Chapter 36. I hate this life

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****BACk TO THE PAST*****

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**Aria's POV**

Gladimir was pained by the silly act with Angelo. So pissed off that he had to stay at a hotel for two good days. Wow, that was extreme I thought to myself because the last I checked he called me a whore, so why was he so pissed against a whore for doing things whores do?

During those two days, Nanny Clara and I helped each other. She was getting better bit by bit yet she still found the strength to console me. Nonetheless him being away gave me peace. At least I didn't have to see his annoying face after what happened between us and that was so relieving.

I was in the living room with Nanny Clara watching a program on TV when the door unexpectedly opened revealing the monster. He walked into the living room and sat on one of the couches. Nanny Clara and I suddenly got quiet and composed.

After some few minutes, he stood up and walked towards us stretching his hand towards me. I was surprised. I looked left and right before I placed my hands in his palms. There was no way I could oppose him, I didn't know what he was up to. He held my hand as I stood up and we walked through the path leading to his room. I felt so awkward. And indeed he was awkward. I didn't want to have anything to do with him until he gave me some apologies.

We walked into his room and he opened the door. When we got in, he asked me to sit down. I sat at one edge of the bed without any hesitation as I could see all seriousness in his face. Yet, I was very perplexed.

“My little Cupcake, I don't know if you read through the papers you signed, but you are stuck with me for the next, five years and the contract is automatically renewable for five more years if it doesn't get cancelled 30 days after its first expiration, so it's practically a 10 years contract depending solely on me. So the earlier you accept that, the better" he said confidently.

“For crying out loud who does that in the 21st century? You can't just own me through a contract or buy me with your money!” I screamed deep within me. I didn't have the power to voice it out. My heartbeats had so much increased that I felt my whole body vibrating in fear. I was so furious.

I feared him but what he said was more heartbreaking than scary. I thought the contract stuff was going to be something of a few months. I never knew that shit was for the next five year of my life. “No one sells her body to a man for this long, no matter how deviant this one is” I screamed deep within me as tears helplessly rolled down my eyes as he spoke.

“From this day on, I don’t want any dirty surprises from you and hey if you dare disobey me, I won't hesitate to punish you. According to the contract, you have no right to date or marry anyone else and you would only leave this place at the end of the contract. I don’t want you to give me any disease that you might pick from God knows who" he said to me and it sounded more like an affront.

His words were like a stone in my heart, I just couldn't believe my ears. “What the hell did Besty, get me into? I will kill that demon when next, I see her. I swear, I'm gonna murder that bitch” I cried deep within.

With all the pain I suddenly thought of my mom at the hospital and I started praying in my heart, hoping everything was going well with her treatment. She was my only solace, even though for her I had to go through hell for the next five years so she will never lack.

My heart hurt…

And the cruel master was staring at me, “Get dressed! I'm attending an important meeting tonight and you’re coming with me. I will advise you to put on your best behaviour or else you might end up regretting it” he held my chin and added “Don't mess around! And make sure you always have a smile on” He said sternly as he freed my chin.

"Okay, sir" I nodded my head. I knew he hated when I called him sir. It somehow portrayed all the dread I had towards him. He hated that and I knew it but he never made any effort to prove me underwise. He was so mean at times.

But not only what he said hurt me. What even hurt me more was the way he said it. The disdainful look on his face any time he slurred at me. The look was obscene and despicable. That kind of looks that killed one’s hard-earned self-esteem. That kind of look that makes you doubt if you are worthy being called human or worthy to stand in his presence. That kind of look makes you despise yourself.

“What the hell did you just call me?” he asked ruthlessly. “Sorry, sir, I called you, sir!” he looked at him with disdain. While I glanced at him with a sorrowful look hoping to get the Xavier hidden deep within him, all in vain. Instead, I made him angrier as he held my chin tightly this time and lifted my head up to meet his fierce gaze.

“Aria, stop playing with fire. This should be the last time I warn you about calling me, Sir. I'm not your Sir, I'm your fucken husband and the earlier you understand that the better, so call me appropriately!” he gradually moved his hand from my chin to my neck as he spoke. I was shivering as his hand was already gripping my neck. “Okay, honey, — my love… or whatever you want” I said with a trembling voice. I didn't want him to increase my pain.

“Better! Honey will do” he freed my neck with a cruel grin on his face as he gave me a gentle tap on the jaw and he left the room. I took a deep breath of relief before going back to my room to get ready.

I was devastated. Everything I thought Xavier and I were beginning to build was suddenly destroyed as everything turned back to be as it was in the past, — into my worse nightmare and I didn't want to live like that again. Living in constant fear, I was tired.

Just as in the beginning, the only option on my mind was to escape, but this mansion of his was being guarded by allot of armed men and escaping was impossible but at that moment, impossibility to me felt like a myth. I had made up my mind. I had to run!

I moved to my room and I went under the shower. I stood under it and the water helplessly declined on my skin. I got thoughtful and the next thing was me bursting into tears. I couldn't hold it anymore. I cried the hell out of me. I remember how my relations with Gladimir started and everything was wrong. Even how he took my virginity and all those images came back into my mind as a shock. Luckily, I was strong enough to withstand an anxiety attack.

I got so lost in my thoughts that I even went far to remember what I wanted as a child, how I wanted my life to be. Who could have told me that the job I used to despise so much was going to be the place of one of my best memories?…

Then I thought of Angelo… , my dear Angelo... More tears rolled down my cheeks.