Chapter 18 Avenge Yourself

Avenge Yourself

Nikolai

"I thought I told you not to do anything until your hands heal completely," I told Ava as I entered the kitchen and saw her cooking.

"I thought you told me I can do anything I want." She said quietly, not looking at me.

Her answer pissed me off, I wanted to protect her, take care of her and here she was, either demanding punishments or hurting herself like this. I didn't reply to her. I decided to leave, I was not going to sit back and watch this shit.

"Nikolai, please have your breakfast." I heard her soft voice call out.

"I'm not hungry." I gritted and went to my office.

The words 'they all are coming for you were floating in my mind. It was just Emilio González, who was all? Maybe the Red moon Pack and the Montaña Pack planned a joint attack but then both Emilio and Alfredo had big egos to go to each other for help and they hated each other too.

It suddenly clicked, up-till now only the heads of the warriors have come to spy, non of the high rankers of the Montaña Pack.

He has announced rewards for those who get information!

The rewards would either be monetary or give them higher ranks. That is why the low ranks have come and not the ones who already have those advantages.

I called my men to the office. All of them were here in two minutes.

"Did you figure out what he meant?" Mikhail asked once he saw my tense form.

I forced myself to relax and gave a sharp nod.

"He has not made it into a full-out war as we thought. He has not even involved the high rankers. Yet." I smirked. This was about to get interesting.

"Yet?" Dimitri cocked his head.

"He has set all of his low rankers to get information on us first. And if my assumption is correct, he wants to find a weak spot or crucial information that he can target to make the Rogue Pack fall." I finished as I looked at each of my men and relaxed back in my chair.

Dimitri took a glass and started pouring himself some bourbon. He looked at my unamused expression and shrugged. I rolled my eyes.

"We can plant fake information," Andrei suggested.

"But we cannot let them get too close to sniffing out informing. A warning should be given." Dimitri smirked as he gulped the last part of his drink. I nodded at that.

"Sofiya and Luna need more protection. We are only as strong as our weakest links. And if anyone comes to know they mean something to us- that Avalyn is the Luna, she will have a target on her back." Vladimir said.

I narrowed my eyes at him. Our women were not weak but it was fucking true. They will hurt Ava to hurt me. And she was my Achilles heel.

"I want information on the Montaña pack heads, warriors, Deltas, and the clubs." I gritted.

"Here." Natalia threw the file on my desk as she strutted in.

"You are late, get out," I growled. I do not tolerate attitude when it is work.

"But I want to help Nikolai." She pouted and stomped her heels.

"Alpha Nikolai. And I have a different mission for you." I corrected and gave her a wicked smile. She gulped.

"I want you in office number six at five pm sharp. Now get the fuck out of here." I hissed. She bowed her head and backed out. Every time she came back from her mission, it was like her ego inflated a thousand times more. She needed a mate who will get her in line.

I opened the file and saw the list of everything I had just asked about the Montaña Pack and some other details. I took out my marker and circled the ones that were moderately important, it was enough to warn them but not enough to declare war. If I have to win, I have to play the game with the devil.

"I want these wolves dead and their eyes scooped out of their head. Let this be a message for all of them- whatever reward they will receive from Alpha González for spying is not worth their lives. Our men will leave at one am and I want everything done by four am. I want this to be a very discreet mission, send our best and trusted men. I want it quick and efficient. They won't mess with us for a long time after this." I ordered them.

"Yes, Alpha." Vladimir nodded. "I will go with the men."

"I will too," Andrei said and I nodded.

We then made a detailed plan about what to do and how to execute it. There was no room for mistakes.

"The false information?" Dimitri asked.

"That will be after we deal with these assholes. It will keep them on edge about what to do." I said. Dimitri smiled gleefully at the thought.

"Brief Natalia on the situation and make sure she loses that attitude of hers or else she can leave," I told Mikhail and he nodded.

"Start preparing the men for tonight. I will not tolerate mistakes. We are done here." I said in a dismissive tone.

Avalyn

I felt so guilty, he got angry because of me and missed his breakfast and lunch. Sofiya was constantly telling me that I shouldn't care so much, it's his stomach and he will eat when he is hungry and not to give in just because he 'has his panties in a notch'. But I still left bad, he cared that's why he told me to not cook and I talked back to him because I was angry at him, I was being a brat.

"Sofiya!" I heard a girl call her.

"Oh my god!" Sofiya saw her and ran to hug her.

"I swear to god, no one tells me anything these days. When did you come? How long are you here for? Are you all well? How did the last mission go?" Sofiya asked in one breath, looking very happy to see that girl. She was very pretty.

"Let me meet Luna first." She smiled at her and came towards me. I grew nervous, I always was when I met new people.

"Hey, I'm Natalia." She smiled and rubbed her cheeks against mine.

"I'm Avalyn." I smiled shyly and she nodded. She was even leaner than Sofiya.

"So I'm here for a month and then I have to go on another mission and I'm good and my last mission went well." She answered all of Sofiya's questions.

"Hmm, that's good I guess." Sofiya nodded.

"You don't stay here?" I asked Natalia.

"Nope, I don't really stay anywhere, I go where Alpha needs me to go and get the job done for him." She told me. I nodded, I felt a bit bad for her, she didn't have a permanent place to call home.

"Let's go for swimming, I know I'll win the race this time and we have a lot to catch up on," Sofiya said tugging at both our hands.

"I'll come next time, you both should go ahead, I have...a meeting at five. I don't want to be late." She smiled at us.

"But it's not even four." Sofiya frowned.

"I need time to prepare. Have fun both of you. Nice meeting you Luna." She waved at us and walked away.

"Come on, we can still go swim." Sofiya shrugged and after changing into our bikinis, we got in the pool.

