47. Sinful Book 1

That night, I decided to sleep in a separate room, not that anything was really wrong, but I just wanted to be away from him so I could think clearly, lord knows what staying close to him could cause. One touch from him and I'm bending all my morals, along with my back, for him; I did want that, but not at the moment.

Sleeping was hard, I kept thinking of how he hesitated before answering me. You see, the mind is the strongest and well as the most dangerous weapon we have as humans; your mind could feed you lies and give you reasons to accept it, and you do without thinking twice.

I knew in my heart that he was not hiding anything, but my mind was telling me otherwise. I really wanted to believe him, I really did.

I sat on my bed, pressing my face into the pillow that I had in my arms.

I hated the doubt I had in my mind for Antonio and I wanted to get rid of it.

There was a knock at my door, it was no one else but Antonio, we were the only ones in the house at the hour.

I pushed myself out of the bed and went to open up for him; when I opened up, he looked like he was having a hard time sleeping too; his hair was all over the place, which told me he ran his fingers through his hair a thousand times.

I gave him a small smile.

"I can't sleep knowing you're not happy with me" He sulked. Like who was this human? And why was he so cute?

"Come in" I smiled at him, pulling him in for a hug. He hugged me tight, almost too tight, I couldn't breathe.

"You're choking me!" I struggled to say.

"I want to, but the right way" he whispered in my ear.

"I want you to, but the right way" I laughed at my stupid reply.

Antonio led me to my bed and pushed me on it, I landed with a soft thud, smiling at him.

He smiled back at me, pushing his hair back as he leaned into me. I reached for his hair immediately, pulling him closer to me as I kissed him with every emotion in me. Antonio kissed me back, following my lead.

While kissing, Antonio's hands roamed freely on my body, caressing every part; soon, my scanty nightdress was peeled off my body.

"You're so beautiful" Antonio groaned, sniffing my skin. I smiled at his words and pulled his sweats down, thankfully Antonio had a habit of sleeping shirtless so, I had easy access to him.

Antonio changed our position, so he was sitting and I was sitting on him.

We were going to go raw for the first time, and I couldn't wait; it's why I didn't even bother that we were going straight to penetration, I guess he was as eager as I was.

Antonio lifted me up a bit, I helped him by kneeling on the bed. He took his thumb into his mouth, sucking on it gently. He took it out and placed it in between us, closer to me than him.

He pressed his thumb on my clit, going in a circular motion, getting me ready for penetration.

He used his free hand to set his dick directly under me, then used both hands to guide me slowly down his dick.

It was the first time we were having sex in that position, and it felt fucking good! I felt full, very full.

When I was comfortable and Antonio could move, we moved in sync, grinding against each other in circular motions, up and down.

It was the best thing ever!

"Fuck!!!" Antonio groaned.

"Why didn't we put you on the pill earlier?" He asked, I was too out of it to answer him, I nodded my head instead.

I hugged Antonio to me as he bucked his hips faster, letting me feel everything.

Antonio and I had sex a lot, so I knew how he was going to feel in me, but this time, that wasn't the case, it felt like I was sitting on a new dick. There was something about it this time. There was this carefulness he had, like I was glass and he didn't want to break me. There was the emotional part too, I guess this was what people talked about when referring having sex with someone you love.

I was feeling a lot of things at the same time, I felt like I was going to explode from the pleasure I was getting. Antonio's thrusts came in harder and faster and I knew I was going to cum in not time.

"Fuck, I'm gonna-" before I could finish my sentence, I was a dripping mess. After a few more powerful thrusts from Antonio, he found his release and he stopped.

"I want to go on and on, but we don't want to provoke that pill you took," he joked and I laughed.

I got up from his body, lying beside him, but he got up from the bed almost immediately. He went into the bathroom and came back with a small towel. He separated my legs, cleaning from my ankle to my core, the towel was wet so it cleaned me good. When he was done, he rushed out of the room and came back with a shirt, his shirt. I smiled at him as he wore it on me, then wore his sweatpant.

"It's time to sleep, Miss," he said and got into the bed with me.

"Aren't you the sweetest mother?" I smiled at him.

"No, I'm the sweetest Daddy," he smiled and hugged me to him.

"Let's be like this forever," he said and I nodded.

All thoughts about Antonio lying to me had flown out of my head, I could only think about him and how sweet he was.

He sure was doing the right things for someone who had never been in a relationship before.