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I understood Dina was angry with me she was right I had walked away from her in the worst way but what else could I do the closer I stayed to her the more my feelings towards her increased I just wanted to cause myself less pain but in doing so I lost Dina, a good friend, and my best friend died all of this I was not there.

It was an hour ago and Dina was still in the state she was in, not a drop of the gun from a psychological point of view this is not a good thing, she had taken refuge in her room, Elena was taking care of the children and Neo who was crying out for his mother's love unfortunately did not have any, it looked like Dina did not want to carry him anymore nor have any contact with her son, Moab's death has devastated her too much I slumped against the couch when Henry returned with Dina's family, he hadn't been able to come in time and it wasn't until today that I finally got up to greet them. Even Irma came, which was very surprising, her little girl had grown up well.

Dina's mother: hello son, where is Dina?

Me: hello mom she is in her room

Her: is she ok?

Me: uh no and it's quite understandable

Her: hey baby, I'm going to go see her

Me: yes, go ahead

Irma Watson

We entered the room with mom and we found Dina sitting on her bed with a different look, I had never seen my sister in this state, she had lost weight and seemed to be dried out. Mom and I sat down next to her but her eyes were still blank, she didn't even look at us.

Mom: Dina my baby

Dina did not answer and did not even look at her.

Mommy: Dina he said, this time putting his hand on Dina's hand

Dina reacted this time by putting her gaze on mom, in her eyes you could see something different, there was something really different.

Mom: are you ok?" she asked, placing her hand on Dina's cheek as she looked into her eyes.

Dina: I'm fine don't worry mom

Mom: how can you say that everything is fine when we can see that it is not fine at all

Dina: that's the way it is, we can't help it

Mom: Dina I can understand what you feel but ........

Dina: no you don't understand mommy...........No you don't understand says she almost shouting. You can't know what I feel mom, did you lose your husband? No it is not, I lost my husband mom, My husband, Moab is dead and he will never come back, did you see him here again? No, you had the grace to grow old with your husband and you still have the chance today to have him by your side, you still have the chance to hold him in your arms, to show him that you love him, to be able to spend time in his company, but I don't have this chance anymore, I DON'T HAVE HIM, for whom should I make myself beautiful now, who should I live for, Moab was my whole life he made it so happy, it's because of him that I graduated today, he gave me a reason to fight, he gave me his love and today, TODAY mom he is GONE WITHOUT me how am I going to educate Neo how, Moab is gone and so is my happiness. So mom you can't understand my pain, you can't. Moab's mother who spends all her time calling me a bad girl is right, I should never have entered her son's life, because I'm just a jinx, and strangely enough she may understand what I feel because she lost her husband but you people don't understand anything.

Mom: Dina, it's the will

Dina: BUT WHAT WILL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? Maybe in the eyes of this God we are just puppets and he can decide for us what we don't want. What hurts me the most is that I begged this God I begged him not to take my husband away from me, I begged him but nothing mom, he didn't answer my pleas, so what...........mom I have nothing......... NOTHING............ABSOLUTELY NOTHING says she while starting to cry seriously

I looked at my sister and I had tears in my eyes why this happened to her it is true that I always wanted her to have married Moab but I did not want that it arrives to her, she is so pitiful.

The evening

Everything was quiet and Henry, Elena and Amir had each gone home, mom and I stayed while dad and Amir went out for an errand.

22h

It was 10pm and everyone had gone to bed Amir and I in the living room, dad and mom in the guest room and Dina in her room I took my daughter and covered her well before falling asleep in my turn.

Dina Malick Sankara

In that room everything reminded me of Moab the bed, the smell, the clothes everything absolutely everything, I was so sick to my stomach that I didn't even have the strength to cry, Moab was really gone and my happiness with it, my pain was indescribable, now that he wasn't there anymore how was I supposed to live, I didn't have any desire to start over. I could not continue to support this atrocious pain it was necessary to make it stop, I had to join my husband in the country of the dead thus I did not feel anything any more.

I went as if possessed to the kitchen once out of my room, I took a knife and I went back inside my room that I locked after which I went to the bathroom opened the water and let it flow on my heart.

Moab was everything to me, he accepted me and loved me as I was, he made my life better and today without him I am lost I would rather die than bear his absence, I can't take it anymore it's much, much too hard.

I looked carefully at the knife and directed it towards the veins of my hand, I did not hesitate to open my veins, the blood started to flow and I found satisfaction in my act

it is the end

1h30

Irma Watson

I had woken up with a nightmare, I was going to take some water and sat on a chair, I wondered if Dina was sleeping, maybe we could talk, or maybe I could listen to her, but she certainly won't talk. I was going to knock on the door anyway since it was locked. I put my ears on the door to see if there was any noise in the room, I just heard the sound of water, Dina takes a shower at 1 o'clock? maybe she was just hot.

Thirty minutes had passed and I decided to go and see if she had finished but I heard the same sound of water that, it was weird really too weird so I went to wake up Amir who was sleeping and told him what was going on.

Him: aren't there the duplicate keys?

Me: I don't know.

Him: Let's try to find them

We started to look for the keys and there were none, we had to break down the door, Amir took a hammer and hit the door with it, then he broke it down, we arrived in the room, no trace of Dina in the room, we opened the shower door when we saw a big pool of blood, and further away Dina's body slumped on the floor.

Me: oh my God

Amir: But what have you done Dina?

We quickly tied a dress and Amir carried her to the exit to go to the hospital, I woke up my parents and took my little girl in my arms, we went to the hospital.

To Follow.............