"Can you tell me about Natalia?" I asked her. I wanted to be her friend and I wanted to know what she liked and what she didn't for that.

"Natalia is a sweet girl. She is also a Volkov and she has had a rough past. Nikolai had found her as a captive in some pack and the guys helped her. She doesn't talk much about it I know it made her what she is today." Sofiya said seriously.

"What is she today?" I asked, feeling bad for Natalia, I knew how being a captive felt and I hated that so many people have gone through it.

"Don't tell anyone but sometimes I feel like she enjoys pain. We were training once and I hit her a bit too hard and I cracked her ribs but it seemed like instead of wincing, she savored it." She whispered to me and my eyes widened.

"Is it because of her being a captive?" I asked her. I knew firsthand how being different from others felt like, that we should not judge people because of it.

"Maybe. I'm not saying that it is bad, I love her with all my heart just like I love you, she is my best friend and sister. I told you because I knew you would understand and not judge her or get scared if you see her around doing something weird." She gave me a small smile.

I nodded at her, it made sense. Sofiya didn't have a mean bone in her body and she would never gossip or judge anyone like that. She told me because I asked and we had decided yesterday night that we would have no secrets and be honest with each other.

We swam and chatted for some time before we got out.

I wanted Nikolai to at least have some snacks so I quickly showered and then decided to go to his office and feed him myself and even apologize for the morning.

I went towards the office area in the mansion with a tray full of food. I had never been here before but someone could help me out. I saw a guard standing out of a door and went towards him.

"Is Alpha Nikolai in there?" I asked him and he nodded.

"I'm sorry but you are not allowed inside, Luna." He told me.

"Are you sure that included me too? Please I just need a minute." I pleaded with him. I knew Nikolai wouldn't say no to me. He was looking at me nervously but I ignored it and opened the door softly.

"Open your knees wider. I need to be able to see your pussy. And don't think I will let go of your attitude in the morning, you will be punished." I heard Master growl.

I opened the door wider to see Master leaning on the front of the desk and an almost naked Natalia kneeling on the floor. Tears quickly filled my eyes and the tray in my hands slipped from my hands and fell on the floor. Master looked at the door to see me and his eyes widened at my sight. I ran away from there before he could say anything.

"Avalyn stop," Master commanded me but I didn't stop and turned around the corner. I didn't want him to catch me. I didn't want anyone to catch me. I want to be invisible for some time.

I didn't know where I was but somehow I reached downstairs and I ran to the beach, the same place where Nikolai and I had spent the night in each other's arms.

I cried freely here, no one was here to see me, no one knew I was here and no one had seen me come here. I wanted to be alone right now. It hurt so much to think that he didn't like me anymore, he was leaving me. Maybe he thought that I was too fucked up and he was tired of my nightmares and dealing with me.

I cried for the burning hole in my chest that was growing deeper and deeper. I cried for not being better for him. I cried because he became her Master and not mine. I cried because I was not enough for him, I mourned for the loss of Nikolai, of my Master. I cried and sobbed because I thought that my Master would be with me forever, that he told me I was his mate.

I love him but he doesn't love me back. I cried silently though, I had a practice of not making a sound and it was coming in use now. I didn't want anyone to find me. I had never felt this kind of hurt before, all the physical blows were nothing compared to the growing pain in my heart.

Why does it hurt so much?

It felt like my heart would burst out and I would die. I couldn't breathe, my lungs were burning. I wanted to die, there was no point in living if my mate, my savior didn't want me. I felt nothing but pain and for the first time, instead of feeling like 'at least I'm alive' I felt like I'm dying.

I wanted my papa back who I loved very much and who loved me back, I wanted my mom back who I never had the chance to meet, I wanted Mrs. Maria back who let me cook with her and loved me like I was her daughter, I wanted Viktoria back who was there with me for a short while but had been a mother to me. All the people that I loved and loved me back died, maybe I was cursed. Maybe Master realized that and decided to leave me. There was no point in living anymore.

It was dark now and I could hardly see anything anymore but I saw the water and suddenly, I knew what to do now.

I got up from where I had been hiding and started walking towards the water. I remembered Master said that going far ahead in water can float people away because of the waves or something similar. I stepped in the water and it was freezing but instead of flinching, I welcomed the pain, it dulled the pain in my heart.

I kept walking ahead, till the water reached my knees and then thighs and then waist, hoping to flow away, it would be a good death, I would finally be 'free' as Nikolai always wanted me to be. He didn't understand that if I was free, I could do what I want and I wanted to serve him.

He doesn't understand me, no one does.

The water had reached below my breasts and I finally felt the force of the water that swayed me. I was having a hard time moving ahead so I tried to use my hands and legs to move further but the waves were pushing me back. I waited for a wave to pass and then move forward but this wave was a big one and went over my head, effectively downing me. I was pulled further into the water and I made no attempt to swim to the surface.

I was still floating in the water and everything felt so peaceful. My heart didn't hurt anymore. I finally felt free. My eyes were drooping but then I saw something- no, someone.

Papa was standing with a lady. Mama! They were smiling and motioning me to come closer to them. I tried hard to swim closer to him but I could hardly move. I could see the smile on Papa's face disappearing.

NO!

Why was he not smiling anymore? I need to see him smile. I want him happy, I am going towards him. I'll finally meet Mama too.

When I finally managed to reach near him, I extended my arms to hug him but he disappeared. And in his place, I saw the devil with claws extended, grinning at me wickedly. His claws had blood on them.

Papa's blood.

A scream tore through my throat and I backed up, trying to swim away from him.

"Avenge your family, Princesa. Avenge yourself, my strong child." I heard Papa whisper in my ear but when I turned around to look at him, there was no one near me, only the dark endless ocean.

And then everything went black.