Who are you

TW: There will be unpredictable scenes and/or alternative happenings in real life

"Ciara, wake up," I tried to feel its wrist.

"N-no! No!" I said in a panic when I couldn't even feel the pulse of its wrist. My body started shaking so much that I couldn't think of anything right again. But when it all snapped at me, realizing what all happened, I put my head on my hands, letting out a painful scream.

There's no fucking no way this is happening!

"Wife please, wake up!" My eyes hurt as I tried my best not to let any of my tears fall, but the pain was too much and so unbearable that I couldn't hold myself back but burst into tears.

This can't be true… wife, please, wake up.

"I'm sorry.." I sobbed as I apologized for fucking up again and quickly wrapped my body around her, engulfing her in an embrace. That was when I realized how motionless her body was, still, unresponsive. It was as if heaven and earth had fallen on me when I felt the coldness of her hands.

"Please, w-wake up, you can't just leave me like this. Ciara please . . ” I whisper, voice shaking, and I don't know what to feel anymore. My eyes were dimming because of the series of tears that escaped from my eyes while the tremor in my chest kept rumbling.

I couldn’t help but get weak and my shoulders slumped as I clung tightly to its cold hand while laying my head on its chest where I couldn't feel it beating. My chest aches so much, the emotional feeling almost hurts physically.

"I-I'm sorry, Ciara. I'm fucking sorry. I don't deserve your forgiveness knowing whatever I say won't change everything. I want to apologize, I want to say sorry for everything but it's too late. B-but, will it be too much if I ask you to come back? D-don't be like this, Ciara.. please. Wake up now, I didn't wish for this, please open your eyes.." I mumbled.

I didn't see myself breaking down this hard while desperately begging to hear her breathing and feel the movement of her body.

I hate this.

I don't know what to do anymore, right now, all I can think about is risking my life in exchange for her life coming back again.

Crying and begging. I tightly closed my eyes as I called his name.

"God, if you can see and hear me right now. I know you know I'm regretting everything, this will be too much, but I'm asking you one thing only this time. Please, please... hear me out. S-save her. Wake her up, please. Don't take her from me, please... I-I'm begging you. I-if I have to risk my life just to get her life back without any pain. I'm willing to surrender my life, j-just.. please. Don't take her. I'm willing to risk my life, you can take me instead of her... God please, I know you can hear me." I mumbled non-stop. My heart was begging and I didn't really know what I would do when he took her life.

Fuck this, why can't he just take me instead of her? I'm the one who deserves to be placed here, not her. I'm fucking willing to surrender my life to him, just to take her life back. She doesn't deserve this. She can't give up her life just like this. She fought for so long just to survive her life.. and now that she's here.. almost giving her life up, I would risk everything. I'm willing to give up my life just to place her.

I'm willing to die just for her to survive.

Why does she have to suffer like this because of me? Why does she have to be gone because of a jerk like me? It must be me... I must be the one in her situation because of the various reasons only God knows.

I'm the one you should take, God.. not her. Not her, not Ciara. She did nothing but fight all her life, it can't be just like this. So, please.. hear me out.. don't take her. I'll let you have my life, just... Just let her live, please.

It took a few minutes of me crying all my anger out before I noticed something. I don't know if I'm only hallucinating or what.

But... her finger... it moved...

I can't be wrong. I saw her finger move.

"W-wife.." I rushed from getting up and didn't know where to hold her because of nervousness. I even tried to lean my ear onto her chest, causing my tears to shed again when I felt her heartbeat back.

"Ha..." my eyes automatically widened and seemed to have been pulled by a huge thorn in my chest when I heard it breathe in the air, causing my smile to curve in disbelief.

Fuck... S-she's alive. She's fucking alive!

"Ciara, you're alive— you're alive! Damn, thank you, Lord! Thank you, thank you for hearing me out!" I shouted and quickly engulfed her body in a very tight embrace, while she was still trying to open her eyes.

I immediately ran to the door and opened it where the nurses and doctors kept knocking and shouting outside earlier.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?! It took so fucking long for you to open the door, are you out of your mind?!"

"She's... Awake.." Jennifer stopped yelling at me when she heard what Tito said.

"Pardon?" Jennifer asked, shock evident on her face.

I saw the nurses now surrounding Ciara.

