not even aware that we are in one, I haven't even fought until my last breath, but I guess his ego will always win. But is it really a battle between us or the world that we are in?

We are completely in a different world and it's hard, considering both of our differences, but even if I lost over his ego, I knew I did the best I could to stay with him.

To love him more than myself.

Even if it ruins me.

Even if it kills me.