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It's been three weeks since that night, and in that span of three weeks, Aius manage to soften my son's heart. I can see that slowly, my son is getting attached to his father, and I'm happy for them. I'm happy that somehow my son is getting along with his father, he's slowly opening his heart for his father. This is something that I am happy and thankful for because I can see that Aius is making a lot of efforts to win our son's heart.

Aius, on the other hand is still trying his best to get me back. Everytime he goes home from work, he always have a bouquet of flowers for me, sometimes a box of chocolates, cakes and cupcakes and anything that I used to like before. Just like todat, he got me again a bouquet of green rose.

And I would lie if I say that I'm not affected and I'm not falling for him again, but then as what I've told I can't love him again, I just can't. I'm still guarding my heart from a heartbreak.

"I told you, Aius, you really don't have to give me flowers every damn day, you see I don't have a vase to put in." I just sigh.

"Come on, love. I told you before, I will court you again, I will take it back. I'll prove to you that I deserve a second chance, our relationship deserves a second chance, and then let's get married, Sariel, we should make it work— "

"On paper, Aius. We just got married on paper, and we also got married for our son, not because of our feelings because it's still clear in the mineral water that we no longer feel for each other. I don't love you anymore and I also know that you don't love me as well, stop pretending, and stop being so trying hard, stop this crap of act, I'm tired of it. " annoyed I said, but then as I looked into his eyes, I felt guilty the moment I saw pain crossed his eyes.

"A-aius, I ... I'm so—"

"Yeah, whatever you say. I won't put an argument with you, or try to explain to you all over again that my feelings for you are real, that my actions towards you are all real, 'cause why would I explain if you'll still believe whatever you want to believe, you never listen to me, anyway. But please, Sariel. Just please, let me do whatever I want to do, let me still court you, and please, I'm begging I don't care if you believe my feelings towards you or not, but please stop saying that I'm just faking it, because it damn hurts. I accepted it already that you don't love me anymore, but please stop saying it infront of my face, it's killing me inside. " he said languidly then turned his back on me as if he could no longer prolong my presence.

"I'll just go out to breathe, I'll be back. I'm sorry." he said before finally walking out the door.

My heart immediately writhed in pain. "No, stop it, Sariel. Stop being affected. Stop your heart." I am weakly hostile to myself.

"Why are you crying, mommy? Did daddy hurt you?" I was just shocked when I heard our son's voice.

"W-what? No baby, your dad didn't hurt me. It's just nothing." I quickly dried my tears with my palm, I didn't even realize that I was crying.

"Okay, but if daddy hurts you and makes you cry again, just tell it to me." Aider's bold answer caused me to laugh a little.

"Alright, come here lunch is ready." I lead Aider.

The whole day passed by, without Aius presence, and it's already ten in the evening, yet he's still not here. I'm starting to get worried.

I was worried because I called everyone I could call just to find out where he was, but they didn't know all their answers. Even mama andra doesn't know where he is.

I'm fucking worried sick, I know it's my fault. If I just didn't tell him words like that then, he wouldn't go out.

"Fvck, where have you been, Aius?" worried I said as I went back and forth in the living room. Damn it!

A few more hours passed and it was twelve in the morning but he was still gone, my heart was really nervous. I was so worried that I just thought of looking for him, because maybe that's where he went, or maybe he had an accident.

The anxiety I felt was further increased as the heavy rain began to pour down. Damn it!

Quickly I took the car key to the coffe table, and then put on a jacket, I'll find him. I said to myself resolutely.

But then, I was about to open the front door when I heard a car park outside. Peering out the window I saw Aius raining outside and opening the gate.

"Damn, where the hell have you been, Aius ?! Didn't you ever think that you had someone at home with you and maybe they were worried about you, huh ?!" as soon as Aius entered the house that's what I immediately opened up to him, but he didn't seem to hear anything and just passed me.

"Did you drink?" I said coldly, but in my heart it was as if my heart was being crushed because of his disregard for my presence.

"I'm asking you, Aius. Did you drink?" I asked again when he didn't answer, even though I knew that the answer to my question was that I still wanted to hear the answer from him, funny right?

Aius stopped climbing and then spoke without looking at me. "Just a little to calm my heart." it's still cold at night he answered me, and that makes me want to cry. I just went and sighed, when I looked up he was out of my sight. Stay upstairs in the bedroom.

Disgusted, I followed him to our room. I waited a few minutes before he came out of the bathroom. The moment he stepped out of the bathroom, I immediately walked towards him and slapped him really hard.

"What was that for ?!" he said sharply, causing my muscles to tremble with nervousness, I can see it in his eyes, the anger and pain.

"Damn you for making me worry and making me wait for the whole night ?! I'm worried about you that maybe if you get hit and then you'll just come home drunk ?! Are we kidding here Aius huh ?!" I stopped shouting.

"Who told you to wait for me ?! I didn't even tell you to wait and be worried about me, so stop these crap, Sariel and let me fucking rest, I'm tired with all the bullshit, let me rest. " he said coldly then just passed me as if he didn't care about me.

Pain. That's all I'm feeling right at this moment. I can't believe that he just yelled at me, and passed by me like I was just nothing. I thought ... I thought he love me? Then why is he acting like that? What the hell did just happen?

Gradually I felt my tears fall, and at the same time as my eyes wept was the re-crushing of my heart which was slowly forming again.

"I'm ... I'm so sorry for all the things I've told you, earlier. I'm sorry for waiting for you, and for worrying. I'm sorry for nagging at you like fvcking caring wife, I'm sorry, I didn't mean all the hurtful words I've told you. I'm sorry. " I cried and whispered softly to him, I don't know if he could hear me or what, but I still continued to speak, I cried my heart out.

I know, it's so stupid of me to realize things this late. Funny, right? I just realized earlier that I was feeling something with him again. I just realized all his efforts while I was waiting for him to come home, if I hadn't worried too much, I wouldn't have understood and admitted to myself that in the short time that we have been together and the efforts n then I fell for him again.

I was so blinded by my anger, I sent my brain too much, I was so defeated by my fear of being hurt, so in the end it was I who hurt him, and it hurt me more knowing that I'm hurting him big time.

Minutes of crying had past and I felt a pair of strong arms embrace me from behind, and then seconds had passed I felt his lips kissing my nape, making me stiffened.

"And now you're sorry, huh. If I know that leaving you for a while will make you fall in love with me again, I hope I've done that for a long time." he whispered huskily while kissing my nape up to my neck then to my jawline.

His kisses, it's making me hot. Damn, I didn't even realize that I missed him so much, I missed everything about him, his touch, his kiss, and his hugs.

"Damn, Aius, isn't it too early for this? I mean, we just get back together — no, I mean we'll just fix it, we should take things slowly — uhm!" I moaned when I felt his slight bite on the side of my neck.

After a few minutes, I found myself in our bed with him on top of me. He's kissing every part of my body and I was like, oh, nevermind. I just let him do whatever he wanna do, besides he's just kissing me. I won't let him go overboard.

But then, I felt his hand wondering all over my body. "S-s-stop, Aius. You're just drunk. Stop it. No." it's hard for me to say as I push him hard.

"Stop resisting, Love. I'm drunk, yes. But I know what I'm doing so stop, and just let me." he said huskily, and his husky voice drained all my energy. I stop pushing him away from me. And just let him rule my body.

He kissed me, touch me and then minutes later we are both naked and the rest is history.