Chapter 32: The Love Expression

I took a deep breath. Mating with Lisa at first was the last resort to get what I wanted: the successful mission of getting her and maintaining the peace treaty. However, all wasn’t as important as tending to her.

I glanced at her. Her blush was still there, but her body trembled. I didn’t know if she said it out of courage or desperation. I wanted to find all eight men and took pleasure in torturing them until they would beg me for death.

Lisa changed my life, but it was expected. My mate would be the closest person to me. What affected her would affect me too. Her pain was mine. Her misery was also mine. I wanted to wipe away the fear and shame in her eyes.

So, I held her hands, kissing each while staring at her. She blushed again. She was still innocent apart from the terrible accident ten years ago. I took a deep breath. If only it had never happened. But then, I might have never met her as she would mate with someone else.

Thinking of another man to mate with her made my mouth sour. I didn’t want to think about it. The only thing I had to do now was to express my love to her in a way that wouldn’t frighten her. It was ironic, as I had never touched a woman before, and my first time with my mate would be something I needed to plan carefully.

I stole a glance one more time. Lisa bit her lower lip and clenched both hands. I knew it would be challenging, but if it wiped away her tears and insecurity, I would do it. I pulled her closer and kissed her lips. She wrapped her hands around my neck, savoring my lips enthusiastically. I wouldn’t guess she had a dark past if she didn’t confess what had happened to her.

As if she could read my mind, she stopped kissing and smiling. “It’s weird. With you, as if I’m a new person. As if there were no tragedy.” Then she sobbed again. “I should let you go …. But I’m greedy and want you for myself.”

I kissed her tears and brought her to the bed. I kissed her lips and then turned her body. Unzipping her dress, I slowly removed it and threw it to the floor. She trembled, but I kissed her back.

“Do you want me to stop?”

“I-I … no …. I don’t want to live in the past.” She took a deep breath. “I want to be free. Please help me, Nate. You are the only one who can help me.”

I turned her body again so we could look at each other. “I know little about what I must do, but I want you, Lisa.” Then I touched my nape. “I asked Cam about what I should do. It’s embarrassing.”

“Then he knew we would do it tonight.” Lisa bit her lower lip.

“Cam is more than a foster brother and best friend. He was also my savior. I would be dead if he didn’t bring me to our pack. I owe him everything. He is my closest person.” I touched her cheek. “Now, I have you too. So, don’t be embarrassed. I asked Cam because he knew a lot about how to give women pleasure in bed. I wanted to ensure I would please you too.”

Lisa blushed. “I think we must start now before my fear takes over.”

“No need to hurry. I want you to enjoy our togetherness.”

Lisa stroked my cheek as she stared into my eyes. Her eyes filled with tears again. “If only it had never happened. I would be the happiest woman right now.”

“You can still be the happiest woman.”

“I want to give you my first time, as you wanted a virgin as your mate. But you got me instead ….”

“You are everything I want. At first, all I cared about was completing the mission. I owe everything to Cam and Alpha Horace. They gave me life, accepted me as their people.” I let out a sigh. “I can be here because of them. But then, I saw you. When my wolf confirmed you were my mate, I rejoiced because I could finally have you. To be loved and be with me for the rest of my life.”

Lisa sobbed. “Oh, Nate ….”

“I know we must wait for Alpha Fred and Bill’s blessings, but I always plan to mate after the marking ceremony. Would you mind if I tell you my words at the marking ceremony?”

She nodded and giggled in the middle of her sobbing. “It will be lovely.”

I took a blanket and wrapped Lisa. Then I said, “I, Nathanael Thorn, promise you, Lisa Shadow, to love and protect you for the rest of my life. I will chase your nightmare away. I can’t promise you the sun and the moon, but I will be there for you.”

Lisa stared at me. Her tears fell down her cheeks again. She was lovely, and I felt like we were in our marking ceremony.

I gulped, as it was hard to say anything. When I spoke later, it was hoarse. “In the real marking ceremony, I will bite your neck. But I can’t do it because I haven’t had your father and brother’s blessings. Can I bite the other part of your body instead?”

Lisa nodded. I opened the blanket and bent my head to bite her inner thigh. She gasped as I bit deep and sucked a little to heal the wound.

She blushed. Then she said, “I thought my life ended ten years ago. I lived without purpose, only to end days of shame, fear, and guilt. Yet you are the one who gives me hope.” Lisa sobbed. “I, Lisa Shadow, promise you, Nathanael Thorn, to love and care for you for the rest of my life. You are my life now, and I thank the Highest One for giving me you.”

Lisa’s trembling hands opened my trousers, and she kneeled to bite my inner thigh too. Then I pulled her to stand and kissed her.

“My mate, now you are mine. I feel like we have already had our marking ceremony.”

“So do I.”