Chapter 43

Thea's Point of View

I held Megan because I didn’t know what else to do with the weight of grieving inside of me. It felt as if a stone had embedded itself in my heart and refused to be removed.

“Sshhh!” Megan tried to comfort me when I couldn’t stop crying. She, too, sheds a tear because of how she sees me. Even if I didn’t want her to cry, I couldn’t do it since I couldn’t stop myself either. If I could turn back time, I would do it, so every day I could experience happiness.

Now that I think about it, I’m curious how Craig reacted when he found out I was pregnant. Was he upset because I had miscarried our child? Did he become enraged when he discovered I had a kid in my womb and didn’t inform him? Why, while I go through everything, does he seem to be unconcerned about our baby? Why can’t I see him in his sadness? Or do we have nothing in mind with him?

“Sorry.” I wiped the tears from my eyes, then slipped out of my hug with Megan. It was obvious in her eyes that she was sad for me.

I appreciate Megan as a person. Even when my memories were gone, I was happy that she was here with me. I got to laugh with her and tell stories, but it’s sad to think that I had to leave first to get back into the lost Thea.

“I’ve already decided.”

She looked at me, wondering. I took her hand and squeezed her fingers, then touched her stomach, which wasn’t quite obvious yet.

“I’m leaving the country.” I caressed it, then looked at it. “Don’t give your mommy a headache, okay?” I lifted my gaze now to Megan as her mouth was already open because of what I said. She was shocked, but I showed I was determined.

“Aren’t you just in a hurry? T-think it twice.”

Even if she tries to change my decision, it’s too late for that. I’ve been thinking about this for a long time, ever since Craig and I had a cloud in our relationship. I just couldn’t do it because of the number of things that happened.

“I need to get to know myself again, maybe there; I will understand better if what I did was right. I’ll be back when I’m complete again. I was destroyed by someone I didn’t even know.” I played with my nails and grinned as if something was funny at what I said. What kind of person would cry over someone she didn’t know in the first place?

“I will also return to the company after that. And I would like to ask for something ...” I knew that even though my mind wanted to refuse what I was going to request from her, my heart was fighting. “Please, always check Craig’s situation ... I wonder if he’s doing good or is he still miserable.” My tears never stopped as my voice broke. She did not speak and just listened. I took a deep breath to say that was the last thing I would ask of her.

“And please, don’t tell this to anyone.”

Craig's Point of View

“Mr. Holden!”

My secretary kept up with me as I walked quickly. I didn’t pause and went on my way to my workplace. I sat down and just stared at her, waiting for her to say anything.

“Mr. Holden,” she said. “Miss Felicity inquires whether she may speak with you later. She informed me she will wait for you at your and Mrs. Holden's home.” As she stated that, my secretary became jittery. I can’t blame her because I’m always so serious when she speaks to me. My heavenly face, which I only show to Thea because I don’t want to terrify her, is the only thing that’s difficult to keep up.

I grinned as I played with the pen in my hand, even though my secretary was still in front of me. It was great, and Thea missed all the doubts and accusations she could level at me. I try to avoid Felicity as much as possible because I don’t want Thea to join us in our fight. I don’t want to lose her... again.

I just hope there is still a time when I find out the truth. I just hope she’s still with me when I’m ready to tell her everything. I thought of all I could do to keep her by my side — to keep her from drifting away. If I could just tie her next to me, I would, but I can’t. She didn’t love me that way. We didn’t love each other in the way we had to chain one to keep the other.

So it upset me when I saw Wayne again. I’m not scared because there’s a secret being kept. I fear the possibilities because of what happened between them. As I played with the pen, I thought of what the doctor had said when she had the accident. So as much as possible, I try to protect the things I can.

Will I be able to cope without Thea?

“Sir?” My secretary slammed my desk to bring me back to trance. I looked at her and thought. I just got here now, then I have to go home again for something that isn’t important. I sigh. If it weren’t for mommy, I would have severed my connection with Felicity a long time ago.

“I’ll go. I will just finish the signature. If you can force her to leave the house, do it. Tell me if we can just meet outside. Thea will be angry with me if I let her into the house.” I picked up the paper on the side of my desk and signed. My secretary came out.

When I was done, I hurried home. I don’t talk to Thea much every morning because I go to work early, but I still know where she goes because I have a guard who follows her. Now she goes to the hospital, I’m still wondering because it seems like she goes to the hospital more often. Because I was afraid that Thea might catch up with Felicity, I hurried home.

