Regret

TW: cheating and accident

Ciara's pov

"Aaaaaaaaaaahh !!" I scream as I shield my two arms to cover up my face.

I'm going to die!

I waited for a couple of seconds to feel something hit my body, but instead, I just heard a loud squealing noise that seemed like someone harshly stepped on the brake to stop the car.

What happened?

"O-oh my god! I'm sorry! I'm really sorry! Are you hurt? I'm really sorry, I'll just take you to the hospital!" I heard someone's voice panicking, I was surprised when nothing hit me, that's why I looked up to see what was happening, but then I saw a woman standing in front of me now looking around behind her.

"I'm sorry, I'm in a hurry. I'm really sorry!" He said, but my brows arched when I noticed who it was.

We were both even more surprised when we faced each other.

"Hannah?/Ciara?"

"What are you doing here? / Why are you here?" I shook my head.

"Why are you in such a hurry? You almost hit me. What are you doing here and it seems like someone is chasing you? You okay?" I confusedly asked her, but she just swallowed and still kept on looking behind us.

"I'm really sorry, I didn't know you were crossing the road. I didn't notice you, why are you here too?" She asked, but bothered about something else. Why does she keep glancing there?

"I just came from my friend, I'm going home too. And.. you sure you okay? It's like something's wrong with you, you seem anxious?" I asked in astonishment.

"No, don't mind me, I'm just.. ah.. never mind! Come on, come with me, I'll take you home since I'm also going to visit you." She said, but she looked not okay. It's obvious in her eyes, it looks so uneasy, that it keeps on glancing wherever it darted. While her lips were rapidly shaking.

But I keep that out of my mind and get to hop inside the car.

"Phew!" She sighed in relief and wiped her sweat. I frowned at her.

"Where do you really go?" I asked curiously. She can't even sit comfortably, obviously, something's bothering her a lot. She's nervous.

"Ha? Nothing! Nothing matters to me hehe. It... it's just that," she glanced at the side mirror.

What's really going on with this person?

"That what?"

"S-someone is chasing me," she replied, making me more confused.

"Chasing you, why? Did you do something wrong?"

"No, it's not like that. I mean, those people... I don't know what they are called, but they are chasing me. I was just passing by their territory, but then someone asked me a freaking dirty question. He gets into my nerves that's why I kinda get into trouble. I was just alone, and they're too many, that's why I tried to run.. y-yeah. That's really what happened," she nodded at her response.

"That's right, that's what happens to me.." she said. I just nodded even though I didn't believe her reason. It's obviously not true, she was hesitant to continue it at first and seemed to be thinking if it was the right thing to say.

The weird thing is how she's acting right now, what could have happened?

"Wait, how were you last night?" She suddenly changed the topic.

"It's fine, nothing bad happened hehe," I lied.

"Good to know then," she replied.

Kring! Kring!

We both gazed down at her cellphone when it rang.

"Hello?" She answers the call.

"Hannah, they're not here anymore-"

"Huh? Yeah. All right, bye!" I was surprised when Hannah suddenly turned off the call. The man hasn't even finished what he got to say.

That was kinda rude...

"Hannah, why didn't you finish what the person was talking about? That's rude.." I whisper.

"No, It's fine. It's nothing. Don't pay attention to it, that was just my older brother who will probably just be going to annoy me hehe," she answered then laughed, which was obviously a forced one. She's really acting weird.

It didn't take long either, we got to arrive home in just a few minutes.

Ting!

Hannah's cellphone rang again.

"Come on, Hannah. Come in." I beckoned her to enter the house, but my forehead furrowed when she did not follow me when I got out of her car. And there she was focusing on her phone, brows knitted.

"Hannah," I called her again, and she gazed at me.

"Come on," she glanced at his phone once again before looking at me.

"I'll just go here maybe next time, Ciara. I really have to go now, sorry. Bye for now, I'm really in a hurry!" She started the engine.

"Wait!" I was supposed to stop her, but she already started her car and quickly left. I was stunned for a while because I was confused by Hannah's weird actions.

She's sure that she's fine?

When I entered the house, it was a little bit surprising because the whole surroundings were quiet and no one was waiting for me.

"Is he not here?" I roam my eyes around to check but nothing's really there. I just went to the kitchen to get some water and cleanse my thirst. But as I swallowed the water in the jag, I was snapped when I heard a sudden noise from upstairs.

My eyebrows met.

'Is that Tyron?'

I immediately went upstairs to look at it, but I stopped again when I heard a strange sound.

I don't know if I'm hearing it right, but it looks like those noises are coming from Tyron's room. I could not move immediately because I could clearly hear everything when I once again stepped my feet closer to the direction of his room.

I was nervous about what I was about to see inside, but I just kept going and slowly walked towards Tyron's bedroom door.

My knees seemed to weaken when I heard a woman's moan. I gripped the glass of water I was holding and gently touched the doorknob.

I don't have a good feeling about what I'm going to see. I knew by the time I opened this door I would regret whatever my eyes saw. But I have to see, I have to know.

I let out a heavy sigh first before slowly turning the doorknob.

As soon as I opened the door I was shocked because an unexpected, unpleasant thing greeted me. My body froze which made me let go of the glass I was holding, causing it to break and get their attention unto me. My heart was torn apart from what I have just seen.

What is this...

I just covered my mouth to stop myself from sobbing. When they both turned in my direction, my heart seemed to pound when I saw the shock exactly on Tyron's face. And I don't know why when the woman looked at me seemed even happier seeing me as if she was expecting this to happen.

