13

Information overload is what I have put myself through since Sunday night. The entire world of BDSM just calls to me the moment Valan had explained most of it and got comfortable talking to me on it all.

Everything she told me to read and brought over Monday, has been read over completely. It honestly got me all hot and bothered reading through the materials. Thing is though, I am new to it and never done it.

Heck, I have never used any of the toys that are available to buy. I have always just used the shower head if the need arose. Which is embrassing I found out what an orgasm was because I was doing the normal shower and got caught up in the feeling of the water. Which I was a teen at the time, so it was not like I was already an adult by time I found that out.

Not a single guy I have been with gave me what I could do myself, Like I have said my sexual experiences were less than vanilla. Nothing lasted long but the man would think it was the best ever, where I really felt like running right after.

My last relationship was two years ago and the guy wanted to tie the knot, but I couldn't. First off, I wasn't in love with him and to me that would be the most important thing to have if I am going to marry someone. Second, if we don't have chemistry in bed then that is another no go.

"So that is the finger foods covered for the actual main food. What all do we need for the cupcakes?" Valan asks from my side.

"Just the basics and I will need blue coloring and sprinkles." I turn the shopping cart in the direction we need to go now.

Valan and I are out working on getting everything needed for making the cupcakes tomorrow and then decorate and make the other food Friday morning. Which it is Wednesday currently.

I know that Kelvin has a class tonight and I think Naida is going with him for this one. He has got her into some of the music stuff he does. Something that is great and for them to bond over more too, being husband and wife never hurts to keep bonding. Actually that's the best in my opinion.

Once we get in the baking section, we add the normal sugar, flour and other things into the cart.

"Just one second." Valan's phone goes off. "Sorry, I can answer that later."

"Take it girl, I am going to pick out the other things we need." I smile.

Valan hangs back and takes the call, while I am looking over the options for sprinkles.

"What are you doing tonight?" Valan hops over to where I moved too.

"Nothing, just going to make dinner and relax. What do you have in mind?" I look over at her.

"Would you be up for us making dinner together and Laken coming over?" Valan looks antsy behind the smile.

"Sure, you know I rather eat with my friends than alone. What are you up to though?" I look at her.

"Nothing." She gets out before her phone starts going off again.

Valan steps back some talking to whoever called, before stepping back up. I can't help but look at her with a raised eyebrow.

"Are you okay with Aiden coming over too? He would love to see how we work the magic with cooking." Valan smirks.

"Sure." I nod and keep a calm outside look, but on the inside I am jumbled like this container of sprinkles.

I honestly would like to see Aiden again. Maybe we can talk more.

What am I saying? Surely, we would talk more since he is going to be in my house.

MY HOUSE!

"What are you freaking out about?" Valan tries to hide a laugh.

"Aiden is going to be at my house, Val! I got to clean."

"Girl, your house is clean. I could take a white glove and it would still be pearly white or eat food off the floor. Stop freaking. Aiden isn't going to say anything wrong about your house." Valan smiles.

"Okay." I take a deep breath and put the sprinkles and food coloring into the cart.

"So? What will we cook tonight?" Valan glances over to me.

Crap!

Valan laughs this time stopping me from having a panic attack.

"What?"

"I hadn't ever seen you such a panic. I could let them know that it's to much on you, if you want me too?"

"No!" I right at shout. "Sorry, no there is no need to tell them not to come. It is just uh." I stop short.

"You like Aiden or at least have interest in him?" Valan offers.

I sigh and slump on the cart. "I don't know Val. I am interested in him sure. I barely know him other than that fact he owns Scenix Clothing and would like to get to know him more. It is just, I feel like a school girl with all the nerves going on. There is something about him that sparks things in me I haven't ever truly felt before."

Valan nods. "What if I told you that you do the same to Aiden."

I take a deep breath. "That helps to know I make someone else feel the same way."

"Exactly. Honestly, the way you both are. I would say that I can see the two of you together. Especially with some of the new found interests you're into because of knowing about things Laken and I do." Valan smirks.

"Are you saying that Aiden is into?" I stop short again.

Valan nods quickly. "He is a dom." She whispers.

Oh sweet baby sprinkles!

I shake my head and look around the store. At least we are alone in the aisle the entire time I just had a mini freak show.

I am a little curious how Aiden would be and I guess I should have seen that coming with him being a dominant. Since reading and everything to learn on it, the signs of him being that is there from the short time I spoke to him at the event.

"Kelsie?" Valan nudges me.

"Hmm?" I look at her again and stand up straight.

Valan laughs. "Food for tonight?"

"Oh right that. Let's see what meats they have because the time it is now, we won't be able to thaw anything and it not dry out." I offer.

"Sure, by time we get done and back to your house the guys will be there soon after." Valan smiles.

I look at my watch and sure enough it is late in the day. My nerves try to come back, but I force them down.

Just keep your head in the game Kels. It doesn't mean anything that this hunk of a man, that is also a successful business owner, is coming to your house. Or that you know he is also into the new things you have just learned about. Stop getting ahead of yourself, he probably has more than enough women throwing theirselves at his feet. Just be who you and all will be good.

"Having fun there pep talking yourself?" Valan snickers.

"How did you know?" I look at her.

"Girl, we have known each other for several years now and you do that when your nerves try to get to you." She smiles.

I nod. "Right. Okay, so which meat are you thinking and we can take it from there? I know Laken has liked everything we done before and he has had."

"Aiden is the same. He isn't picky." Valan adds.

"Steaks?"

"Sounds great." Valan smiles.