"She's alive." Tita cried again and hugged Tito who immediately looked at me.

"What did you do?" I heard the doctor ask as he approached me. I wiped the tears that welled up in my eyes.

"It's unbelievable.." brows were knitted, when he said that it was as if he really couldn't believe what he was seeing now.

"I don't know what you did, ljo. But this is unbelievable. How?" He looks shocked and amazed at the same time.

"I-I also don't know how it happened.."

I'm not sure how it happened, but what I'm sure of right now as I am now ready to give my life up any time now.

Time passed and Ciara was moved to another room, it wasn't like an ordinary room. Everyone was busy taking care of Ciara and some devices were reattached to her, then they looked at the machine and some paper was handed to the nurse.

I even watched how their reactions changed, seemingly unable to believe what they saw.

"Doc! You're not gonna believe this."

We just watch what they do from the outside, but we can't hear what they are saying.

I got up immediately when a doctor came out.

"What's that?" Tita asked when he showed us a result posted on paper.

"Look at her heart..." We simultaneously looked at the paper held by the doctor.

"It's now normal, Doc. Normal.. far from what her heart used to look like," the nurse next to him exclaimed in disbelief.

"Miracle.." the doctor said. I was at a loss for words when I saw it.

"Oh God, this is a miracle! It only means one thing. She's fine, she's now healed..." The doctor added that it shocked everyone, including me.

"I-is that true?" Jennifer couldn't help but cry when she asked that.

I smiled. God is really good. He heard everything that I just wished him. Clara woke up without any pain.

She's healed now.. and it's now my time to surrender my life, compensation for everything I asked from him. I'm not regretting all of this. I'm thankful because I'll be at ease knowing that I can finally leave her without suffering from anything.

"Yes, it's surprising, but because of the shock that was given to her body, it helped her to come back and normalize all the flow in her body."

"She's cured, thanks to the lord and Mr. Collins, who let your child make it at the last minute." The nurse smiled as she looked at me.

It's not me. It was him. And it was Ciara because she fought again. She didn't give up from the last minute of her life.

I felt Tito pat me on the back. "I know you can do something, thank you." He said, I smiled a bit and didn't know how to feel because that's when I remembered what they told me.

I think this will be the last time I can see her, right?

I don't know when I will see her again or if there's still the next time. But if there's still a chance to be with her, then I won't do anything other than make-up. Makeup for all the sins I have committed against her. Well, at least, I can say goodbye to her in that way without telling a direct goodbye to her, right?

Ciara's pov.

"You can now rest, Ija." The nurse smiled at me.

"Thank you," I answered with a smile, I feel so light right now. Is there something that changes in me?

"Anyway, I have good news for you. Did you know you don't have an illness anymore? You're cured. Congratulations!" She said, happily, which surprised me. I covered my mouth in disbelief, felt like tearing up.

"R-really?"

"Yes."

"Omg, thank you!" I cried.

"You should say that to your husband, Mrs. Ciara," she said, which made me stop for a moment. The mischievous smile on my lips suddenly faded.

Did I hear it wrong?

"I gotta go now. Get some rest, okay? Congratulations on your recovery again!"

"Omg, Ara!!" I smiled as Jennifer walked in from the door and was followed by unexpected people.

Mommy? Daddy?

Why are they here? This is... unlikely. Why would they get in here just because of the accident? Did they just make up their mind now?

My attention to them was diverted when a man quietly walked in.

"Tyron, come here! Talk to Ciara. Omg! Do you know he's the reason for your recovery, huh? You should thank him for saving you! Well, I'm still a little upset, but it can maybe go through luxury, kidding!"

My eyes darkened the moment I saw his face was also the time everything flashed in my mind, what he did, why I ended up here, almost on the edge of death. I could only feel anger and pain building up inside me. Anger at myself because I let him fool around, pain because he is here in front of me now and I can see the worry on his face.

Where did he get the guts to face me after what he did to me? Huh... I really can't believe his evilness.

"Ara?" I snapped when Jennifer poked me. I shut my mouth for a moment and let out a heavy sigh before giving them a fake smile.

"Who is he?" I asked in astonishment as I arched my brows in confusion.

I could see how their eyes widened in shock.

I can't stop my blood from boiling because of anger when he can still manage to react as if he really cares about me? Wow, I don't know he's this funny.