"I thought you kicked her out?" I heard the woman ask him.

"Fuck!" Tyron cursed and quickly stood up. She doesn't look fine, he looks drunk, but he also seems to realize immediately when he was surprised to see me.

How could he do this knowing that she has someone? Aren't two women enough for him to have sex with someone else?

"Get out!" He shouted to the woman behind him.

"What?"

"You heard me. Fucking get lost!" Tyron shouted and looked at me again.

"C-Ciara, let me explain.." I just wish he was sober right now because I could clearly see the concern on his face that I only saw now where I was the reason. I wanted to be happy, but my heart was breaking because he was completely a bastard for doing this.

He didn't just hurt me... if only Hannah could see this...

I shook my head when Tyron was about to approach me.

I didn't know what to say and do, but before he could get close to me, I immediately ran down the stairs to get away from him.

I just kept running until I got out of the house, my tears falling even more as the heavy rain poured, flowing down with my tears as I felt my chest getting heavier and tightening again.

Tyron's pov

Damn it! I don't know why I got suddenly nervous when Ciara caught us. Fucking hell It was as if all the effects of the alcohol I drank last night had suddenly disappeared. But even more, I can't understand why I'm running right now in the middle of the rain while looking for her!

I didn't know she was coming back, all I knew was that her friend had already taken her away from me!

Fuck it, why do you have to go back and see me losing control of myself. I drank because I immediately felt guilty for what I had done to you last night. I just feel like I went to my limits. I didn't notice that I was so angry and almost lost your life, just because of a fucking jealousness.

Yes, I know I'm jealous when she was with someone inside the car last night. I don't know who it was, but I hate it. I fucking hate it. I hate the fact that I'm feeling jealous even though I shouldn't because I only want her to disappear from my life!

And the woman... I don't know who the fuck she is. She just suddenly knocked on my door and said she was lost, she begged that if possible, she would spend only her night there. But I didn't know she had planned on doing that. I wasn't in my sober mind so I fucked up. I also rode what she wanted, because my brain was already in a mess and I wanted to lose everything I was thinking for even a brief moment.

And I also thought that Ciara would never come back to me so I did that, but I was fucking wrong. My instinct failed me. She came. And she fucking caught me! And I don't know why I have to feel nervous right now while looking for her.

In my whole life, I have only now felt intense fear and nervousness when she saw me with someone else, I should not have felt this way. Isn't this what I want? Then why am I here, worriedly looking for her under the heavy rain.

I gulped when I saw that she was not far away from running and seemed to be crossing the street. I suddenly felt nervous for no apparent reason, so I ran even faster. But I stopped when Not far from Ciara, I saw a black car, my eyes widened when I thought crossed my mind, seemed to know what's going to happen.

'Fuck, no!',

"Ciara!" I called out her name, but then also regretted it immediately and wished I hadn't called her.

It was too fast. I saw how that black car intentionally hit Ciara. I stopped running to where I was when the owner of that black car came out. It glanced at Ciara who now seemed to be lying down on the road before it turned around at me and grinned.

I didn't get to see his face because his face was covered by his mask.

But, w-wait.. isn't he also the person who dared to enter Ciara's room?!

Fuck this, bastard! The thickness of his face showed up on me again!

I felt my blood heat up even though my whole body was soaked in rainwater. I was about to step my foot in his direction when he hurriedly got back in his car and without a word, he quickly left.

Bullshit!

"Fuck this!" I exclaimed. Anger was building in my system, but I tried to ignore it and immediately ran to where Ciara was. But I was only a few steps away from her when I was quickly taken aback by what I have just seen. My two shoulders seemed to drop and my knees weakened when I saw blood shedding from her head while lying down unconscious, drowning in her blood.

Fuck, no...

Along with the heavy rain, my unexpected tears also flowed. I didn't notice that I was already kneeling in front of it as my trembling hands reached its body.

Why am I hurting? Isn't this what I want? Then why the hell am I fucking kneeling and bursting my tears while begging her to wake up?!

Damn it!

"Cia, damn, open your eyes, please!"

I admit I became ruthless to her because of my anger. There came a time when I once tried to kill her. I was also able to slander her to her parents to make her look bad and hate her even more.

But why did I seem to regret everything I did when I saw that she was no longer responding to me? I felt myself unconsciously reaching for her hand while feeling how warm the blood on the floor was. I was shaking and felt my breath getting heavier.

"You will regret all of this, Tyron. You will regret that you did all this!"

I no longer realized myself sobbing as I repeatedly apologized to her even though I knew she couldn't hear it and I knew it was all too late.

"I'm sorry," I apologized, voice shaking, gently pulling her body closer to mine to hug her not caring about the blood putting in my shirt. But my heart ached when I realized how motionless she was, that was when I let my tears fully burst out when I felt that she was still not moving.

"Please, hug me back," my voice cracked as I whispered to her ears. I don't know what to feel anymore. Everything around me was spinning, I felt so dizzy that anytime, I just felt like passing out.

Felt like my life messed up again, realizing how my life spun around in anger and hatred towards her. Thinking of how I wake up every morning with the thought of pushing her away.

I let out a shaky sigh when my sight get blurry, time passes by, I didn't know what happened next because I'm at loss.

All I knew was that we quickly got to the hospital and rushed Ciara inside the emergency room. I wanted to go with her and see her, but the nurses stopped me and kept me out of the ER. I felt so dizzy, I feel like any time I will pass out again because of the mixed feeling I felt right now.