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Chapter 12
On the trip I was just quiet while looking out the window and observing the busy city.
I let my own mind wander somewhere again. I don't know why, but I find this moment perfect to think about things.
even if there is no traffic today the amount of vehicles and people scattered on the road is still obvious.
I wonder when will this city become quite and peaceful just like in the province.
what would this city look like if criminals weren’t rampant, if no one was killing on the sidewalks? If there is no polluted air? If establishments and sprawling and towering buildings are just trees? Maybe, it would be as peaceful as a province. the fun maybe live like that. Your type when you have a problem in life and you feel tired, you just come out of your house and then you see beautiful flowers and dancing trees and grass to the accompaniment of the breeze. your naturally beautiful song of birds you will hear. Ah, the things that I like everytime I feel broke and sad.
I wonder if this city became a province a long time ago ... is that accident will happened? Or are things will became just like this?
Maybe it's not. maybe, the accident wouldn't happen, mama won't get mad at me, papa wouldn't be sick, and lastly Ariel wouldn't die ... how I wish that this City has peace since day 1.
The mere thought of Ariela and the accident that happened to us a long time ago gives me a heart ache. It's breaking me bit by bit. and it's making me want to cry million of tears.
The memory is stilk fresh in my mind ... I can still clearly remember how Ariela scream and how—
"What are you thinking?" Aius suddenly broke the silence, which caused me to stop whatever I was thinking.
something I am grateful for. Because if he hadn't spoken, my mind might have gone somewhere else. Maybe it will come back to haunt me for a long time.
But no matter how deep I bury it in my mind, the memory stilk hunts me. i remembered those sleepless nights I have.
I was immediately shaken in my mind. Here I inherit and think about what happened then.
"Just something." sparingly I reply to Aius, after a while.
"Like?" he asked.
but I didn't even answer that when I saw a group of young people smoking, carrying alcohol and whatnot that they seemed to be going to use in a fight.
I stared there, especially when Aius' car stopped because there was a vehicle parked in front of his car.
I used to be liked them. I used to smoke, drink and fight around, way back my highschool to first year college days.
not until that accident happened, or did I called it right? Is it an accident or not?
I gasped.
But I was just as shocked when I looked at which was the biggest man in the group of young people. he stared at me as if he knew what was on my mind and as if he was planning something bad for me. My heart was immediately filled with strange nervousness and fear.
I seem to feel the fear I felt before. the fear that I have long struggled to forget and run away from.
But my fear doubled when I suddenly saw him grin at me like crazy while staring at me.
I can already feel my body shaking, my hands are getting cold and I'm sweating from the cold even though I can't get wet in the car. I can already feel the heat in my eyes because of the tears.
and the tears I was holding back from shedding finally fell as the man grabbed one of his companions, causing them all to look at me.
"Hey ... what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Aius asked me worriedly.
I turned to him, and in a trembling voice I forced myself to tell him what I wanted to say.
"D-d-drive the car !!" my voice trembled when I said that.
"W-why? What's wrong? What are you looking at out there?" he asked me a confused question.
but I could not tell him the reason. I just shook and kept sobbing. "I said..drive the car!"
"Okay, okay. Just stop crying already, your giving me goosebumps!" After he said that, he finally started his car.
I just kept crying in my seat. I looked in the side mirror and saw the men still staring at our moving car. Something that made me cry even more.
I'm scared, I have trauma to people like them. I'm scared.
"Here." Aius handed me a handkerchief which I immediately accepted, I was still shaking. Whatever I kept my body from trembling with fear I could not do.
The feeling years ago is coming back again. It's haunting me again.
I felt our car stop so I peeked out the window.
We are on the side of the road. There isn't much traffic on this part of the highway so I'm sure we're safe here and we won't interfere with other vehicles passing by.
Aius got out of the car and I wondered he followed the gaze until he reached my side.
He opened the door on my side and held out his hand to me, as if he was suggesting that I take it.
"Come on out." he calmly told me.
astonished I could do nothing but accept his hand with my trembling hands.
As soon as I got out of his car I hugged him and let myself cry and sob in his chest.
he did nothing else in the moments I cried but to greet me and gently pat my back.
"Shh ... stop crying." he whispered to me. I didn’t answer him and I just kept crying.
"Sariel, listen ... stop crying now, okay? I got you.he isn't worth your tears. "He continued to comfort me.
But I couldn't stop crying instead I just cried harder because the pain I was feeling increased.
I remember what Jared did to me again, at the same time my memory comes back to what happened then, a few years ago.
"It hurts, Aius." sobbing I said to him. "This time I'm referring to what Jared did to me.
"Shh ... he's not worth your tears, stop crying, Sariel. I already told you." he continued to comfort me.
'S-sariel, run!'
"Ahhhhhhhh !!!!!" My shrill cry suddenly entered a memory in my mind. Ariela's voice. Here it is again and chasing me. "Ahhhhh !!!"
"Hey, what's wrong?" Worried that Aius was really questioning me.
"I'm scared, Aius." I confess the truth to him. I don’t know why, but all of a sudden I heard that voice of Ariela’s.
Aius hugged me for a tight hug. reason for our bodies to stick together even more. I could feel her heart beating so hard.
And I don't know what's in her heartbeat but when I felt it on my cheek I felt my body gradually calm down.
just a few minutes later I finally stopped crying, as well as my body was shaking.
Aius felt that so he left me, and then wiped my face.
He smiled softly at me and then arranged the hair that covered my face.
"You're okay now?" He calmly asked me.
I nodded.
"Then let's go, you haven't been to your dinner meeting."
Ah, dinner meeting. I forgot about that, lost it in my mind because of the amount that happened today. and I don't know if I can make it to the meeting with my situation right now.
I 'm tired. Emotionally and physically.
And right now, at this moment, I just want to lie down on the bed and sleep so that I can rest my mind and my body.
a few more minutes we stayed out of the car we re -entered and continued the flight.
I just stared at my hands while on the flight and thought about everything that had happened throughout the day. Until I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep ...
To be continued....












