The Confession

At school, I saw Jake, but he just ignored me. I guess I made him very angry this time.

I couldn't stop thinking about our kiss. I've never thought someone would kiss me like that. It was so passionate and so...hot. My entire body shook with awareness every time I remember how soft his lips felt and the way his tongue caressed the inside of my mouth. Ugh, who knew a kiss could turn me on this much and make a mess of me. I wanted more.

Screw you, Jake, for making me feel this way, I thought.

I guess I should be relieved since the whole ordeal drove Jake away from me. He was ignoring me instead of bothering me now. But why do I feel this pressure in my heart?

I saw him hanging out with Jenny Patterson at the cafeteria. Our eyes met for a brief second, but he glared at me and brought his attention back to Jenny. He picked up a lock of her hair and twirled it around in a flirty manner.

Jealousy welled up inside of me. That bastard was purposely trying to hurt me now!

I saw him leaning down and what it looks like, kissing her neck. Oh, hell no...

I picked up my pizza on a tray and strode over in their direction. I pretended to go to the table behind him, but I purposely tripped and dropped the entire slice of pizza on top of Jenny's head on the way to the table.

"Ugh! Gross! What the hell is the matter with you!" she squealed.

"Oh nooo! Your shiny golden locks! Oopsie, my bad," I feigned shock and gasped and kept walking.

Okay, I'll admit it. That was totally mean and unnecessary toward Jenny. She is just a poor, innocent girl who happened to like my Jake.

Wait, did I just call him my Jake? I must've gone insane.

Jenny ran off to wash her hair, so I just kept walking until I disappeared from Jake's view, but not before I caught him staring at me intently. Did he suspect me? But I didn't want to wait and find out.

When school was over, I went to see Aaron since I promised him I'd hang out with him. We went to a fast-food restaurant to grab some lunch. I felt guilty being here with him after that kiss with Jake. But at the same time, it's not like Jake and my relationship would go anywhere anyway.

"Are you okay?" Aaron asked.

"Yeah...sorry I just got distracted, you were saying?" I said. My mind was still filled with the thoughts of Jake.

"Nothing, you wanna get out of here?" he asked.

"Yeah, sure. Where?" I asked.

"How about my house? We haven't had any alone time since the dance," he said.

"Um..okay," I agreed distractedly.

I regretted coming to his house as soon as I arrived. What if I run into Jake? He lived here too. Ugh, why did they have to be brothers?

"I really like you, Jane. I think you are a great girl," Aaron said after a moment.

"Ehh...thank you, you are pretty amazing yourself," I said awkwardly.

Aaron chuckled. "I am glad you think so," he said and leaned in to kiss me.

I suddenly felt guilty. I couldn't deceive Aaron like this. Even if nothing is going on between Jake and me, Aaron deserved to know the truth.

"Wait, I can't. I have to tell you something," I said.

"What is it?" his eyes were full of worry.

"I...well...Jake..." I could find the right words.

"What about Jake? Did he do something to you? I swear I am gonna kil-..."

"We kissed!" I couldn't hold it anymore.

"Sorry, what?" Aaron asked.

"J..Jake kissed me the other night, and I kissed him back," I repeated.

Aaron didn't say anything for a moment. Maybe my sudden outburst rendered him speechless. I wouldn't blame him if he gets angry at me and never speaks to me again.

"I am really sorry, Aaron," I said.

"So, do you like Jake?" he asked.

"Honestly? I don't know. He confuses me. He was the one who made a move on me. I should've pushed him away. I should've smacked him for planting that kiss on me without warning, but I just couldn't," I said.

"I told you he liked you, Jane, but you didn't believe me," Aaron shook his head.

"I still don't believe it!" I cried. "I am pretty sure he is just trying to mess with my head, trying to get a rise out of me," I said.

"Why would you think that?" Aaron asked.

"Do you really have to ask? You know how he is! He changes girlfriends like socks if it even gets that far. What if he just wants to use me for sex? I couldn't do it. I refuse to," I declared.

"Yeah, I get that," he agreed. "Is that it?" he asked.

"What do you mean?" I looked at him quizzically.

"A kiss? That's all you did?" Aaron asked.

"Y...yeah?" I hesitated. I couldn't tell him about the burning passion I felt from that heated kiss. It felt a lot more than just a kiss.

"I guess then don't worry about it. Just get past it and move on," Aaron shrugged.

"What? That's it? Aren't you mad?" I asked.

"Of course, I am a little mad. But I really like you, Jane. I am not gonna just give up on you," he grinned.

I was a little taken aback by his declaration. Not exactly the reaction I expected from him. But then again, Aaron was also popular with girls when he was in high school. Maybe that's why he doesn't think a kiss is a big deal.

"What about Jake?" I asked.

"What about him? Did he ask you out?" Aaron looked at me curiously.

"No...after I told him I didn't want to move any farther, he got mad at me and left me alone," I said.

"Then he is no threat to me. Besides, he is my brother. He had always been impulsive and temperamental. He probably kissed you on a whim and forgot about it once it was over. So don't worry about him," Aaron said.

Easy for him to say that. Even if it didn't mean anything to Jake, it meant something to me. But if Jake doesn't want anything to do with me, I have no choice but to try and move past it.

"I guess you are right," I said quietly.

Aaron leaned forward and cupped my cheek. "I can tell you aren't fully into me yet but don't worry, I'll win you over," he said and gazed into my eyes with those intense green eyes of his. I didn't realize he was that serious about me, and that scared me a little. Something told me I don't want Aaron to get angry.

But what about how I felt with Jake? How can I just forget about it?