Decripitude

Tonight... I shall see who the fuck is she meeting with. I'll catch her red handed and enquire her about everything that went wrong between us. I can't believe she's cheating on me... with a girl.

Did I do something stupid?

Is that other girl from the neighborhood?

I held the whiskey glass in my hand as the ice swirls around the smooth surface. The door was locked, I was in my office room beside hers. She was in there too. Normally, she would disturb me at least three times in an hour. But it's been three hours since I've locked myself in here and she doesn't even bother to check on me anymore.

It's over... it's done.

Just then, I hear a knock on the door. I see her body through the translucency of the glass. She was standing rather awkwardly.

Wiping my tears away, placing the whisky glass down, I begin to walk towards the door and answer it.

"What?" I ask her, she looks at me with a heartbroken expression. Straightening my posture, I open the door more than just a creak to peep my head out. She scans me top to bottom and looks at her watch.

Everything she does right now was skeptical to me.

"I'm going to get some late night snacks at the supermarket beside the colony. It's newly opened, available 24/7." She says.

"Okay. What should I do with that information?" I ask rudely. Her expression breaks as she looks down at her feet. I would hate myself for being so rude towards her, but she was paving the way out of my heart and reaching her hand towards someone else. Someone unknown.

"I was just trying to let you know..." suddenly, her voice cracks and she speaks so meekly that I regret being cold to her. She deserves it though, for what she's about to do to my poor heart.

"Okay." Saying, I turn away and enter back into my office. I sense her turning away on her heel, heading towards the door when I suddenly call out her name. I was standing in the middle of the hallway, my heart full of uneasiness.

"Ravine!" I call her out. My hand yearns for her, it was lifted up.

"Hmm?" She turns around.

"Don't... don't you have anything to say to me?" I ask her. If she has something to say... please God, make her come out to me.

I don't want to be heartbroken without being informed. The intensity will be too high for me. If she will leave me, let her enlighten me anyway and pursue what she loves.

I'm not selfish, God. In her case, I would never like to be selfish and keep her chained to me.

But I cannot accept the betrayal.

I know I've been in phases and had personalities she didn't like, she even loathed me becoming a mafia for that reason yet I kept doing things behind her back to disappoint her.

I swear... if that will keep her with me, I'll gladly become a saint.

She smiles, her eyes crinkling with pleasure as I feel my own eyes getting heavy with tears. So she does want to hurt me that way.

"Nothing!" She exclaims, jumping away like a child and closing the door behind herself.

I was left there, standing alone and swallowing my tears and sadness. She proceeded to give me the hard pill after all. I will never forgive you, Ravine.

Taking a deep shaky breath in, I look at the time from the mounted wall clock and see it was around midnight. She insisted to go to the supermarket, but I know she's on her way to the park, to meet that mysterious someone.

I can't bear to do this. I'll be heartbroken.

I can't follow her and finally come to the base of my speculations, that she was indeed cheating on me with a girl.

I'm... falling apart.

As I sat against the wall while bawling my eyes out, thinking about all our precious moments together, I hear the doorbell ring loudly.

I look at the unknown guest who invited themselves at this odd hour.

I begin to think that maybe it was Ravine and she wanted to introduce me to a new girlfriend in her life.

But no. I see through the peephole and discover it was Smyers in her disguise as she was biting her lip with anxiety. Wiping my tears away, I lick my chapped lips and open the door.

"Smyers. What's going on?"

"Boss... I'm sorry." She says, keeping her distance.

"It's okay. Where are they?"

"At the park..." I close my eyes in disappointment.

Closing the door behind myself, I follow Smyers with a weak heart and a weaker body which doesn't allow me to walk straight anymore.

Somehow, my heavy heart was melting and dissipating itself. It's almost like this breakup will cause me to lose myself completely.

The first time I had a girlfriend was like bliss to me. I loved her with all my passion but she had reasons to leave me. Now I love with more passion, and she leaves me for another woman too.

I definitely lacked something that the other woman had.

I can't figure out what I lacked, because I'm sure I gave her everything to make her happy.

As I was closer to the park's entrance, I fall to my knees and groan softly.

"Boss!" Smyers hisses, trying to hoist me up but I've given up on trying to confirm it myself.

I'll just disappear, write the house on her name so she can enjoy living in the mansion with her. She'll adopt some babies with her and raise them in there.

That'll be my parting gift to the only woman I love.

"Boss, get yourself together! Please!" Smyers tries to encourage me but I know I can't be encouraged with the state of mind I am in. She moves away when she smells my drunken breath.

"Oh god, I can't..." Smyers pulls herself against resisting me as I sit on the floor.

"Boss... aren't you angry with her?" Her question makes me chuckle.

"I can never be angry on Ravine. I know she's done it because she doesn't want to hurt me." I suddenly become delusional.

"Boss, get yourself together and ask her why she's done it. She must have a reason to tell you." I wonder...

"Okay..." Wiping my tears, I approach the entrance and slowly wall towards the centre.

Suddenly... all lights are turned off by a power cut in the colony.