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Kims Pov

"R-ryder?" my voice was shaking, as were my hands. She was about to throw up if I had spoken louder. How did he find me? why is he there What does he want from me? Why me? Oh God. Please. Derek should come and rescue me.

He pressed his pelvis against me and his upper body as well. His face came closer to mine. I got sick immediately. He disgusted me. Every fiber of mine hated him and was disgusted with him. He was just gross. I had repressed him so well and was so sure I would never see him again. I never wanted to see him again. Why did I have to run away too? Arrgg. Sometimes I'm just beyond dim.

"W-what do you want here?" I brought out after a while. My heart was beating faster than usual. I was scared. I've been afraid again for a long time. As a human he was stronger than me. As a wolf, I didn't know. But his pack. It was huge.

"I promised you that I will find you." he said grinning. I pushed away from him and tried in vain to free myself. But nothing worked. A hot tear rolled down my cheek. derek Where was he? i needed him He should find me. Please. will i see him again i needed him so much Another tear rolled down my cheek. She gently wiped Ryder's thumb away from me. I cocked my head and growled at him.

"Be careful how you treat me." he hissed dangerously and looked at me menacingly. But I wasn't afraid of him. No longer. I was just scared for Derek. I just looked at him with sparkling eyes. "You will come with me." he added. Is this serious? I just laughed. He could forget that again. As if I would go with him. I'd rather die

"Pff. You don't believe that yourself. I'll never go with you." I laughed. His eyes darkened. His grip was getting harder and already hurting. Another tear rolled down my cheek. The hot water burned my skin. Derek should finally come.

"Yes you will." he growled. I just looked at him coldly. Now I couldn't show fear. He shouldn't have power over me. He must have no power over me. I had to be stronger than him.

"Derek will come and kill you." I hissed. Please. I brought him so much. Where is he? I wish I was right But Derek didn't show up. Ryder laughed maliciously. Goosebumps came over my skin. But not like Derek, but rather because of the opposite. i hate ryder He disgusted me with everything. I just wanted him to take his dirty pens off me and never show up again.

"Where is your oh so great Derek?" he laughed. I swallowed softly. Another tear rolled down my skin. It rolled over my cold face. I didn't change my expression, but continued to look at him coldly and indifferently. Why did I feel so helpless alone? I would have torn him to pieces long ago, but now? I felt helpless and at the mercy. All my strength was gone, I only looked strong on the outside.

His grip loosened. His head came closer to mine. He came closer to my ear. His hot vicious breath pounded on my skin. I swallowed. What was he up to?

"I'll be back and then you'll come with me. I promise." he breathed. I felt sick because of his breath. "No matter where you will hide." he added. His head came back into view. He got closer to me. I immediately turned my head to the side. His disgusting wet lips landed on my cheek. I got worse than ever. I could have thrown up, he disgusted me so much. He broke away from me and looked at me. His eyes were dark. Again he leaned against me with all his weight. I almost whimpered.

"If you flee, Derek will bump into something." i swallowed No. Nothing was allowed to happen to Derek. A tear rolled down my cheek again. A second came right after. "And not a word to Derek." he added and looked at me menacingly. I nodded coldly with tears in my eyes.

Everything blurred before my eyes. My body is getting cold where Ryder was leaning against it. was he gone I did not know it. Everything was blurry. I slid down the lockers. I buried my face in my hands.

Nothing was allowed to happen to Derek. Nothing. I had to protect him. He should be fine. He shouldn't suffer because of me. But how? If I ran away, something would happen to him. If I stayed, Ryder would come for me and Derek would break. Just like me. Derek and I would both suffer. And we couldn't leave together because of his pack. We just didn't stand a chance together. If only I had never moved here. Then I would never have met Derek. Would never have run away. Would never have met Ryder. Could never hurt Derek. Anything would be better. Even if I would never have met Derek.

I sat there like a wrag. I cried and sobbed. I didn't know how long I had been sitting there. But Derek didn't come. Where was he? He should finally come to me and save me. Even if that was impossible. Why did life always have to be so shit? I could never be happy without knowing that at any moment it would suck again. Everything was and always will be shit. Didn't I deserve to be happy sometimes? What did I do to earn something like this? was i that bad Was this my destiny? First I had to be such a fucking wolf that didn't belong anywhere, and now this. Fate hates me abysmal.

"Kim." shouted a familiar voice. But I didn't react. I just kept sitting there. My hot tears continued to roll down my face. I cried for Derek. I shouldn't tell him anything. I had to sacrifice myself for him. He had to be happy and not get hurt because of me.

"Kim. Shit. What happened?" screamed that voice again. I wanted to say everything. I wanted to keep crying in his arms. He should comfort me. But it did not work. I had to be strong. For him. Everything I did was for him.

"Kim? Kim?" he yelled again, but I didn't respond...