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"Aius Xander Arguaza Frosco, what a nice name you have handsome." Aunt Andra said with a smile to my son who until now was just silently looking at his grandmother.

"Don't you want my greeting, grandson? Hmm?" Tita Andra asked.

My son just looked at her, then answer, "No, I'm not playing toys anymore, grandma." Aider said coldy.

"Aider." I was reluctant to call my son because he was losing his temper. I didn't teach him to answer that way, especially when he's talking to someone older than him.

"I'm sorry, mom." my son bowed and sincerely apologized when he heard the tone of my disobedience to him.

"Say, sorry to your grandmother." I said emphatically. Aius on the other side is just silently watching us.

"Sorry, grandma." Aider said softly then let me know that he was going to go up to his room to read. My son loves reading. I just agreed.

"I'm sorry about that, Tita. Maybe my son isn't used to it, I'm sorry." embarrassed I apologize.

"It's okay, hija. I understand. I'll get going now, I just went here to visit my grandson and you. Thank you and take care always, hija." After aunt Andra said that she left immediately, we took her to the gate.

And now, it's just me and Aius on the living room. No one speaks to us.

"I'll prepare the dinner." I said coldly to Aius and didn't wait for him to say anything.

By the way, it's been a month since we moved in here. Aius' house. And it's also a month since I got married to Aius and Aider's last name will be changed. No church wedding took place, we just signed a papers then that's it, we're already legally married.

Aider, is very cold these past month. He's always in his room and just reading some books. It was also far away from Aius. Then, Aius on the other hand is trying to capture my son's heart. I can feel it and I can see that he's doing his best to be close to our son, and to make up for our son, but then my son is too stubborn. Maybe because of what he saw the first time Aius and I met again. Aius ex never showed up. I also found out that Aius has not been mediating between them since I left.

After preparing our dinner, I called Aider and Aius for dinner.

"Mommy can I sleep beside you?"

"Of course, baby. Hmm did you miss my cuddles?" I asked my son tenderly.

"Hmm." my son just nodded and smiled sweetly at me.

"How about me?" surprised I looked at Aius when he suddenly spoke. "Huh?" I wondered.

"How about me? Can I sleep beside you, too?" its no stinging question to me.

I frowned, "What? Are you serious?" I giggled even though I could feel the heat on my cheek for reasons I don't know.

"Why? Is it wrong to sleep beside you? Come on, Sariel, we're married and we are supposed to sleep in the same bed." Aius said firmly, making me sigh. I just didn't answer him because my head was burning with him. Why the heck on earth would he say that? We're not romantically married for goodness sake. We didn't love each other anymore, so why would we sleep together, right?

"I'm done eating, mommy." my son broke the silence.

"Alright, go upstairs, son. Don't forget to brush your teeth before going to bed. Don't read a book first, it's late, your eyes might blur right away." I will leave my son, then Aider nodded and kissed me on the cheeks before storming out of the kitchen. But before he finally reach the door, he stopped then face his father. "Good night, papa." then he kiss his father in the cheeks, too.

Aius, on the other hand, couldn't believe he looked at our son, he couldn't believe that our son called him "papa" and kissed his cheek. Although I was also a bit surprised there, it's the first time that Aider did that to his father. Ever since, because we lived on the same roof with Aius, he didn't call it the pope. He was too far away from his father. But then, maybe he's getting used to it. And I'm so happy with the thought of it. That's really what I want, for my son to feel that he has a dad. I don't want him to be like me back when I was still young. That is also the reason why even against my will I agreed to marry on paper Aius and live on the same roof with him.

I was now washing the dishes when I suddenly felt a pair of strong and muscular arms wrapped in me from behind. I know who's arms is this. "Aius, I'm washing the dishes, stay away from me." I said softly because I could feel my heart beating slowly again. And I know right away what the reason is, and I don't want it. I don't want to feel anything towards him. I'm done loving him.

