47 - STEVEN SUMMERS: SMITTEN BY HER

"Do you believe in werewolves? Please don't think I'm crazy." he said softly. His eyes showed uncertainty. A lot of uncertainty. Of course I believe in werewolves. I'm one, but I can't say that. Trade like a human. The best fake laugh I just had in store rang out.

"You're joking, aren't you? Where are the hidden cameras?" I laughed faked on.

"No it's not. It went werewolves." he said tensely.

"Sure thing. And the next thing you tell me is that twillight is based on a real story. Yes, no. That's clear." I kept laughing. His eyes darkened, his teeth sharpened, and a growl erupted. Startled, I got out of tune. Okay, take it easy, he just wanted to show me he's right.

"Okay apparently you finally believe me. So where was I! Ah right. Well there are werewolves. We live in packs. Each pack has a leader or called alpha, a beta and a luna. Every werewolf has a mate, their soul mate. There is no stronger bond between two people. The luna is the mate of the alpha. Since I am the alpha of my pack, you are my mate the luna." he said seriously. I the luna? No. That can not be. I can not do this. I would never do it. I want but can't. I would support all to perdition.

"Please give me a chance, Kim. Let's try. Together we can-" He wanted to take my hand in his, but I pulled mine away. I could hardly hold back my tears. It hurt so much to see him like that. I would have liked to hug him, kiss him or something else. I would have said we could do this together, but I couldn't. He might accept me, but his pack never would. I don't want to be rejected by a pack again. It hurts like hell and it makes my wolf even lonelier. Also, I don't fit into a pack. I'm different and that's why I hate myself right now.

"II can't do this. I can't do this. I'm sorry. I just want to go home and forget it all." I almost whispered. I couldn't even look into his eyes. I was disappointed. Disappointed in myself. Disappointed that I suck at him. Disappointed that I hurt my mate. Disappointed that I'm different. I really hate my life right now.

"Please stay. Give me a chance. Together we can do anything. Believe me. Please don't give us-" he wanted to say, but I cut him off. As he said this, he wanted to lift my chin up so I could look into his eyes. But I entries my chin. My first tears ran down my cheeks. Inwardly I promised. My wolf just wanted to die just like me. Why does this love have to be so strong? I would have loved to have broken down and just cried. My knees and legs were already very weak.

"Please. I can't. Accept it." I said coolly. At least as cool as it got. That was the rest. I couldn't take it anymore. Inside I was finally destroyed. I just wanted to lie in his arms and be told by him that if we were together, we could do this together. I can not anymore. I have to get out of here. away from him. Away from that mate thing. away from love Away from the pack. get out of this house. away from everything. Just away. I quickly stormed off with tears in my eyes. I could not anymore. With the last of my strength I pulled myself out of the house into the deep forest. I transformed and ran. Just go away. In the direction of Dr beautiful clearing. It wasn't that bright anymore, but I didn't care.

Everything is so peaceful here. So calm. As if there was no time. No problem. No worries. no tomorrow The moment counts. Not more. Completely out of breath, I dropped onto the grass and looked up at the sky. The sun was just going down. The sky was colored from yellow to purple. It was wonderful.

This time I didn't stay long before walking back home. I needed to talk to someone and that someone was Chris.

When I got home I changed quickly after a shower. Chris was just walking into my room when the doorbell rang. I quickly went downstairs and opened the door. In front of it stood Sina. She eyed me worriedly.

"Hey. You left so quickly. You okay? Do you want to talk?" she said equally worried, but I just shook my head and looked at her unemotionally. "Okay, but if you do, you know where you can find me. I wanted to bring you his things that you forgot." she gave me my jacket and my bag. I thanked him and closed the door.

Back in my room I lay down in Chris' arms. Leaning against his chest, I told him everything. He listened carefully. More and more tears came over time until I was lying in his arms like a wrag. i felt so bad Maybe I should have given No. His pack will not accept me. The last pack I asked for admission repelled me coldly. After that I didn't come to school for two weeks because I just cried. Chris understood me. He always knows everything about me, but even he didn't know a solution. What should I do? why me? Why do I have this fate?

I cried myself to sleep in Chris' arms.

Derek's pov

"Please. I can't. Accept it." she said coolly, but I saw her tears running down her cheek. Why not? She hurts her speeches too. I need her and she needs me. She can't just not give us a chance. I only want her. all i want is her I was about to take her hand in mine when she stormed out of the room with red eyes and tears in them. How come? Why is she leaving? What did I do wrong? what have i done to her I would do anything for you. Everything. I would die for her. I would die for her eyes alone. You are so beautiful. This Turkish blue. Your eyes sparkle sometimes. You can read every emotion in them. You are like a book to me. But there was something else about her tears. Something I haven't seen anyone do before. It is not sadness, joy or anger. No desire or fear. But what is it? Maybe someday I'll find out. I will fight. I will never give up on her. Never. And every boy I see with her, I fuck up. He'll regret touching my girl. Nobody's gonna take my girl away from me Or look at it the wrong way. She is mine...