Arriving home, the households were quiet. Felicity, sitting on the living room sofa, made me jump while the light was off. She turned to me with a smile while I had a serious face.

She can’t be here because Thea and I might fight, so I talked to her right away.

“You should’ve called me so we can meet outside. It’s not good that you just come to our house. Felicity, I understand how you feel about me but I am already married .... and we both know that I didn’t love you and what was I really felt for you back then.” I averted my eyes because I didn’t want to feel sorry for her again. Everything she did seemed to be just begging, while I was not aware that I was hurting my wife.

She smiled sadly, then looked at me. She stood up then took out the wine. I don't know where she got it. She showed it to me. “I’m going back to Paris.” She opened the wine, then poured it into the glass.

“Just share a drink with me, then I won’t bother you and Thea ever again.” She dropped the bottle of wine on the small table and walked over to me. She handed me the wine, but I just looked at it.

When she noticed I was determined not to take it, she took my hand and put it in there. She took another glass, then poured it for her. I was surprised when she suddenly walked upstairs carrying her bottle and glass.

She ran as she was already on the stairs. I stepped on it to follow her, but it was too late because she had already entered. Fearing that Thea would misunderstand what was happening, I directly talked to her.

“This is the last time we will meet and you will step on our house.” I immediately sipped the wine I was holding, then looked at her.

The position of her lips changed. She grinned at me and dropped the glass she was holding with wine on the floor and the bottle. It sounds on the floor. I was stunned at what she did, but before I could ask, my eyes were spinning.

She approached me but I tried to stay away. However, my body was changing its disposition, especially when she touched me. I no longer knew what was going on.

Just when she moved toward me, I could no longer see Felicity but Thea’s face.

I just came back to myself when Thea slapped Felicity with the purse she was holding. My eyes widened and I looked at the woman I was covering. The angry eyes and hateful look she had finally brought me back. How did this happen?

I stopped her from slapping Felicity again since I wanted no more issues. When she went out the door, I realized it was my last hope and the last time I’d seen her. My entire world appeared to come crashing down around me. I swiftly followed her, even though I was naked, and I glared bitterly at the woman in our room with me. I’m not sure I’ll be able to use this place again every time I remember my betrayal of Thea.

“I did not mean.” That was all I could think of since my mouth felt dry and my mind was blank. Even though I wanted to justify myself and say that I didn’t mean what occurred, no words came out of my mouth, no sentences formed in my head.

When she yelled at me, my world crumbled even further. I couldn’t help but lower my head because I had once again wounded and disappointed her. If only I dared to tell her everything, if only I had the opportunity to explain the truth, but when Felicity shoved Thea down the stairs, I knew my fractured connection with Thea was destroyed.

I tried to offer my hand to her, but it was clear from the expression that simply touching me disgusted her.

I pushed Felicity hard and lifted Thea’s body. I was shocked at the blood coming out. I turned pale to see her holding her stomach as if she was protecting it. I am a man and should not cry, but when it comes to Thea, I become weak. I can’t bear to see her like this. This is the second time. Am I the reason you are becoming miserable? Please, I’ll do whatever you want as long as you don’t just be like this.

Even to set you free, I will do it. Just please ... not like this.

Trembling, I started the car and had no idea how we’d gotten to the hospital. I only knew she was on a stretcher with wheels. I do not know where my phone is, and I have no idea who to call. I knew she wouldn’t be searching for me anymore if she ever opened her eyes. There were tears in my eyes when I sat down in one of the waiting chairs. I’m laughing at myself because I’m sobbing because of my stupidity.

Wayne, Ray, and Megan arrived just a few hours later. I’m not sure who called their number. Wayne’s enraged eyes welcomed me immediately. He threatened me and punched me, but I couldn’t fight back since I didn’t have the strength. Ray looked after us, but I was unconcerned about what they did to me. All I want to see is the state of Thea.

The operating room door slammed open, and the doctor exited. He took off his mask and looked around with sorrowful eyes. That was obvious to me immediately. Even though he hasn’t said anything, I’m certain.

Can someone smack me in the face for what I’ve done?

“Who is the patient’s relative?” He looked around and Megan quickly approached. Rayleigh followed. Wayne looked at me badly before he followed. I did not interpret them, but I could hear what the doctor said. All the hope I had accumulated earlier while waiting was gone.