Chapter-26

After a week

Maryam's pov

" Omi, Is the homework completed?" I asked Omaira knitting a new sweater for my baby.

She nodded her head in the negative and continued doing her homework. Sighing slightly I continued my work having an affectionate smile. If I want then I can buy hundreds of expensive sweaters for my baby but I wanted to do something on my own. That's why I thought to knit a sweater for my baby.

It's been a week since the little life is growing inside me and I can't express in words how much happy I am. I have to wait for just 9 months to have my baby in my arms but every minute is feeling like an eternity for me. I can't wait to cuddle my little one.

Since I got pregnant I am seeing some noticeable changes in Yardan. He doesn't behave rudely at all and doesn't even snap at me unnecessarily. He talks to me softly and even cares for me. Now, he cares about my health, my likes & dislikes and my feelings.

I don't know the reason behind his sudden change but I am glad about it. At least he understood that it's a sin to kill an innocent baby. Maybe his fatherly love rose inside him for our baby. No matter what how can someone hate his own blood!! I think he realised his love for our baby. That's why he has been taking care of me like a doting husband.

I think he is not a bad person. Maybe I failed to understand him or I was just always comparing him with Mikaeel. What a stupid I was? Of course, every person is different and has different characteristics. How can I compare Yardan & Mikaeel? I failed to understand Yardan. Since Yardan is now accepting our relationship on good terms I should try harder to keep it. We are going to be parents and now we should act more mature. Moreover, Yamir & Omaira's upbringing also depends on us. We should be more acceptable to each other.

" Mamma," I was startled by Yamir's sudden voice.

I looked at the door and found him standing there holding a glass of milk. I was confused seeing him with milk because he doesn't like it.

" Mamma, I heard the doctor suggesting you drink milk regularly. So, I brought it for you," He said forwarding his tiny hands and I was completely overwhelmed by his thoughtful action.

My son is only 7 years old but he understands me so much. He cares so much for me. I didn't give birth to him but his love for me is genuine. He is just like Mehzabin api. Caring, sweet and of course lovely.

" Aww!! Thank you, baba( referring to son affectionately)," I took the glass from his hand kissing his chubby cheeks.

I will just drink the milk, a sudden yelp left my mouth. The glass fell from my hand feeling a sharp pain in my abdomen. Clutching my belly tightly I screamed at the top of my lungs while tears started flowing from my eyes.

" Mamma......Mamma.....what happened?" Yamir & Omaira asked shaking me slightly but the pain in my abdomen was so unbearable that I couldn't utter any word. I felt like I will die right now.

Falling to the ground I continued groaning in pain while Yamir & Omaira asked in their panicked voices," Mamma, why are you crying? What happened?"

" It's..........hurting......so.....much," I screamed.

Yamir didn't waste another second. He took my phone in his hand and called someone. I don't know whom he is calling. I was feeling like my soul was detaching from my body.

" Baba, mamma is crying. Her belly is hurting," I heard Yamir talking to Yardan.

Suddenly, I felt something wet under me. I looked downwards and noticed that my dress has turned red. A horrified expression appeared on my face feeling the wetness between my legs. My blood turned cold seeing my legs reddish.

" No...................My child......." I screamed clutching my belly tightly and after that, everything was blank.

Author's pov

Maryam was sitting on the bed covering her lower region with a blanket. She doesn't know where she was looking. Her brows were curled, her hair was messy and her eyes were red. She was looking completely messed up.

Yardan was standing beside the bed having a blank expression. He cleared his throat while the doctor finished Maryam's check-up. Giving a sorrowful look at Maryam the doctor diverted her gaze at Yardan.

" She miscarried the baby. Due to some hormonal problems, she lost the baby," the doctor announced and tears started flowing down Maryam's cheeks.

" You can go now," Yardan told the doctor and she left taking her stuff.

Sitting beside Maryam he took her hands in his hands but she didn't react at all. She was silent like a mute but tears were flowing from her eyes like a never-ending stream. The doctor's words were buzzing inside her head stabbing her heart repeatedly. She still can't believe what she heard a few moments ago.

" I am a bad mother. That's why my baby left me," Maryam mumbled with her quivering lips.

Yardan said rubbing her back," You need to take a rest. Accept this reality that the baby wasn't meant to be with you."

Maryam wasn't in the state whatever he was saying. The agonising pain of losing her baby was killing her from inside. She doesn't know what wrong she did to deserve all this. She doesn't know why her baby was snatched from her?

She couldn't bear this pain anymore and burst into crying. Her agonizing scream echoed through the whole room. She started mourning for her child while Yardan was completely silent. He just saw her crying, thrashing her hands everywhere and hiccupping. Even after seeing her miserable state, no words came out of his mouth because he wasn't finding any words to console her.

" My children!! Why they don't love me? Why they don't want to meet me? Am I that bad?" She questioned clutching his collar tightly.

Holding her hands he freed his collar from her tight grip while Maryam just sobbed looking down. She had so many dreams about this baby but now everything is ruined. She wasn't feeling like living anymore. Every single second was feeling unbearable to her.

" I loved my baby so much but still......... I couldn't keep my baby with me. I am a bad mother," Maryam started chanting while nodding her head vigorously.

Yardan held her face and shouted at her," Control yourself, Maryam."

" I am a bad mother. No.....No...... I am.....a bad mother," Maryam chanted nonstop when Yardan pulled her into a tight hug.

Maryam sobbed bitterly," Yardan, bring back my baby. Please. I want my baby. I will die without him/her. Please, I beg you. Bring back my child."

" I wish I had this ability. But, we can't change destiny. Try to understand," Yardan rubbed her back to console her while Maryam soaked his Kandura with her tears.

Maryam hiccuped," I failed to protect my baby for the second time. I am a horrible mother."

" Shh......shh...Maryam. Don't talk that way. Think about Yamir & Omaira. They are your kids. Love them, cherish them just like their real mother and I assure you that you will forget the pain of losing your child," Yardan stroked her hair and said all these.

Maryam couldn't answer anything. She just continued crying and thinking about her lost baby. How much she wanted this baby! How desperate she was to be a mother but now everything is gone. Her baby is no more. For her loss, she doesn't know whom she should blame. Her Destiny? She doesn't know.

" Accept your destiny and learn to move on, Maryam. I promise that I will be with you in this tough situation," Yardan promised but he didn't hear anything from her. He also didn't notice any movement in her.

Breaking the hug he looked at her and found her unconscious. He felt her body extremely cold and a thin line of anxiety appeared on his face. Seeing her situation he didn't waste another second and took her to the hospital.