46. Sinful Book 1

Ever since our confession to each other, it's like we became tied to each other; there was hardly any time we were apart. Antonio showed me that he was just a big fat baby in a man's body, I wasn't complaining though, I liked it.

Currently we were getting ready to go to the hospital, no I wasn't pregnant and nothing was wrong with either of us, but we decided to put me on the pill because we wanted to go raw, and we didn't need a small person growing in me in just one week of our relationship.

Antonio recommended a hospital for us to go to, and we were on our way; apparently he knew the gynecologist, they went to school together at some point.

"Hey, you really want to do this? I mean you don't have to if you don't want to" Antonio said to me when we got out of the car, he held my face in his palms, looking directly into my eyes.

"You could've asked me while we were still at home, I could've said no" I joked, but he didn't get it.

"Wait, we can go back home right now, I swear I didn't know, you know I don't want to force you to do anything you-"

"Chill out, it was just a joke sir, what is wrong with you?" I laughed, he rolled his eyes at me and grabbed my left hand, leading me into the hospital.

"You don't have to be so serious all the time" I nudged his shoulder.

"Leave me alone" he whined.

Finally we got to the doctors office, and we stopped at the door, well Antonio stopped at the door, what did he want?

"What is it?" I asked him.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked me and I nodded, he smiled and placed his hands on my waist, pulling me to him as he placed his lips on mine for a short kiss.

"How did I get so lucky?" He broke the kiss.

"Don't forget you almost lost me" I smiled and he knocked on the door.

"Antonio!" The nurse called, full of excitement.

"Cali, how are you doing?" He asked her and she jumped on him for a hug. I guess they were close.

"When Aliyah told me you were going to call me, I was shocked, like what would you want from me?" She laughed while Antonio smiled.

"Introduce me to the lady, where are your manners?" She scolded Antonio, looking at me with the same excitement on her face.

"Cali, this is Sewa, my girlfriend, Cara, this is Cali" Antonio introduced. And yes, we were back to calling me Cara.

"You're so pretty!" She gushed and I smiled at her.

"Okay, let's get down to business, please have a sit," she offered and we sat.

"So before I give you anything, I'm going to run some tests, just to be sure you're okay and you won't react negatively to anything I give you" she said and I nodded.

"Come with me," she said and I followed her to a room just beside her office. She ran a few tests and sent me back to her office to meet Antonio.

"You good?" He asked me and I nodded my head, he gave me a peck on my head afterwards.

"So this is your own way of saying you don't want to have children with me, huh?" I asked Antonio and he froze. His breathing was heavy and scary.

"What's that supposed to mean?" He asked me. He was annoyed, I could tell from the sound of his voice.

"I said I don't fucking want children, it has nothing to do with you" He almost yelled, but I knew he was trying to keep his voice down. He got up and left the office. I didn't even bother following him, because I didn't want Cali to come back and not see either of us, so I stayed back.

What was his issue? Who gets worked up by mentioning children? Was he hurt as a child? What was wrong with what I said? All these questions kept tugging at the back of my mind.

After a few minutes, Cali came back with some papers and drugs.

"You're all good," she smiled at me and I nodded.

"So here are the pills, the prescription is on it," she said and I thanked her.

"Where's Anto?" She asked looking around.

"Oh he went to the car" I lied, I didn't even know where he was, or if he was at the parking lot at all.

"I'll get going then," I smiled at her.

"It was nice to meet you," she said and I smiled, leaving the office as fast as I could.

Sometimes Antonio was full of shit, and this was his baggage I was willing to put up with, because of how I felt about him; sometimes we acted really immature like a child. I rolled my eyes as I got to the parking lot.

I saw the car and I let out a sigh of relief, lord knows I would've killed him if he wasn't there.

I masked my face into a frown and got into the car, he looked at me but didn't say a word, and he didn't start the car either.

"Cara," he called but I didn't respond, I kept looking straight ahead. That was the only method I knew would make him talk.

"Baby, I'm sorry okay. I didn't mean to lash out like that," he apologized.

"Just take me home, I'm tired," I told him and he nodded, as he started the car.

The ride home was quiet, as it should be; he kept stealing glances at me, but I acted like I didn't notice.

When we got home, I grabbed the pills Cali gave me and went into the house, Antonio came in a few seconds later.

"Cara," he called.

"I'm sorry, I just don't like children, I really don't like them," he started.

"It was a stupid joke, why did you take it to personal, huh? Is there something I should know?" I asked him, he looked down and then back at me;

"No" he answered and I nodded my head.

"Forgive me okay?" He asked and I nodded my head.

He placed a kiss on my forehead and hugged me tight. For some reason, I felt like he was lying but I ignored it. He said there was nothing I should know, so we'd act like there was nothing I should know, just to keep peace.