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"Come on I'll take you away Kim." says Sina calmly and hugs me gently. With one arm on my shoulder, she gently pulls me out of the building. She grabs me as if I could break at any moment. I turned my head to Derek again. That name alone makes me smile. He looks quite angry and almost hits a spint with his. Cole and Hunter try to calm him down but nothing seems to work. Suddenly I feel a pang in my heart. It hurts so much to see Derek like this. Tears roll down my cheek. What have I done? I'm such a bad mate. How could I? But on the other hand, it would only work out with us. If he or his pack knew what I am, they would never accept me. I just know it.

We've been driving deeper into the forest for twenty minutes now. Everything smells like wolves and derek's pack. Wait. What? Why didn't I notice that? Why exactly here?

"Where are we?" I asked uncertainly. I have to act like a human. Humans don't know about wolves. People would have had a panic attack during the action at school. People are afraid of wolves.

"We're going to the packhouse." she answered me. Great. I know what that is, but people don't know.

"What is this? Why don't you take me home?" I tried to sound as scary as possible. Although it wasn't that difficult for me, after all I was afraid of meeting Derek next time. I just wanted to forget him and never see him again.

"Derek wanted it that way. He needs to know that you are safe and alright. Later he will answer all your questions." her muffled voice calmed me a little until I became aware of the situation again. What if I can't not accept him? I mean I love him and I would do anything for him. Every minute. No, every moment without him hurts like a thousand knife wounds. I can't live without him, but I just can't.

"Come on. Let's go inside." she said. Only now did I realize that we had stopped. We were in a huge clearing surrounded by large and dense trees. A large building covers half of the clearing. The packhouse, also known as the pack house. At the edge of the clearing was a wide path, which probably led to a slightly smaller clearing. Or so it seemed. I assume they train there.

"Well. People live on the upper floors. On the first floor there is a dining room and a kitchen. On this ground floor and in the basement there are living rooms, playrooms and the like." she tells me as we entered the building through the entrance. Hardly anyone was there. Funny I think. Everything was modern, but also simple and somehow cold. The warmth was missing in every hallway we entered and in the huge living room where we sat down on one of the five sofas. Sina turned on one of the many Xboxes and started playing. I, however, just sat there and stared at the white, cool wall.

I don't know how long we've been sitting here, but over time a couple of people sometimes came. Some stayed briefly, others left immediately. But they all had one thing in common, they all stared at me like I was an alien. Did I do something wrong or are they always so strange? It was already getting dark outside. Meanwhile, cloè and Hunter were also sitting here in the living room.

Chris and dad must have been worried about me. Shit. I quickly pulled out my cell phone and texted Cole that I was with a friend but would like to talk to him later. He's always such a good listener and I'm very grateful to him for that.

"Sina?" I asked uncertainly. Her head snapped in my direction and looked at me questioningly. "When can I go? I'm tired and want to go home." I almost whispered. I was really tired as hell. Everything, especially the mate thing, was giving me a lot of trouble.

"I'm sorry sweetheart, but you have to stay here. At least until Derek gets there. Okay?" she said sensitively. I nodded reluctantly as the living room door flew open for a thousand times today. But something was different. The smell. His smell. My head snapped in his direction. Concerned eyes looked at me intently. These eyes. omg I love her more than anything. He almost rushed to me and pulled me into a tight but short hug. Too short in my opinion. Stop. Kim. Think clearly. You do not want that. Although I really want to, but I can't.

"Come along." he said persuasively and already pulled my arm softly behind him. The spot on my arm began to tingle violently, like hundreds of needle pricks. What is he doing to me? We stopped in a room that was modernly furnished in black and white. He released me and sat on the big bed. I took a moment to examine the room closely. There were pictures everywhere, but everything still seemed cool and repulsive. The warmth was completely absent. The room could be furnished in a modern way, I don't know what, but it would always remain lonely and cool.

"Sit please, Kim." he said softly and carefully. I reluctantly sat down on the bed about a meter away from him and wanted my head towards him. Our eyes stuck to each other. "Beautiful," he whispered hypnotized. I quickly looked away and blushed slightly. He chuckled and wanted to place his hand on my cheek and turn my head towards him, but I slapped it away

"What do you want?" I hissed. I could hardly hold back my tears. My way of dealing with him hurt. He looked at me sadly and hurt. Please do not. He should look away. I can't think straight otherwise. Argg.

"You." he breathed and took my hand in his. I wanted to tear her away, but he wouldn't let me.