I want him, but I know it is wrong

Alaska

I am so close to Alpha Kai. I can feel his hard cock so close to my wet pussy. I want him. I want to be held, fucked the way I saw him fucking that blonde whore. I cannot do this. I feel a burning connection between us. I know we are mates; I know it is something, but my family needs me to marry Beta Finn. Why do I have to be in this situation?

Why did my brother have to get entangled with Beta Finn's sister? Now my family owes his family and the only way I will ever escape is if I give Beta Finn a child. He is a sweet wolf but I do not love him. I do not even want him to touch me. I want to let the Alpha take me to bed and fuck me. Do I want more from him?

"I can give you a good life," Alpha says. I push back from him. He drops me to the floor. He is looking into my eyes. I see something in his eyes, something I do not see when I look at Beta Finn. Even behind the egotistical Alpha macho bull shit there is something about Alpha Kai. He is a good wolf.

"Prove it," I yell at him. I open the bedroom door and slam it shut. When I step into the hallway the other she wolves are looking at me. I guess they think I should fuck him too.

"You all might suck his cock and fuck him, but I will not," I growl. I go toward the front of the house. I do not want the other she wolves to think I am one of Alpha Kai's whores. I do not want to be his whore. I admit I need to be fucked but I do not want all of this to get back to Beta Finn.

"You are assigned to work duties here. If you walk out, you could be punished by Alpha," Ellie says.

"Let her go. I will assign her something else," Alpha growls. I look into his eyes and he looks broken. Maybe, he is broken. Perhaps that is why he fucks and parties the way he does. He needs something and I need something. Maybe we can help each other.

I close my eyes for a moment. "I am sorry. I am not used to such an open pack. I need time to adjust that is all," I say. I wait for Alpha to respond and at least show him respect that he deserves, but does he deserves my respect? Well, he is the Alpha.

"Then come back tomorrow for a fresh start, okay. Be here at 6 am and I will personally show you the ropes," Alpha says.

Ellie and Christy look stunned. "Okay, see you in the morning Alpha," I say. I smile as I walk away from the she wolves and Alpha.

I go out the door and look behind the pack house. I need a run. I need a long run to unclog my mind. I start running toward the clearning. As I leap into the air and then come back down in my wolf form, I hear something or someone behind me.

I keep running, not stopping. It is either one of the whores or Alpha. I am not sure I am ready to deal with either of them. I listen to the sound of my paws, I grind my paws into the dirt and I try to clear my mind.

"Alaska!" I hear Alpha yelling for me.

I stop fast, sliding into a tree. I hit my head and fall to the ground hard. Oh fuck this hurt. I look up, blinking in and out as I lose my grip on reality. "Alaska, are you alright?" Alpha asks me.

"Yes, " I answer him. My head is pounding. I hit my head hard.

I look down and realize I am no longer in my wolf form. I am lying her naked in front of Alpha and he is too. He gentley touches me, pulling me close to him.

"You will be okay," Alpha says. I feel him pick me and carry me toward the water. I can hear the water running, and then I feel the chill from the cold water.

"This water is cold," I mumble.

Why is he putting me in the water? I close my eyes and feel the water and let the chill over take my body. "Our waters here are healing," Alpha says.

After about thirty minutes I begin to feel normal. I stand on my feet. I remember that I am naked. I am not ashamed. He is looking me over. He touches my chin. "You are so beautiful Alaska," Alpha says.

"I should go home. I should not be here with you. The she wovles with talk and I do not need trouble with Beta Finn," I say.

He pulls me close and takes my mouth. His tongue slides into my mouth, his hand slides down my ass and he pulls me so close to him. He grabs my ass harder and pulls me so quickly that I have no choice but to wrap my legs around him.

"I want you. Say yes to me Alaska," Alpha says.

"I cannot lie, I do want you, I need to feel wanted, but I cannot do this," I say. I push back from him, but he does not listen to me.

"Do not deny me, Alaska," Alpha says.

His hand goes behind my head pulling me to his lips again. I am excited and I want him, but I cannot do this. I cannot do this to my family, to Finn. But I want him. What would a little fun hurt? It would hurt because I know and the Alpha knows, and our wolves know, that we are mates. Now what? If I let him mark me as his, then what?

"Say you want me, Alaska," Alpha says.

"I... um.... I want you," I moan.