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Fuck....

I held her tightly in my torso while I was still inside her and she started shaking like crazy. "Ethan..." she moaned softly and I tasted the blood in my mouth and only then did I realize the wound I had inflicted on her.

I didn't know what to say and held her rigidly, but she started to pull away from the hug and sat down in front of me, cupping her hand over the wound. "What was that supposed to mean?" she asked me with wide, shocked eyes and I saw the first tears running from her eyes.

"Yeah," I whispered, wanting to take her hand, but she angrily slapped it away and grabbed her clothes and panicked into the bathroom. "Shit!" I cursed and pulled off the condom, which I threw into the small trash can next to me and then quickly got dressed as well.

Before I could pull on my jeans, Jo came stomping out of the small bathroom and grabbed her thin black leather jacket to tearfully pull on. "Yeah, wait-" "No!" she yelled at me, yanking her jacket aside by the shoulder so I could see the blood and bruise. "See that? It hurts like hell! What were you thinking, hurting me like that? Were you trying to humiliate me?"

Her usually strong voice broke and I saw the pain in her eyes. I cursed my inner wolf, my urges, and my irrationality, but before I could finish myself off any further, she hurried past me to the door.

"Please let me explain," I begged, but she just glared at me with a withering glare. "There is nothing to clarify. You got what you wanted, now leave me alone!" She got out and slammed the door so hard that even I cried. I wanted to follow her, but the door didn't open anymore and looking out the window I saw how she put the key in front of the door that Jayden disappeared into yesterday.

I turned and looked for another way out and sighted the skylight above me and I jumped up, pulling myself up a bit, but lost my footing and slammed my head on the edge of the table so hard I could do it lost consciousness.

Cool air swept over my bare chest while the sun shone through the window above me, blinding me so much I had to squint my eyes several times to see anything.

"What have you done?!" Chiara yelled at me and I heard her grit her teeth angrily afterwards. My head was pounding and I only felt pain, especially because of her shrill, annoying voice that went through my bones and bones. "I asked you something!" she continued bitching and I got up to finally shut her up.

"You always have to meddle in things that don't give you a shit!" I snapped back, painfully holding my head to sit down on the narrow bench at the table. It was only now that I noticed her, standing there in my best friend's dark blue sweater and crossed her arms crossed across her chest.

"Obviously someone has to do it! It smells like blood here and you're half-naked! There's no trace of Jo! So, what happened?!", she asked and didn't stop staring at me.

"She slept with me and then ran away," I mumbled, watching her blush and clench her fists in anger. "You deflowered her?!" she yelled, lightly slapping my shoulder. "No! She wasn't a virgin anymore!"

She gave me a confused look and then looked down at the blankets where you could still see drops of blood. "Then why is everything here... Oh my God! You're not serious!", she said loudly with a trembling voice and I prepared myself for her to jump at my throat, but instead she ran to the door and took a deep breath.

"Jayden!!!" she yelled for her mate, who also immediately came to us in the mobile home worried. The toothbrush was still in his mouth while he looked at us in amazement. "That utterly idiotic idiot tagged Jo!", she explained in bewilderment, while Jayden smiled at me.

"You dog," he grinned and was about to give me a high five, but Chiara pulled his hand back. "Are you okay?" she snapped at him and even though I never agreed with her about anything, this time she hit the nail on the head. I knew I had screwed up and covered my face in desperation as the apocalypse of relationship strife erupted beside me.

"He had to do it anyway?!" "Oh, just like you did with me?!" "Yes, Chiara, that's how wolves are!" "But she's not a wolf, Jayden!"

I tried to ignore them as best as I could, but they were too loud and argumentative for that, but suddenly everything around me fell silent and I only heard the sweet voice of the woman I had hurt so much.

"Please help me."

I threw the trailer key in front of Jayde's room door and just ran across the street into the open, dark field, at least far away from him.

Why does this always happen to me? I yelled and blamed myself internally as the warm tears tumbled unstoppably down my cheeks.

How could something that started out so good end up so wicked? Was I exaggerating? Did I find it unacceptable because my ex kept mistreating me? No! I was perfectly right to flee. It was my feelings that got hurt and I finally had to stop blaming myself. If I had started earlier not to always let everything be done with me, then maybe something would have become of me. Not a homeless woman giving in to a stranger just to feel wanted.

Ethan, the man who made me feel so much and at the same time the one who wasn't ashamed to hurt me like this. But he couldn't know that I had already experienced violence and it wasn't a bite out of passion. It was just torture he put me through.

Exhausted, I stopped at a tree that was otherwise only surrounded by endless fields and pulled my jacket aside to take a look at this injury again. Oddly enough, it didn't look like it was human, more like an animal's footprint and I was thinking about that animal sex again and getting a pleasant tingling sensation in my abdomen.

"Stop it!" I yelled at myself as my mind drifted back to this breathtaking experience and then stomped furiously through the darkness again. I would definitely come out on a road at some point and then it would be a piece of cake for me to steal a new car and run away.

I ran a little more and then had to take a break again because I was already starting to sweat and was getting incredibly hot, even though it was so cold at the same time that my hands were already shaking. I felt like I was getting weaker and in a panic I knelt down and felt the throbbing in the crook of my neck.

Did he have rabies? Or AIDS? What have I done... I started crying bitterly again and fell over weakly on my side while I thought about what kind of illness he had brought me. Maybe he had mixed drugs into me too? But how? I had neither eaten nor drunk anything.

Hours must have passed as I lay on the cold field ground, the darkness threatening to suck me in, while my forehead grew hotter and my body only sweated.

Go back! I suddenly heard a soft voice, as if the wind was blowing it through my hair and I struggled to get up again and was sure that it was just my imagination until it came back and got louder.

I had gone insane or else I was asleep and had just imagined it all. With all my strength I pinched my arm and closed my eyes, but nothing changed except that the sun was slowly rising on the horizon. run!!! Suddenly the voice yelled so loudly that she got up in fear and turned around.

I didn't give a shit now if he had bitten me, I wanted to get away and kept tripping while getting so dizzy I had trouble not falling over, but I just kept walking and walking because the creepy voice was supposed to go away.

After a while, confused by all this madness, I finally saw the trailer at the small motel, but given my weakness, it would probably take me hours to get there.

I wiped the sweat from my forehead with an effort and walked carefully step by step. I was feeling so bad by now that I knew I wouldn't be able to get up if I fell over now.

After what felt like an eternity, I arrived at the street with relief and felt my heart beating hard against my ribs while every muscle in my body spasmed. The sun did me more bad than good, because it blinded me so much that my head threatened to explode.

Not far from the trailer, I heard Chiara's voice, loud and angry, but I still managed to smile because I'm sure she would do anything to help me.

I pulled myself together for the last few meters and then stumbled up the stairs of the trailer to see Jayden's startled gaze fixed on me.

"Help me, please!" I whispered with the last of my strength and then let myself fall into his arms.