"Why? I'm not doing anything, I'm just hugging my wife." He then answer me using his husky voice then sniffed on my nape.

I stiffened because of what he did and my heart went crazy even more. "Hot." I just answered, and I know that my excuse is so useless because his whole house is air-conditioned.

"The aircon didn't turn off." Aius replied and tightened his hold on me even more, I just let him go because I knew I couldn't do anything even if I banned him a few times.

Minutes later and I was about to finish washing suddenly I could feel Aius's lips on my neck. I stiffened in my stance and my heart sank even more with excitement. "Stop it Aius." I said loudly and quickly finished what I was doing so that I could get away from Aius.

"I missed this. I miss hugging you. I miss your smell. I miss everything about you." Aius said softly while still continuing to give a little kiss on my neck. I stopped and faced him with full force.

"Really, huh? Stop the bullshit, Aius. Maybe you forgot what you did to me before?" I said angrily to him, causing him to stop and let go of my hug.

"I'm really sorry. I regretted everything I did in the past, Sariel. Please, forgive me, I'm begging. Let's start a new beginning, baby. I want a new start with you and our son." Aius said sadly. "Please?" he added, and the moment that I looked into his eyes, all I've seen was pure pain.

Wait. Pain? Why would he feel pain? He doesn't love me, anymore. He's just doing this for the sake of our son. I looked into his eyes again and I saw pure remorse, pleading and pain there, but then I don't want to believe any of his emotions, he's good at lying, he might be lying again. I won't fall into his trap again. I won't be fooled by him again. I shook him, before replying sarcastically and full of disgust. "No, I'm not going to fuck you again. You can't make me believe your lies anymore. And would you, please stop pretending, Aius? It's making me sick seeing your fvcking lies." I growled angrily at him and then without saying a word I left him in the kitchen.

I even heard that something on the stairs had broken, and it made me worried, but I just continued going upstairs, and then I went straight to my son's room and slept there.

I woke up suddenly because of the cold, when I looked at the clock hanging on the wall, it says that it's already 2:00 in the morning. I got up and none of my own walked out the door even though I had nothing to do outside.

I just walked down the hallway and for no apparent reason, I just saw my own feet inside Aius’s room.

And there, I saw Aius lying on his bed, half nake. He looks handsome to be honest. And he got his body more mascular. Tss, stop eye raping her, Sariel. I punish myself.

I looked at his clenched fist and immediately felt nervous when I saw the blood on the bedsheet of the bed, I immediately approached him to examine him, then I saw his fist, it's bleeding! I quickly went to the bathroom in his room and got a first aid kit to treat his wound.

As I was cleaning his wound I could also smell the smell of hard alcohol evaporating from his body. Did he just drunk? Tss. Shaking that I continued what I was doing. And when I finished, I got up to fix the used ones and went out of his room again, I don't want him to see me here, he might get the wrong idea.

But before I finally left the room, I sat next to him. I stared at him the most. He became more handsome now. His jaw tightened, and he became more attractive. I stared at her from her soft messy hair, and I don't know but it was as if someone was whispering to me that I should touch her hair so I touched it, using my palm I gently combed her hair . My heart never failed to stop beating wildly inside my chest. It is still beating Aius name. Or really thought that I already stopped loving him, but then I guess I'm wrong, although the love I have for him is not the same as before, and I can stop it, so I just stop it. I don't want to be the Sariel before everyone can be sacrificed just for Aius. I don't want to loose myself again. I can't afford to see myself loving, anyone.

Napabuntong hininga ako, "I'm sorry for all the hurtful words that I've said, Aius. I just want to guard my heart. And as long as I wanted to love you like before, I can't. I can ' t love you anymore, because I'm tired. So please, stop hurting yourself because there's nothing you can do, you'll never change my mind. Let's just be civil to each other for the sake of our son. " I whispered softly with a sad voice, my heart also ached. It's painful, but the pain is bearable.

I got up and gently kissed Aius's forehead, then I left his room and went down to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.